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[eyeccharlie]

It was nicer when I pretended you fell off the face of the earth. I was more free when I thought that. Now I’m down to 0 And I thought I wouldn’t hate you I thought we were clean But you played dirty and pretended to be clean. He was always right You were always useless But I thought I saw you in a better light. But you don’t have any.

[eyeccharlie]

Insane

You think you’re insane… You think there is something wrong with you You idolize this You romanticize this

Look at me Look at me and hear me IF anyone was to listen to the things I need The things I want, I would be considered insane I am insane But only one person knows that But see, IF everyone else knew Id be locked away

You say you wish you felt more, You didn’t feel dispare You wish you felt what i did Trust me You don’t Because the cravings i get The urges i want The things i feel a need to fulfill Are dangerous Dark And strange

[eyeccharlie]

-still my favorite hoodie-

[eyeccharlie]

“It’s just  phase you’ll grow out of it.” “Why don’t you still dress that way?” “You looked so much prettier like that…” Well I’m sorry. I’m sorry I look different and want to dress in clothing that aren’t made for my gender. I’m sorry I change my names, don’t use make up, don’t do my hair and want my hair cut short like a boy. I’m sorry I want to look like a boy and say girls are attractive, or that “her tits are nice”. I’m sorry you feel embarrassed to walk with me or think people will think we are together even though you’re straight. I’m sorry. I’m trying to find who I am, I’m trying to feel happy in my own skin being what I want to be. I don’t know who I am yet, I don’t know what I’m supposed to look like yet. I don’t know if I’m meant to fall in love with girls or if I’m supposed to fall in love with boys. I just don’t know. Don’t ask me, don’t tell me, don’t do anything, just let me be… just let me be happy and find who I am.