#laur.txt

[glindaselphie]

vivian wilson, el*n m*sk’s trans daughter, is actually the funniest fucking person on the planet, I’m obsessed with her

[hashtagmyilya]

happy bday #myilya !!!! in honor of his special day here is my ilya (tuna melt themed) thesis:

i think ilya is, at his core, defeatist. hes not in the business of wanting things he cant have. that's literally putting yourself on the road to disappointment. you look at something, see it's unattainable, and simply turn away. there are other things out there for you.

he cant have shane hollander. they cant BE anything. so he doesnt want that, of course. but there are things they can have. more time, for one. and maybe they spend some of that time actually just hanging out and talking and eating together, like people who enjoy being around each other do, instead of just staring at their dicks waiting to be ready for a second round. (this is an exaggeration - theyve never done that, except for the one time they had a contest to see who could get hard again the fastest without touching. it was shane.) maybe they text, or call on the phone. nothing weird.

maybe they can know more about each others lives, what they get up to when theyre apart. how does shane celebrate his wins in other cities? with who? does he pick up women? what is he like with them? and if shane isnt hooking up with other people - well, its ok if hed prefer that ilya doesnt either. simpler that way.

(in a world where shane is less scared of his own feelings - either because hes come to terms with them or hasnt realised he has them - i can see him asking a lot more questions and things going very differently: "rozanov-" shane starts, cutting himself off when ilyas head shoots up with alarm. "ilya. it sounds like you want to date me." "no," he denies immediately. "no, we cannot be anything, so i do not want this.")

i also think this mentality explains his behaviour in tampa - omg shanes here hes here alone ? hes being flirty? we can go back to how things were yayyy im not gonna ask for more ill take whatever i can get :)

and then SHANE is the one asking for more, putting ilya in the position of - youre being ridiculous, we cant be more, it doesnt matter what we want. like when he says "we fuck. its simple." i DO think he means this. its simple if we keep it simple. we cant have it so we cant want it. obviously. youre not content with that? ungrateful, now? "simple for me" similarly, is an accusation. youre complicating things now? you want the enormity of our (and make no mistake it is OUR) desire to destroy what little weve managed to build, as well as the rest of our lives? he is sosososo scared of wanting more with shane.

and that doesnt go away either. its not until shane puts in the time and effort and the comfort and builds him a literal ROADMAP and shows him that its possible that hes actually able to admit that what he wants is to be with shane, and keep being with him. and he can want that bc shanes convinced him its something he can have. "is it agony for you too?" "not anymore" YEAH I BET. the first "i love you" and "boyfriends yes probably i think" are built on the back of shanes love :)

[intersexelphie]

this is your daily reminder: please call intersex people intersex and not “people with dsds”. that is not an accepted term within 99% of our community and is peddled usually by transphobic dyadics who do it to speak over us and undermine us because our existence doesn’t fit their narrative.

and that 1% of intersex people who peddle it are usually self-hating pick mes who think intersexphobes are their friends and who throw trans people under the bus in the hopes it’ll save them.

please listen to intersex advocates for ourselves and others on this, not conservatives and their bedmates. thanks.

[glindaselphie]

I am a shark defender not in the sense or “they’re puppies 🥺” but in the sense of “these are literal apex predators that are in their home. we know that’s their home, they do not intentionally eat humans bc we are not their natural prey and they’d never attack us if we never went into their habitat. that’s always the risk we take if we go too far out into the ocean and we shouldn’t demonise sharks any more than we should demonise a tiger that mauled some idiot who thought climbing into their enclosure at the zoo would be a good idea. they’re doing what is natural to them and it’s generally pretty easy to just stay tf away from them”

[glindaselphie]

sobbing at this cuteness

happy wicked release day, everyone 💚💖

[glindaselphie]

wicked for good spoilers but the movie cat fight truly shows how much elphie loves to ragebait glinda 😭 her just flying out of the way every time glinda tried to get her and cackling as she did it lmfao. she’s such a troll

[glindaselphie]

“glinda isn’t meant to be sympathised with” you might wanna tell that to glinda sympathiser #1 miss elphaba thropp then

[glindaselphie]

it will forever hurt my stomach that elphie waited for glinda to say i love you back before shutting the door. she needed to hear that from glinda just as much as glinda needed to hear it from her :((((