to any last life bdubss reading this, im sorry, i miss you so so much, i wish i was braver, i wish i wasnt so terrified all the time, i wish i was a better partner. I do love you, i do care, im sorry, its ok if you dont forgive me
i can barely remember it, i have such absolute shit memory, i only know what even happened from watching my source, but i know how it felt
i cant remember what your smile looked like but i remember how happy it made me, i cant remember the feel of your hand in mine but i remember that i laughed. it all sort of melts away, and the world looks like a smudged oil painting in my head. i think i showed you my face once? did we sit by the fence or ignore it entirely? i cant remember
i wish i had more to say. how are you these days? any pets? that seems like a you thing, having pets.
i hope youre ok, i hope youre with people who make you happy