#late 2015

[rogue-driv3r]

Xmas meme from late 2015. Plot twist: he brought me a girlfriend instead, and Ferrari never scored a single win in 2016

[perpetualestrangement]

the day i never have to see you again will be one of the best moments in my life

[calmdownad]

0.75 - almost there. life feels cold and alone and you can almost touch the warmth of life

I feel the sunlight

And I feel alone

You know what I mean

My behaviour I don’t even condone

 Piano chords can’t articulate my feelings

I mean life’s good and I think I’m good

But I’m fickle I’m capricious

Aloof and overly facetious

 I keep my distance cause I don’t want to be too close

My life makes sense in these retrospective moments

 They don’t matter and I know I’m fine

A straight North American male with no sense of compromise

 Admittedly I like myself now

I made progress

You don’t know the half of it

I fake progress

 Yeah I’m shallow fuck that fuck you

There’s nothing greater than me minus you

[calmdownad]

0.7 - after you love someone and you try to get over it. you struggle first and then you do. then you grow. and it still hurts. but its fine because you have meaning.

Cmaj7, Gmaj7, A7/Amaj7, Am(7)

i dont really want to touch your emotion button and i really hope that this sadness amounts to nothing so we can be self-righeous all we want all day and if we went out for coffee id having nothing to say

[chorus] cause frankly i think theres nothing left of you but those ideas and objections that proved to be true but theres that one thing that i cherish that makes me oh so blue its those beauti-beautiful memories i have of me and you

and i hope it fels the same cause i loved you so much you think theres so much time to love and so little time to lust so just take my hand ill take ur hand and walk in the abyss but before i drop you off please give me one last kiss

and i hope it feels the same cause oh boy it felt so great but its time to move on now/time to turn the chapter and not one to ruminate so just take my hand and take a chance and just roll the dice cause i dont want to be a sappy love song all my life

and its about this time of night that this feeling comes back its this strange old yearning for some human contact and its so angry and so selfish and so wanting of more cause it doesnt have the patience to wait for wahts in store

Chorus(?)

even now its not so great in this time of healing cause i just bottle it up when im fresh upon those feelings i think it was for the best when it hurts its for the best it was just a little chance to put our feelings to the test

its so mopey its so tired and its so slouching on its back and its so wanting and so wishing and so wary to have it back call it honesty call it insecurity call it love call it shame i think theyre distributed equally so i could love u all the same

cause frankly i think theres so much left of you even those ideas and objections that proved to be true but theres that one thing that i cherish that makes me oh so blue its those beauti-beautiful memories i have of me and you

of me and you

and i dont wanna get too personal cause i know id tear up it wasnt going so smooth i think it was bound to muck up

cause i loved you

*and that night feels like frozen trauma in my head its all ruminating and replaying everything that you said and it hurts you and I so much inside i think theyre growing pains and when we learn theyll subside

and i hope ill feel the same cause you loved me so much i think theres so much time to love and theres so much time to lust i hope we meet in a park some day and we'll get a chance to say

*say you never left my heart youll always have your place it was a cozy little cubby beside a flushed red face so eager and so proud and so prideful and so loud so wanting to share with everyone how u could love without a doubt

and then it went downhill like a pop that fizzles out the remnants of a love all crumbled in doubt and wanted to love i wanted to love so hard but i felt like i couldnt so i let that ship depart

if these are waht drugs are like dont make me do it again its so hurtful and so hateful the withdrawl never ends it makes me wanna curl up so deep inside im not sure what that means i hope these feelings subside

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