( … Why did I open my mouth. Why? What is this expression in english, shoe in mouth? Yes, that must be it. Now, how do I get out of this? How do I get HIM out of this?)
…Dear?
That may very well be, but that is not the here and now. What you need is calm, to breathe and be still in this moment. Clarity and anger are mutual enemies of one another.
I cannot be here without your help. None of us can. The remaining arcana, the other hosts still left conscious, this dreamscape; we all depend upon you. The little lark left us here to rot, and you are only thing maintaining this. You running amok out in land of the living would mean my passing, and passing of those still here. Calm yourself, and focus on improving our lives before revenge can ever be placed upon your table. Please, even if not for all of them…
Think of me.
Perhaps I am selfish, but I want you present here. I want another chance to show you those memories you finally have of us were real, the feelings between them earnest. I can finally share them with you again, even for just this brief moment.
I do not want this precious, short time to be wasted upon rage and foul temper. Please, be kind to me, don’t dwell upon those old wounds for now. What’s done and gone is gone, but we are still here, after everything noxious and foul tossed our way. I can love you again, openly, honestly, and without constraints, even if only for half a day. I cannot touch you, I cannot see you, but I can hear, and speak, and you are still here within reach of me. …that would be enough, if you would will it.
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M!A World’s Memories
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Yes. You’re right. You’re always right. I just wish… there was more I could do. I was never going to leave you. Even without knowing you, I was never going to. I’m just… mad, and sad that the first time I see you and I can’t hold you properly. But I suppose that was the same case the last I saw you.
My poor sweet love… No word on this earth can describe the pain I feel, but yet at the same time, no word could describe the joy burning in my chest to see you again… even if you cannot see me.
