Midnight sanguozhi #15:
maybe im into broken relationships recently?
so... today's for Cao Cao and Lady Ding.
《魏略》曰:太祖始有丁夫人,又劉夫人生子脩及清河長公主。劉早終,丁養子脩。子脩亡於穰,丁常言:「將我兒殺之,都不復念!」遂哭泣無節。太祖忿之,遣歸家,欲其意折。後太祖就見之,夫人方織,外人傳云「公至」,夫人踞機如故。太祖到,撫其背曰:「顧我共載歸乎!」夫人不顧,又不應。太祖却行,立於戶外,復云:「得無尚可邪!」遂不應,太祖曰:「真訣矣。」遂與絕,欲其家嫁之,其家不敢。
*Weilue* states: Emperor Taizu had Lady Ding, and later Lady Liu bore him a son, Zixiu (Cao Ang), and the Princess of Qinghe. (Lady) Liu died young, and Ding raised Zixiu. Zixiu died in Rang, and Ding often said, "You are the cause of my son's death, you wouldn't care about that?" She then wept uncontrollably. Emperor Taizu was angered and sent her home, hoping to break her spirit. Later, Emperor Taizu went to see her. Lady Ding was weaving when someone outside announced, "Gong has arrived!" She still remained seated at her loom. When Emperor Taizu arrived, he patted her back and said, "Look at me, shall we go home together?" She did not look at him and did not respond. Emperor Taizu walked away, stood outside the door, and said again, "Is there still hope?" She still did not respond. Emperor Taizu said, "(She) already decided!" He then severed ties with her and wanted her family to remarry her, but her family dared not.
後太祖病困,自慮不起,歎曰:「我前後行意,於心未曾有所負也。假令死而有靈,子脩若問『我母所在』,我將何辭以荅!」
Later, when Emperor Taizu was seriously ill and worried he would not recover, he sighed, "My actions before and after are my own conscience, I have no regrets. But if there is a spirit after my death, and my son Zixiu asks, 'Where is my mother?', what could I say?"
- Just because Cao Cao was into Zhang Xiu's aunt and acted like a disrespectful tyrant towards Zhang Xiu in Wancheng, his eldest son, his nephew and Dian Wei died. Lady Ding, who received the wish from Lady Liu before her death to raise her son and daughter, could never forgive Cao for that. Cao still loved her but he also knew that regardless of his sincerity to reconcile, she would not accept, and he keep his only regret until the day of his death.









