Jan 6, 2019
Woke up late. Feel like shit.
Have tons to do as I was a sloth yesterday. Cleaning, laundry, wrapping gifts, general putting things away and scrubbing stuff.
I just found out my kid is home.
I was certain she had gone with my mother (who lives here) to my brother’s house to visit my father (who I don’t speak to). But, no she’s just quietly playing in the living room down stairs.
None the less this has brought up all the feels about my father. I really need to deal with that emotional baggage. I can’t wait to EMDR the shit out of our entire history.
But first I have to ECT the crap out of my brain so I can function like a human again. With the right pills I can fake it for a bit, but that’s a bandaid...
