I wear these three necklaces every single day, and typically only take them off for showers or if my nighttime sensory issues are too great to handle them. Longest Had: Mjolnir. I was given this pendant by a friend of mine long before I had accepted the path of heathenry. This, and my gungnir spear pendent, were moments where my brain went into, what I call, "goblin mode." The basic premise being that I see something and there are signals going off in my brain that are outside my control, telling me that it needs to come home with me, to be in my life. This pendant, I've had for many years, and only within the past 6 months did I find the online shop where it was created. To backtrack, throughout the time that I've had this pendant, I never realized there is a face on the front, yet I always knew that that was the front. Only when I found the shop and the shop keepers notes, did I find out that the face of Odin is etched onto the front of Mjolnir. Most Important To Me: Lady Freyja's necklace. This is what I consider most important for a number of reasons - 1 being that she is not alone on this pendant. Backstory, I had begun wearing Mjolnir constantly and had Lady Freyja's pendant hanging above her altar. It hung on a fabric string that was not well made, so it often broke. Yet I could feel the energy that she wanted me to wear her pendant more often, as she is my matron and I her devotee, and she is often at the back of my mind, reminding me to take care of myself and pushing me to work through my own trauma. So what to do? The idea came to me to add her to this necklace, as it also hung above her altar. On this necklace sits the first promise ring my then-boyfriend (now-fiance) gave to me as well as the ashes for my childhood cat who passed a few years ago now and has begun to visit me during meditation to sit alongside me and protect me. Most Recent: Gungnir, Odin's spear. This is not only another situation of "goblin brain," but also the same scenario of finding out that it is something important. When helping a friend pack to move one day, we found this and it is a necklace he is not able to wear due to an allergy. I had been looking for something to wear to dedicate to Loki, as I am a nonbinary human and give offerings to Loki regularly for gender euphoria and general fuckery. This just felt right, like he had claimed it then and there, a hearty laugh echoing at the back of my mind. Today, upon looking into shops that had Gungnir items, did I actually find this same necklace. All the way down to the chain, the details were the same, and the shop owner selling the pendant as Gungnir, Odin's spear. And the mischievous, trickster god had claimed it as his representation of himself in my jewelry. I often have doubts that the gods would be interested in me, at all. This is only heightened by a life long battle with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and other mental illnesses. I'm able to argue the doubt when it is low, but I find myself subconsciously asking for reassurance from the gods once every now and then when the doubts are high and I question everything along my path - that is when something like this happens. All I can think is that these reminders are their way of telling me that, no matter my doubts, no matter my mental illness battles, they have chosen me and I am as much theirs as they are mine.
