#ladyvyolence

[ladyvyolence]

I have these weird moments of self doubt and anxiety where I feel like I'm a horrible person, a fuck up, and these moments are in the strangest of times, brought on by little things. Not noticing the dog had brought me a toy earlier, telling a sister that I can't let her buy something because it's broken/not all there and they don't have any replacements, etc. No one was hurt, blamed me, or was upset with me...besides myself. In those moments I feel so alone, so surreal, not in control of myself somehow.

[ladyvyolence]

So i bought jumping beans like a month ago from the dollar store because i hadnt had them in a while and it brings back good childhood memories from vacation. I hadnt heard them in weeks, so thinking they were dead, i threw them in my bedroom trash. Then i heard a noise that sounded quite like the beans. But it couldnt be right? Theyre only supposed to last a few days and it had been too long.

Wrong. This one bean is still kicking and apparently pretty pissed i threw him away because he hasnt stopped jumping around since i fished him out (dont worry its a trash for paper and pens and non-edible things and he was right on the top) at least 10 minutes ago.

[ladyvyolence]

So its 2am. I've barely gotten started on the stupid load of hw i have to do by tomorrow. I dont even want to go to class now, but i have to or i miss out on presenting the one thing i have done. Its 61 degrees out and im burning up. Stress makes my skin get warm. I dont want to sweat though. Im going to go to bed because if i dont, i wont wake up in the am.

[ladyvyolence]

So the other day i lost a follower (not that it bothers me because if you dont like what i post/reblog you probably shouldnt be following me) but now ive gained a new one! Yay. Welcome to the crazy factory, newbie. C:<