Layers of indirection
Maybe that’s why this isn’t helping as much
There’s no chance you’ll see it
The formats wrong
I’m not good at using page layout to get you to feel things.
I’m not good at choosing the right words
The right diction
The right
I get caught up in this high place
There isn’t the danger
Of that little green arrow.
This can’t even accidentally be sent.
.
It’s safer too.
I can say what I think I mean without having to worry
About how it sounds
What it could mean
If this is the thing that changes it all
.
But that means I don’t have to talk myself down
And it’s the talking that helps
It’s the realizing that while my experience is valid, it is not the only truth
The trying to understand what is actually happening
Rather than what feels like it is
.
I don’t know how to get it back.