Mar 5, 2020
List of my demons
1. Spencer.
2. Not being able to have a baby at this time.
3. Being left behind.
4. Taylor Schooler.
5. Ghosts of all the friends who left me.
6. My failed engagement.
7. Being betrayed.
8. The parts of me that will never change.
9. The inability to love myself.
10. The inability to love others after 2017.
11. Wanting to die even when I tell others I “feel better”.
12. Not being able to put into words the way I truly feel about myself, my purpose and the situations I’ve been dealt.
13. Not knowing how to live without my family when they are the only reason I’m still here.
14. Wishing I could rewrite my entire life.
15. Feeling like I’ll never be smart enough to do or be anything other than a drunk.
