Why do toxic fanfics keep popping up on my fyp, like no I don't want Gojo cheating on me, fucking me as an apology and me actually FORGIVING him???. I need a man who is OBSESSED with me and wouldn't even think of looking at another woman. The only fanfics that truly still my hunger are yander fics.
summary: you’re left alone with your best friend’s quiet, mysterious roommate. What could possibly go wrong?
content: MDNI 18+, fem!reader, tattoo artist!choso, alt!choso, pierced!choso, stóner!choso, plug(?)!choso, hair-down choso, no use of “y/n”, pórn no plot, maybe some plot, high séx, elements of dubcon, oral (f!receiving), sqúírting, dumbification, piv, size k!nk, CHOSO IS LOWK POSSESSIVEE, dare i say yandere?, brééding, etc.
word count: 5.1k
author's note: picture credits from left to right: einruji07 on X, b___ashui on X, einruji07 on X | divider credits go to @strangergraphics | this was inspired by an anon rec from a couple months ago! i tweaked it a little bit, so plz forgive me (ó﹏ò。) 🩶 also, MDNI 18+ if you are not 18+ i will block you.
choso's aux: dreams, fairytales, fantasies - a$ap ferg, sativa - jhene aiko, girl with the tattoo enter.lewd - miguel, nights like this - the kid laroi, swim - chase atlantic, right here - chase atlantic , chokehold - sleep token
“Where the fuck is he?” You mumbled anxiously underneath your breath.
You had been waiting inside Curseblood Studio for almost twenty minutes at this point, your phone long since dead by your side, thighs stuck to the plush leather of the parlor couch, and the thin heel of your boot tapping restlessly against the worn flooring.
The interior of the place was dim, and the reception area was entirely empty. It was 19:00, and you knew it was near closing hours (if not already).
Behind you, the soft pat, pat, pat of the summer rain tapped against the shop’s windows - a gentle melody accompanied by the faint humming of a tattoo gun somewhere deep within the shop, steady and distant, like a pulsing heartbeat thrumming in anticipation.
You were supposed to meet Suguru over an hour ago to catch the train into Chuo together. It was by order of Satoru, as the white-haired menace had practically begged the entire friend group to go clubbing with him tonight. But when Suguru never showed up at the station, you found yourself heading to the one place he was most likely to be: the tattoo shop where he worked.
Which, conveniently, just so happened to be situated right underneath the apartment that he shared with–
“You good?”
The voice was deep, soft, familiar.
You lifted your head, only for your eyes to land on… him.
Kamo. Choso.
The tall, tired-looking man had silently situated himself behind the counter without you realizing earlier. His dark hair, which normally was tied up, fell loosely around his neck, showing off his shaggy wolfcut. The dark inked slash that ran across the bridge of his nose contrasted well with the silver shark bites that adorned his pink lips, and his usual loungewear was replaced with ripped cargos and a black muscle tee, exposing his muscular arms and the gorgeous, dark red ink that wrapped around his pale skin in dizzying patterns.
His dark eyes met yours for just the smallest of moments, before quickly flicking away.
“Hi,” you murmured. You suddenly grew shy, feeling embarrassed for imposing well past his business hours. “Yes. I’m… good.”
He offered you a small nod in response.
The two of you knew each other only in passing. He was part of Suguru’s other friend group, and just so happened to be both his roommate and the other co-owner of the studio.
A reserved tattoo artist during the day.
An introspective stoner during the night.
During the numerous times you found yourself in your best friend’s apartment, you had only observed Kamo Choso from a safe distance: the hard planes of his bare back as he disappeared through the kitchen, the faint scent of old weed lingering from his room, and the sharp line of his jaw caught in brief, accidental glances.
It was only during the rare moments when the two of you awkwardly crossed paths, whether in the cramped hallway or the messy foyer, that conversation ever seemed possible. Yet even then, it rarely made it past a simple “hello”.
Which is why you found him so hard to read.
You truly couldn’t tell if the man genuinely disliked you, found you entirely unremarkable, or if he was simply the kind of person who kept everyone at arm's length.
Regardless, this was the first time ever where the two of you were addressing each other directly, without the chaperoning assistance of Suguru.
The quiet man rested his inked arms on the countertop that separated the two of you, silently letting his dark eyes wander over your body, taking you in.
Your hair framed your face softly, and every time you shifted, he could see the faint glint of the earrings that dangled beneath. The dress you wore tonight was short with a modest neckline, and the sheer black tights that adorned your legs accentuated the curve of your thighs.
Choso blinked, before wordlessly staring down at his hands, which had, at some point, unconsciously began to grip onto the countertop below him.
“I apologize for imposing on you.” Your words came out small as you looked up at him from where you sat, your nails tapping nervously against the frayed leather of the couch.
He shook his head almost immediately. “You’re not.” His voice came out a touch too deep, too serious, too rushed. He coughed lightly, willing his eyes to look at the clock on the wall rather than the mole by your lips. “Shop’s about to close though. You waitin’ on someone, or d’ya get bored and want some ink?”
You couldn’t help but release a breath you didn’t realize you were holding, an endearing chuckle escaping from your prettily glossed lips at his dry words.
Cute.
“Hmm…” you smiled, playfulness laced in your voice, “unfortunately, just waiting today...”
He didn’t even have to ask. He already knew for whom.
Suguru.
Choso tsked, cursing the other man underneath his breath for keeping you, the most attractive person that’s ever stepped foot inside the building, waiting. You watched him with doe-like eyes as he scratched the back of his neck, his brow furrowed in deep thought, and his inked biceps flexing subtly under the lowlight.
A moment passed before the man in front of you spoke again.
“Well then. Wanna do some waitin’ upstairs?”
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The thick smoke from a dying roach curled languidly in the heady air between you both.
It had been roughly thirty minutes since Kamo Choso had invited you into his apartment, taken your phone to his room to charge, and returned with the disappointing news that Geto-Fucking-Suguru hadn’t left you a single notification.
It had also been roughly twenty minutes since he’d offered you his weed.
Which is how you both found yourself here, sitting on a large couch in his shared living room, Human Earthworm 4 playing in the background, Choso’s zip-locked stash laying haphazardly on the coffee table in front of you, and his extended leg mere centimeters away from your thigh.
He didn’t expect you to be able to keep up with him, let alone agree to his offer in the first place.
Smoking with company felt a whole lot nicer than smoking alone.
Though, he didn’t know if that was because it was with you.
He took a sip of his Asahi, before chancing a glance up at you.
The whites of your eyes were glazed a pretty pink, and you were already staring at him with hooded lids, your glossed lip caught between your teeth as if you were deep in thought.
He looked away abruptly, startled by the force of his own heart squeezing at the sight of you.
“You don’t like me very much.”
Your head felt heavy as it lolled to the side, lashes fluttering lazily with each slow blink. The observation left your lips with surprising ease, delivered in the same matter-of-fact tone one might use to comment on the weather or the color of the sky.
He raised a pierced brow, his eyes impassive and his jaw drawn tight.
“Pardon?”
You smiled at him as if you were amused, before reaching out to grab the perspiring can from him, your soft fingers grazing his inked ones.
How bold.
If you were any more sober, maybe you would have refrained. Given him his space. Maintained the formal distance that had always existed between you. You frowned at the thought.
You took a sip of his beer, a hearty sigh escaping your mouth as the cool liquid gave you some reprieve from the heat that permeated the room.
An unreadable look crossed his face as his eyes locked in on where the gloss on your lips left a faint mark where his mouth had been just moments before.
“You heard me, Kamo Choso.”
You regarded him for a moment, dark eyes probing him as if a dare.
And, despite his proclivity for solitude and his enjoyment of peace, at the end of the day, Kamo Choso was simply a man.
Game. On.
He wordlessly fished out another pre-rolled joint from his stash, settling it between his pierced lips before sparking his lighter.
A moment passed.
The movie played on in the background.
Outside, the distant horns of late-night Osaka traffic drifted up to the third-floor apartment.
He exhaled through his nose, letting the smoke unfurl between you, filling the space, before slowly turning his head to face you, his expression unreadable.
“Address me casually.” He spoke coolly, his voice deep and just a touch scratchy.
And it took a moment for your hazy brain to register the fact that he was not asking.
He tapped the joint against the ashpan on the table, before taking another drag.
You swallowed, heat beginning to pool in your belly as your legs clenched subtly at his words.
It was almost a tease, watching his strong jaw work as he smoked in front of you, and seeing the glimpses of hard muscle rippling underneath his cut shirt.
How gorgeous he was.
How breathtakingly intimidating.
And before you could even have time to register your thoughts, he’s shifting closer to you, his hand mere millimeters away from your leg.
“Open.” His voice was low and careful.
You quietly obeyed.
And his eyes were focused solely on your pretty mouth, on the way your lips softly wrapped around the paper of the joint as he placed it gently between them.
His large fingers brushed against your bottom lip, the metal of his rings cooling the heat on your skin, before tenderly grazing your jaw.
You quickly took a few puffs, trying to conceal your reddening face behind the smoke.
You removed the joint from your lips, letting it rest on the edge of the ashpan as you stole his beer again, doing anything you could to try and calm yourself down.
The corners of his mouth curled into a knowing grin.
“-And for the record,” he leaned in, his hand moving to rest against your knee, the warmth of his skin searing straight through the thin fabric of your tights. “I don’t share my weed with people I don’t like.”
And his face was so close to yours that you could see the flecks of gold in his glazed eyes, the smooth lines of his tattoo that ran across his nose, the reflection of the TV light within his brow piercings, and the way his tattoos crawled up his forearms and curled around his neck.
Your head began to spin.
The steady warmth in your belly began to manifest an embarrassing amount of slickness between your thighs.
There was no denying it.
He was attractive. So damn captivating.
So really, you couldn’t help it when the following words tumbled out of your sweet, sweet mouth:
“I think I’m gonna need more proof than that, Cho-so-kun~”
And despite your light, breathless voice and wavering grin, Kamo Choso was oh, so serious as he pulled you into his lap, muscular arms working to situate yourself on top of him as your dress rode up higher along your thighs.
Your hands instinctively reached out to prop against his hard chest, and the shock on your face had your mouth forming the cutest little ‘o’ for him.
His chest was firm underneath the fabric of his shirt, and he smelt faintly of smoke and peppermint.
The longer you sat on his lap, the more your breaths intertwined, his air becoming your own, and yours becoming his.
You couldn’t help it as your hand drifted up the broad plane of his chest, your fingertips skimming over the fabric of his shirt before running over the slope of his tattooed neck. Your touch lingered along his jaw, thumb brushing gently against the cool metal of his shark bites
So soft, so intimate.
He brought one of his hands to cup your own, keeping your palm pressed to his jaw, and your thumb resting against his lips.
“Deal.”
And then he’s turning his head to press his lips against your palm, mumbling something against your soft skin, before moving both of his large hands doowwnn your body, finding steady purchase on your hips, fingers spanning across your ass as he’s shifting you impossibly closer to him, until your warm cunt was pressed against his painfully large erection.
Your chest was now squished against his, your noses knocking, and your long lashes fluttering against his skin.
He could feel the stiffness of your nipples as it pressed into him, and he could smell the jasmine of your perfume that began to mix with the light perspiration on your neck.
His lips were hovering yours, his breath shaky as he stared down at you.
“Choso…” you all but whimpered to him.
And oh, how he loved hearing his name in your mouth. His dick lurched in his pants.
Which is why he’s sticking his pierced tongue out, running it softly along your bottom lip, before languidly curling it up, letting it slip between the seam of your parted mouth as he finally, finally kisses you, sucking you in, savoring the sweetness of your saliva and the softness of your tongue.
And you sighed, so prettily and dreamily as your eyes fluttered closed.
You could feel the heaviness of his erection now as it pressed against your clothed cunt, the tights you were wearing doing absolutely nothing to hide the pathetic dampness that already began to soak through.
His large hands began to roam, rubbing circles into your hips before running down to your thighs, slipping his calloused fingers underneath the seam of your little black dress. And then pushing up, up, up along your legs until the skirtpiece is thoroughly bunched around your waist.
And your mind was spinning, the head high from his weed making all of your senses feel so heightened.
His hands felt rough and dominating. His tongue tasted like syrup and felt like sin. The cool metal of his piercings sent electrifying jolts straight through your overheated nerves and all the way down to your throbbing pussy.
There was just something so addictive about him, the way he moved, the way he controlled the pace – something so captivating that all you could do was follow, willing your body into submission, making you want to obey.
He released your bruised lips with a small haah~
You blinked up at him, your pretty eyes dazed and cutely confused as to why he was stopping now.
His heart squeezed tightly in his chest.
With one hand on your waist, he’s gently reaching around you, carefully picking up the joint that was still burning away on the ashtray, and then placing it between his lips.
He inhaled slowly, methodically, letting his eyes lock with yours again, his gaze glassy and heavy-lidded.
Such a pretty little thing, you were.
And oh, how he wanted to keep you.
Mark you and bite you and claim you for himself.
Choso reached out, his large, ringed fingers lightly wrapping around your neck as he pulled you closer, pressing his mouth against yours again as he let the smoke lazily unfurl inside of you.
And the smile on his face was nothing short of sleazy as he felt another gush of slick escape through the now translucent material of your tights.
“Mhhhn. Easyy there,” he all but drawled into your ear, his hand still firm against your throat.
You couldn’t help but squeeze your eyes shut, your core twisting with embarrassment, shame and… arousal?
He pressed an open-mouthed kiss to your neck, before resting the joint between your lips as he uses his other hand to lift the material of your tights higher, drawing the fabric taught to enunciate the folds and dips of your pussylips underneath.
He sucked a heavy breath in, his dick twitching at the sight of the soaked fabric, your quivering lips, and the impressively large dark spot that you were making on his pants just from kissing alone.
He was such a fucking goner.
“‘M not even close to done with ya yet,” he breathed, his chest starting to rise and fall almost erratically. “Not even close to provin’ to you…” his glassy eyes were slowly growing wild as his brain seemed to register something.
“Proof… You wanted proof, babygirl?” His low voice came out rough and partly delirious. He didn’t even give you a chance to speak before he’s using his large hand to cup your sex, the heat of his palm against you making you clench in anticipation.
You could feel your heartbeat throbbing in your pussy, pounding to a beat almost similar to his name.
Cho-so. Cho-so. Cho-so.
“I’ll show ya’ proof-”
And then he’s riiiipping the flimsy fabric of your tights apart, until your bare cunt lay fully on display before him.
“-And you’re gonna take it. ”
You didn’t even have a chance to respond before he’s pushing you down, down, down until your upper body rested against the cushions of his couch.
He leaned forward, holding the dying joint to your lips, letting you take another hit before he finished it off, taking one long drag before crushing the roach into the ashtray.
You try to keep the smoke inside of you for as long as you can, letting it settle in your lungs and course through your blood.
And it seemed like he was of a similar mindset as you.
Except, instead of exhaling into the already hazy air of his living room, he’s leaning down, until his flushed face is nestled between your damp thighs, his tattooed nose pressed firmly against your exposed clit, and his soft mouth latching onto your drenched pussylips as he blows the smoke inside you for yet the second time that night.
Your eyes squeezed shut, kiss-bitten lips tugged between your teeth, and cheeks flushed a sensual shade of rouge.
Everything was just so incredibly warm.
“Choso–!”
“Haah– this what ya’ wanted all along right? You just wanted me.” He’s lapping you up, licking fat, messy stripes against your folds, talking against your pussy almost breathlessly. “Say it. Say that you just want me. That you just need me.”
And your jaw is hinging, mouth parting, the words forming at the tip of your tongue–
Squeellchhh~
“Yess! Good girl! Such a good fuckin’ girl.”
It’s only then that you realize he was never even talking to you to begin with - in fact, he wasn’t just talking against your pussy, but to it.
You moaned, your chest heaving, your skin buzzing with every touch of his fingers and every lick by his tongue. You squirmed as he draagged his piercing through your folds, the smooth metal tracing a cool path on your blazing skin.
You could hear the sound of your blood pounding loud in your ears now, your heartbeat wild in your chest. Everything felt like too much, and not enough, all at the same time.
“M-more, Cho. Need more.” You panted out, your glassy eyes staring back up at him pleadingly.
“That so?” He grunted, the words reverberating throughout your cunt as he spoke between your lips.
You nodded, a tear slipping from your eye as the heat in your belly grew.
“Then get louder.”
And there was absolutely nothing that could’ve prepared you for when he pressed his pierced tongue against your clit, letting the metal ball press firm as he plunged his thick, ringed fingers inside of you, fucking into your tightness, pumping in and out and in and out, hitting and pressing and massaging that sensitive lil’ bundle of nerves deep within your velvety pussy. And you’re gasping shamelessly, your breah hitching and your back arching and your voice breaking as he’s fucking his fingers impossibly deeper, crooking them up until you saw stars.
You could feel yourself beginning to cream around him, your juices messily splattering across his maw.
And the way he was staring up at you had your tummy twisting in on itself, the unyielding heat pooling in your pussy growing hotter and hotter.
He stared at you through glassy eyes and heavy lids, his cheeks flushed the prettiest shade of pink, sweat running down his temples, and his warm tongue swirling his name onto your clit in agonizing lil’ loops.
Cho-so, Cho-so, Cho-so~
It was divine. It was hot. It was messy and wet and so fucking good.
You began to chant his name like it was the only one you knew, like you forgot your own entirely, like you didn’t even fucking care – because all that did matter was the wet sounds of his mouth sucking your clit and the squelching of your pussy as it echoed throughout the heavily smoke-filled room.
And you were doing so well, crying his name on both your lips, that he didn’t ever want to stop.
So, it nearly broke him when he had to release your clit with a little paah~
He leaned back, one of his hands still fucking his fingers inside of you as the other worked on unbuttoning his pants. His rhythm faltered for only a fraction of a second as he tugged aside his briefs, releasing his cock with a heavy thump! against his hard abdomen.
And…
Holy shit.
Your wide eyes ogled at him as your mind fully fucking short-circuited.
He was large.
He was pierced.
And he was inked.
You let in a small gasp, your glassy eyes trying to take it all in: the tattoos that wrapped around his base, the sheer fatness of his girth, the angry veins that climbed up his cock, and the glinting metal on the underside of his shaft.
Another warm gob of slick slipped languidly past your lips, making a trail through your soaked folds before finding home on the damp couch cushions below.
And a burst of pride swelled in Kamo Choso’s chest at the way you were looking at him, at the way your pretty pussy was crying to him: so cute, so pathetic, so needy.
He swatted his hand against your swollen cunt, relishing in the little aah~ that escaped your kiss-bitten lips.
“You’ve been doin’ so well, babygirl,” he breathed.
And you were so dazed, so stoned and blissed out that all you could do was whimper in response.
Slowly, he pulled his ringed fingers out of you, his hand and wrist soaked fully in your release. He hummed, a proud smile pulling across his features as he languidly wiped your juices over his already leaking cock, before slowly, teasingly jerking himself off.
It was transfixing, to say the least – watching as he gripped himself at the base, his heavy dick bobbing as he pumped himself, pushing thick pearls of pre-cum up, up, up through his slit.
His breath stuttered as you reached out, curiously tracing your fingers along the underside of his shaft, pausing his ministrations.
“I thought…” you began, your eyes locked onto where the veins on his dick pulsed in anticipation. “I thought you still had somethin’ to prove to me?” And your eyes were wide and doe-like as you menacingly spread his gooey pre all over his throbbing tip.
“Oh I do, don’t I,” he drawled, leaning over your body, caging you in, as his hips dipped down to meet against yours. “How could I even forget.”
And then he’s slipping his cock against your soaked folds, coating himself further in your slick, rolling his hips so that you could feel him, all of him, from base to tip.
You mewled at the sensation of his heavy dick pressed against you, using you, and the metal of his piercing meanly rubbing past your pulsing clit.
“There ya go,” he crooned, his mouth licking hot stripes by your ear. “Jus’ like that now. I like it when you're loud f’me.”
And he keeps his pace, rubbing against you, letting the weight of his leaking tip tease lightly against the tightness of your hole, before retreating, always retreating, slipping and sliding against you in painstaking loops.
You could almost cry.
You could almost scream.
And then you’re clawing at his back, at his hair. Digging crescents into his shoulders. Begging him to go. Begging him to do something. Begging him to fuck you.
And the grin that formed on his face was positively wicked.
“Deal.”
And then he’s presssingg his thick cockhead against your entrance, the cool metal of the piercing rubbing against your warm lips, as you slowly began to swallow his tip whole.
You’re gasping, your hole stretching to accommodate for his girth, for the extra metal that he wore on his skin..
“Holy fu–” his eyes screwed shut, his breath ragged, and his chest rising and falling erratically at the sensation of your warm, gooey walls wrapping around him in an overwhelming kiss, squishing and massaging against the sensitive underside of his tip.
He could’ve nutted right then and there, your wet pussy squeelching as you squeezed around him.
For a moment, he forgot how to breathe.
“Fuck, you’re just a cruel lil’ thing, aren’t ya?”
And you don’t even have time to respond, don’t even have time to think, because he’s forcing himself in, spearing your gummy walls apart, burrowing his dick deep within you until it felt like you could feel the metal of his piercing practically smooching against your cervix.
Your eyes roll back into your head, the air feeling as if it had been knocked from your lungs from the sheer length of him.
“Haah~ knew my baby could do it f’me,” his deep voice cracked, his glassy eyes wild as he gripped firmly onto your hips. He started to buck into you, fucking himself deeper and deeper, until all you could hear was his skin slapping against yours as he molded your pussy to the shape of him, rubbing his cockhead against your g-spot savagely, ruthlessly, animalistically.
“Knew you’d be able to take it,” he was grunting now, his words choppy and he veins on his neck popping from the sheer force of his dick pounding against your cunt. “Knew you’d feel this good while I prove to ya how much I fuckin’ like ya.”
Your traitorous heart swelled at his words, your tummy fluttering, pleasure building, and your pussy gripping onto his cock like a lifeline.
His pierced mouth found yours again, his tongue meeting yours in a messy french. Drool started to spill from your lips as his pace quickened, the wet sound of his balls smacking against your soaked cunt filling the hazy air around you. Everything was getting hotter, stickier, clumsier. His hips were beginning to stutter, and his breaths were coming out in short, quick pants.
And his tip just kept pressing exactly into that spot you needed most, the smooth metal of his piercing rubbing your nerves in ways that had your toes curling, skin tingling, and head absolutely reeling.
And you could feel it – your legs trembling, your ears ringing, the absolute peaks of your orgasm rippling and running through your body in overwhelming waves as his fat, leaking cock fucks into your womb.
“Shit–I’m–” his jaw tensed, his muscles flexing as he willed himself not to cum.
His dick was almost halfway outside of your gooey hole when you blinked up at him, teary eyed.
“C-Cho…” you were barely coherent, sputtering and gasping. “More.” And then you’re wrapping your legs around him, locking him in, pressing him flush against you, pushing his cock back inside you, refusing to let him go. “Need more proof,” you whispered.
And oh, of course he had to oblige.
Especially for you.
Especially like this.
“Yes, babygirl” was all he could breath out as he messily fucked you through your orgasm, pumping his cock in and out and in and out of your squelching pussy.
He watched, entranced, as he could see the soft bulge of himself in your tummy from where his dick was buried within you.
It was just all too much, too warm and soft and wet and tight, that his vision turned blurry, his lungs squeezing, and his chest heaving, as his thick, ropey cum forcefully painted your womb white, stuffing you full.
And, despite the absolute mess, he tenderly pressed a kiss to your temple, letting his mouth rest against your skin as he shallowly fucked his seed inside you, riding through the peaks of his own high.
For a moment, the two of you just stayed like that, his body warm as you breathed in each other’s air.
“Stay tonight?” His voice was soft, almost uncertain.
Your heart tugged against your ribs.
“Okay.”
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You snuck out of his bed before he had the chance to wake.
You blamed it on work. On responsibility. On the long list of reasons that made leaving feel like the right thing to do.
It was for the best, you kept repeating to yourself.
The two of you had been stoned last night. Perhaps even a little crossed. Those were all facts.
And this was not your first hook-up. You knew how it always went. You knew that by the time he would wake, you’d see it on his face: the embarrassment, the awkward realization, and the forced post-sex niceties
You knew how it worked – so why risk spoiling a beautiful(ly perverted) memory?
Your heart squeezed, and your stomach twisted into an uncomfortable knot.
It was nice, for what it was worth.
Your thoughts were a blur as you hurried back to your apartment, too focused on putting distance between yourself and the warmth you’d left behind. And it wasn’t until you sat down at your desk that you noticed your phone was still dead, its screen dark and lifeless in your hand.
He never charged it.
You sighed, plugging the device into power as you began to ready yourself for the work day ahead.
And it was only after you finished making yourself a cup of coffee and settling down into your chair when your phone finally lit up.
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3 missed messages from “Sugu”
1 missed call from “Sugu”
9 missed messages from “UTAHIME <33”
21 missed messages from “Gojo (Block L8r)”
5 missed calls from “Shokkkkko”
1 missed message from Unknown Number.
Oh?
You pressed into the latest message.
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Unknown (01:07): txt me when u wanna make it permanent. X
Your brow furrowed as you read the text again.
The hell did that even mean?
You glanced up, pondering the message until your eyes briefly caught your own reflection in the mirror across from your desk.
And there, just visible above the collar of your shirt, was a swirl of dark red ink peeking through the fabric.
Your breath hitched quietly.
Slowly, you hooked a finger beneath your collar and pulled it down, revealing tidy, elegant, deliberate strokes.
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"Choso’s"
a/n: apologies if this got poopy this was totally meant to be a lot shorter than i made it. arf.
tag list: @rinreena, @hailsworld00, @crybabymina, @porcelaiinedoll
(warnings: yandere, other stuff??? i rlly wanna make this a longshot but i dont have time rn so short blurb it is;-;)
Post Apocalypse AU with Gojo, Geto, Sukuna, and Choso all reluctantly working together in a settlement.
The dynamic is so interesting cuz on paper it should not work….yet it does??? Choso is gathering food and equipment. Sukuna is the weapons expert and is usually the one leading the raids on other settlements. Geto is the pseudo-leader and mostly holds things together. Gojo also helps in with raids and whatever else.
They aren't a found family at all. Choso barely speaks and acts more animal than human somedays. Sukuna mostly keeps to himself. Gojo and Geto are the ones who act the most friendly towards one another but everyone is constantly on edge. Peace on the settlement is nothing more than a fragile truce, but it works. On the settlement, everyone earns their keep.
And then you come along, stumbling in the sand, desperate for any type of relief from the blistering hot sun. Sukuna and Gojo are the ones who find you. They haul you on their truck with barely a fight before rushing back to the settlement. Geto and Choso expect them to come back with more supplies and food, but they are far more pleased when they discover you in the truck.
It's been awhile since any of the men have touched something soft. They all thought whatever softness the world had left had blown away in the airy desert wind, but you proved them wrong.
Choso falls first. Being with you reminds him of those green summer days before the downfall of humanity, back when he was a good big brother and loved his family. You're his family now, and he'd shred everything who comes between the two of you.
Sukuna will never admit it, but he'll sit by your cot when youre asleep. He'll keep vigil, paranoid something may take you away when the others aren't watching. Somedays, you being here really feels like a dream and he doesn't ever want to wake up.
Suguru acts the most normal. He converses with you and laughs with you. He makes himself seem the most safe. He doesn't want to stir any turmoil within the settlement, but it would be nice if you preferred him over the others.
Satoru is the least overbearing, but that doesn't say much. He never had much faith in god, but after they found you, only good things have happened. things are finally turning up in his miserable life. he calls you his lucky star, though you never discover how serious he means it.
For years, they just survived, but now they're finally living.
Meanwhile, you are so grateful the men found you when they did. You truly are. No amount of thanking them will ever be enough repayment. Still, you can never find yourself truly comfortable in the settlement. The way they stare at you is always so intense, like they're daring you to run, just so they'd have the excuse to chase you. Anytime you even mention leaving, one of the men are quick to change topics.
You aren't an idiot. You see the changes they're making here. Choso keeps building the surrounding fences higher and higher, like hes trying to keep something in. Satoru keeps installing more locks and bolts. You caught Sukuna smuggling in a ragged nursery book a while back. There's something in Suguru's room that eerily resembles a bassinet.
On the settlement, everyone earns their keep.
It wont be long before they expect you to earn yours.
CHOSO who's a perverted stalker... with a gift for you.
Part One, Part Two
When a soft brown teddy bear showed up at your door, Choso figured you’d throw it away immediately.
‘Probably from some creep.’ He thought you’d say, tossing in over your bare shoulder as you proceed back into the depths of your house. And you wouldn’t be wrong.
But that’s not what happened.
Instead you picked it up, looked at its beady eyes and soft fur for a while, and hugged it close to your chest. It’s tuffs of it’s beige coat tickled at your neck.
The look of glee was evident on your face as you tossed your head left and right to look for the secret admirer that left this cutie on your doorstep.
You had coincidentally placed the teddy on your bed, not even realizing the camera hidden deep in its plastic eye zoom into your cleavage once you started to fix the little bow tie beneath its muzzle.
It was just too cute. And one rare piece of your collection you hadn’t yet found— your admirer knows you too well!
Well, imagine Choso’s shock once he checks in to the live feed, fully imagining you on your phone or picking an outfit for tomorrow, only to see you knuckle deep in your pussy.
Well that’s what he thought. The tiny camera only caught the look of utter bliss as you dug the thing deeper into you. Maybe you were using a dildo, or a vibrator, or better yet something multipurpose.
That look of utter relief filling your face, putting sweat along the lines of your brow and your mouth wide open to let your pretty moans out, made Choso reach a hand into his drawer.
Out he pulled a fleshlight. One that he could only imagine felt as soft as your skin.
He rubbed the slit over his tip, eyes clenched and teeth grinding together at the sensation. Before plunging his lengthy cock into the pocket.
Choso yelped, bucking his hips as he began to steady the pace of the up and down motion he offered— one that he thought you’d might enjoy.
Oh he was nasty for doing this. He knew this feeling all too well. But, at least he knew he was gross, so maybe that makes him a little less gross?
He peaked an eye open, watching the monitor as you began to tear up. Whatever you were doing must’ve felt good. Really good. Hopefully he can live up to it on your third date.
Third date. Goodness, he could already imagine.
Choso had it all planned out, the life he imagined was perfect. Not too fast, not too slow, just the sweet spot he’d know you’d comply with. You would first make love on the third date, because Choso doesn’t just mindlessly fuck— not with someone like you.
Then, he would breed you. Your ass stuck in the air as his tip knocked against your walls. You’d be so blissed out you wouldn’t even feel the cum filling you up. Oh, that would be amazing.
Then you’d have no one else to turn to! You’d have to marry him. The diamond ring he had stashed away in his other desk drawer would look beautiful on you— he already knows! If he got anything else but your panties away from that sneak in last night, it would be the early sight of the ring on your finger.
Choso’s sure you’ll be happy, but that isn’t his top priority. As long as you’re together forever, you better be happy!
The thought of you, round and fulfilled with a baby in your stomach and a rock on your finger made him twitch. Once, twice, three times before cum shot out and deep into his pocket pussy.
Perfect timing too, considering he rolled his heavy head back to the live footage and saw you with your eyes in the back of your skull and drool seeping from the corner of your mouth. You two came at the same time.
yandere!choso who can't take his eyes off of you, whether it be during a lecture you two share or at one of sukuna's frat parties. he just wants you to be safe who could blame him?
yandere!choso who makes sure no one gets too comfortable around you, they could never get you the way he does after all. he threatens any guy who'd dare get close with you.
yandere!choso who watches and follows from afar, making sure you get back to your dorm unharmed. for "safety" reasons, he installs cameras throughout your dorm when you forget to lock your door one night, monitoring them frequently.
yandere!choso who admires you through these cameras he's set up, who thinks you look absolutely gorgeous even on your bad days. he notices everything about you, hes completely devoted to you.
yandere!choso who jerks off while he watches you shower through the cameras, sliding his cock up and down the pair of underwear he stole from you while he was in your dorm. he can't help himself, you look so good from this camera angle.
yandere!choso who builds up the courage to ask you out on a date to a nice restaurant after getting teased nonstop from geto and sukuna, to which you happily agree.
yandere!choso who becomes extra overprotective of you, snaking his arm around you at frat parties and pulling you closer to him anytime a guy shows interest in you. he takes you outside with him during his smoke breaks and lets you straddle his lap as he admires you.
yandere!choso who eats your pussy mean. "that's it, atta girl," he manages to get out while making a mess with his tongue on your puffy clit while he fingers you deep, looking up at you as you snake your hands through his hair.
yandere!choso who isn't afraid to fuck. hes got you bent over, thighs spread wide as he mercilessly bullies into your womb over and over. "fuckk.. pussy's so tight.. squeezing me so good," he moans in your ear as he goes impossibly deeper, drilling his fat mushroom tip to the hilt.
yandere!choso who wants to make you his, "shit.. im gonna knock you up- make you a mommy, bet you'd like that huh? wan' me to fill your womb up with my load?" he whispers in your ear as he continues to slide his fat cock in and out of your slick pussy, groaning in satisfaction as he snakes his arm around your stomach to press on the belly bulge his cock is giving you.
yandere!choso who uses his other hand to slide two fingers into your mouth, sliding them all around your tongue as a lubricant before he moves them in circles around your puffy clit, "you're close aren't you? come on, ngh.. cum around my cock.. i'll fill you up so good," he moans in your ear as your pussy flutters around his twitching cock, spasming and squeezing it.
yandere!choso who fills his cock to the hilt, hips stuttering and head thrown back as he fills your womb to the brim with his warm, sticky cum, "nghh.. oh fuck! that's it- take it alll, im gonna make sure this takes," he swears as he stays put deep in your womb, leaning forward and panting heavily as his cock continues to let out spurts of cum deep inside you.
yandere!choso who runs you a hot bath afterwards, cleaning your body gently and running his fingers through your scalp with your favorite shampoo. he gets in with you afterwards, letting you cockwarm him as you return the favor of washing his hair.
TWs: possessive behavior, obsession, coercive dynamics, captivity themes, violence, implied physical abuse, dehumanization, gore imagery, blood, cannibalistic implications, toxic relationships, manipulation, religious/saintly devotion imagery, emotional dependency, threats of harm, mental instability, body injury mentions, dark romance themes.
Gojo Satoru:
𝐁𝐚𝐛𝐞 / 𝐃𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐭 / 𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫.
Satoru loves sweet things- you included. He sees you with an eye of cherubic allure and flowing adoration: every atom of you -to him- was a jar filled with candies and sprinkles, colorful and arrayed in the beauty of a Louis Wain tableau. it plays on the harp of his ribs to see the joy in your eyes whenever he spoils and cossets you, clouding his affection above your head and raining it as gifts: sweets, expensive clothes, dates in places you remember from vintage movies— kisses and fondles and dreams on a ninth cloud.
Suguru Geto:
𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 / 𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠/ 𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥.
In a world that is drowned in filth and sin to its nose, Suguru beholds the dews of purity as blessings; too little yet merits the ardor of thousand springs: you, forever and foremost. you wash the ink in his heart like salt and rinse the blood in his mind like rain, a second of you smiling makes years of unhappiness a forgotten nightmare. Classic pet names are his favourite;holds you in a way a desperate Genji sees a so close yet too far Fujitsubo— with a yearn of fire and in the devotion of a saint. Holding your hand, kissing each inch and atom of you, holding you close are his art of worshipping you.
Itadori Yuji:
𝘽𝙤𝙤 / 𝙃𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙮𝙗𝙪𝙣 / 𝙏𝙚𝙙𝙙𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙧.
They said innocence is a kind of insanity¹, if so, then Yuji is a madman.
But is he to blame? You have him wrapped around your finger and he's just as blissful as a martyr seeing heaven. Being too small for a heart so big will cost you dearly— his grandfather would have warned, but you deserved all of what he can offer of affection and all of what he can say of love because you are the one! to him, you could do no wrong, you were a beauty who blessed his life, falling from the moon to him and God how lucky he is to discover you.
Silly things such as piggy back rides, a pinkie promise or a kiss on the cheek are his innocent ways of dallying you— it feels pure, sweet, and loving.
Fushiguro Megumi:
Moon / Sunflower / Sunshine.
Love set you going like a fat gold watch². Like a well full of water that felt a rock hit its bottom, Megumi winces at the slight feeling of being touched— more like reached from within, in a way words and smiles can do. It feels odd, like a warm water gushing out from an open rib, no blood or pain, just tenderness. It rose up to his face and ears, and suddenly he wanted to not look at you. Is this what they called a crush? How would he feel like this who he feels not but looks through a scope?
Megumi, feeling the taste of something sweet in the back of his tongue, quietly murmurs to you how you look beautiful as a full moon, or looks at a corner while waiting for you to comment on the sunflowers he brought you or just look at you and bask in your warmth— a young man's spring surely is love.
Nanami Kento :
Sweetheart / Dear / Light of my life.
Don Quixote but with a torn heart and washed dreams. Kento used to wish and pray so earnestly for that little light to come through, yet with him trapped in a box of cloned days, scenarios of a Kafkaesque life and grave nights, he abandoned all hope. Yet just as soon the light casted a shy ray, rose-colored glasses bloomed across his chest again. Kento feels petals under his nails and atop his fingers’ flesh; it hurts but it is so good— as love should feel.
As he kisses your knuckles or closes the clasp of the necklace he bought you, he can't help but think of his fingers as needles: he wants to run them over your skin, mark each of his digits’ lines with your blood and wounds, only if it didn't hurt he'd make you hurt with him.
Ryomen Sukuna :
Little one / Dove / Lamb:
Teeth and canines glitter in his mouth. to pluck a youngling bird’s heart and consume it, flesh and blood, to blend its atoms with his own³. Sukuna is nothing short of a walking calamity, a Babylonian king who stands in the sun and steps on earth. Sukuna, being the deformed human he is, revels in corrupting the innocent and gulping the life out of the marrow of the fragile— and what seems to be more fragile than a female?
Sukuna desires nothing more than ripping you with his teeth as he chews you, yet to have sprawled across his lap or at his feet, to see how small you are and how weak you appear feeds his ego.
Chiseling a marble to your shape or keep you locked in his domain for eternity, nestled away from the eyes of mortals. The king of curses puts you on a pedestal of grace and angelism, that such a seraph as yourself needed to be winged under a beast as himself— you keep your possessions hidden in fear of their chastity to be ruined.
Okkotsu Yuta :
Cherry blossom / Heart / Beloved:
He remembers a certain photo from a pile of magazines Rika used to bring. It played a lot of unlived memories he wished to swim through with Rika, alas she didn't live enough to dig her feet in the shore alone.
And while he dreams of giving someone else the glance of love at first sight, you didn't want to be looked at, you wanted to be seen.
Yuta can't see— or his eyes are gouged out.
You were unruly, not wanting to hold hands, not wanting to hug or let him inhale your scent, and you didn't let him stare at you while you looked somewhere else! You say strange things about taking time or getting to know him first and he can't wrap his mind around it; why would he wait to be a lover? don't you feel the same or you just pretend? He didn't care though, as long as you're by his side, having time and breath to get to look at you, isn't this enough for you?
Fushiguro Toji :
Doll / Daddy's plaything / Kitty :
Women are kitties, keep’em unclawed and all is good! a young man, scarred and abused, would see the softer sex as pretty porcelain dolls: sitting on glass shelves with meek eyes looking at nothing, dressed and silent, kissing the eye and caressing the male instinct to take. Breaking free from the Zenin grasp offered him more freedoms to act upon his desires; from gambling and drinking to slitting throats, and of course women— these lovely, soft and weak creatures.
Toji, however, sees you as the full package: sweet, cute, pretty and docile —He doesn't like to waste time picking— and he can't ask for more or better since you're now his constant source of distraction.
Toji easily breaks a bone just as he spanks, cruel at times and cosseting at others, playful as a puppy and as vile as a beast. He'll pet you on his lap, make you squirm under him and at his sweetest time he'll twirl a lock of your hair around his finger. if his mood goes a tad darker, he'll deliver a hard smack across your face, hiss terrible things into your ear or pull your hair like you were a sack. He isn't predictable— predictable is boring, and you gotta give your fullest to love.
Kamo Choso :
Precious / Muse / Rose.
Even if he now saw you only once, he would long for you through worlds, worlds.⁴ it is strange how you and him are in the same world, breath the same air and probably —Hopefully— confine the same beat of heart— but yours is human heart, pumps fresh clean blood, red and full of life, unlike his: half curse, a product of the lowest creatures with the highest yet neither of them. He feels like a mistake, a monster, a thing that should've been buried like a sin; but he can't help what he senses for you. Can a devilish being get to love a pure human?
Your warm skin, the color of your eyes, your bones and teeth, each rise and fall of your lungs and every beat of your heart; they're the details he lives for. He'd trade a bone or an eye to be a human with you; though it remains a wishful thinking.
Surprisingly, his cold hands are warmer in touch than any other human, you could hear a flutter of fondness deep in that chest, you could see a smile of a man who won his beloved in those eyes as he shows you his gift: he made a heart from blood for you, it was nowhere near beautiful or romantic, but can't he be given a taste of love? Can the world allow him to be near you?
(yandere! choso x Reader, psychological thriller/romance series)
fanart: dekazeze on twitter
summary ; in which after a terrible accident you lost all of your memories. when you lose them you wake up in the hospital.. where a handsome man awaits for you claiming to be your husband.
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✧˖° ⚠️ c/w ˖°✧ this series contains dark yandere themes — obsession, manipulation, gaslighting, captivity, stalking, blood play, and identity corruption. expect dubcon, breeding kink, rough intimacy, praise/degradation, and explicit sexual content. also includes violence, emotional coercion, and toxic romance. read at your own risk ♡ (one shot posted on tumblr, series will be on wattpad! follow @yanderslutt)
White. That was the first thing you noticed. It was not a place, not a sound, just color. Endless and unforgiving, stretching above you like it had swallowed the sky whole. Your eyes fluttered, burning as they tried to open fully. The light stabbed behind your forehead, sending a dull ache through your skull. You shut them again instinctively, breathing shallow, waiting for the pain to settle. Something beeped.
Slow. Steady. Repetitive.
The sound felt important, like it was keeping time for something fragile. When you opened your eyes again, the white sharpened into shapes. Rectangles. Lines. A ceiling tiled in neat squares, too clean to belong anywhere familiar. The air smelled faintly of antiseptic—sharp and cold in your lungs.
You tried to move. Your body didn’t respond the way you expected it to. Limbs felt heavy, distant, like they were resting a few seconds behind your thoughts. When you focused hard enough, your fingers twitched, just barely, a delayed reaction that sent a flicker of panic through your chest.
Why can’t I move?
The question formed easily. The answer did not. You searched your mind for context—for a before, for something that explained why you were here—but there was nothing to grab onto. No memory of falling asleep. No memory of waking up. No memory of anything that led to this moment. Your name hovered just out of reach. You knew you had one. The certainty of it sat somewhere deep in your bones. But when you tried to say it—even silently—it slipped away, dissolving into nothing.
A pressure built behind your eyes. You weren’t empty. Not completely. There were… pieces. Shards. A flash of pink—soft and drifting. The feeling of warm sunlight on your face. Laughter—yours or someone else’s, you couldn’t tell. They came without warning and vanished just as quickly, leaving no explanation behind. No faces. No voices. Just sensations without anchors, like fragments of a dream you woke up from too late.
Your heart began to beat faster. This isn’t right. You tried to take a deeper breath and felt a tightness in your chest, a subtle resistance that made you aware of your body all over again. Something tugged at your arm when you shifted—a gentle pull that stopped you from moving too far. You turned your head slightly. Clear tubing. A needle taped carefully to your skin. A bag of fluid hanging beside the bed.
Hospital. The word surfaced unbidden, settling into place with unsettling ease. You didn’t remember learning it. You just knew.
That realization made your stomach drop. If you could know that without remembering how… what else had been taken from you? Your gaze drifted, slow and unfocused, taking in the unfamiliar room. Pale curtains drawn halfway. A small table beside the bed. Machines you couldn’t name but somehow understood were watching you, measuring you, waiting for you to do something wrong.
You felt exposed. Not physically—covered, warm—but internally. Like someone had reached into your mind and wiped it clean, leaving you awake inside a body you didn’t recognize as your own. Who am I? The question echoed, unanswered. You searched harder this time, pushing past the fog, demanding something—anything—to hold onto. Childhood. A face. A place. A voice calling your name. Nothing came. Just more fragments. Dark hair brushing your cheek. The scent of rain on concrete. The feeling of being watched…
Your breath hitched at that last one, though you didn’t know why. Fear crept in slowly, like cold water rising around your ankles. You tried to speak—to call for help—but your throat burned when you opened your mouth, the sound that escaped barely more than a whisper. It startled you enough that your heart leapt. The beeping beside you sped up in response. You froze, suddenly hyperaware of the room again, of how loud your breathing sounded, of how alone you felt despite not knowing who you were supposed to be.
You stared up at the ceiling, blinking back tears you didn’t remember earning, and the thought pressed itself into your mind with quiet, devastating clarity: You had lost your past. And whatever waited for you next…would define who you became.
The door opened with a quiet hiss. You didn’t notice it at first—only the change in the air. The subtle shift of presence. Footsteps, light and practiced, crossed the room. “Oh—good,” a woman’s voice said gently. “You’re awake.” You turned your head toward the sound. A nurse stood near the foot of your bed, clipboard tucked under one arm. She smiled, professional and calm, the kind of smile meant to reassure without promising too much. “I’m glad to see you,” she continued, moving closer. “We heard some activity on your monitor.” Your mouth opened, then closed again. Your throat still felt raw, but you forced the words out anyway.
“Where… am I?” The nurse’s smile softened. “You’re in the hospital,” she said, like she’d expected the question. “You’ve been here for a little while now.” A little while. Your fingers curled into the sheet. “How long?” you asked. She hesitated just enough for you to notice.
“About three weeks,” she said carefully. The number landed like a weight in your chest. Three weeks of your life—gone. Unaccounted for. Existing somewhere you couldn’t reach.
The nurse pulled a chair closer and sat, bringing herself down to your level. “You had a severe head injury,” she explained. “A traumatic brain injury. You were unconscious when you were brought in.” Your gaze drifted to the bandage wrapped around your head, suddenly very aware of it. “There was swelling,” she continued. “Some bleeding. We were concerned about pressure on the brain, but you’ve stabilized nicely. Waking up today is a very good sign.” She flipped a page on her clipboard, then looked back at you. “I’m going to ask you a few questions, okay?”
You nodded. “How do you feel?” she asked. You searched for the answer. “I feel…” Your voice faltered. “Empty.” The nurse didn’t flinch.
“That’s okay,” she said. “That’s actually very common.” She paused. “Do you know your name?” You tried. Nothing came. You shook your head slowly. “Do you recognize where you are?” she asked. “Hospital,” you said, unsure how you knew. She made a small note. “Good. That’s something.”
Then, gently: “Can you tell me what you remember?” You stared at the ceiling again, jaw tightening as you sifted through the fog.
“I don’t remember… things,” you said slowly. “Not clearly. Just pieces. Like… flashes.”
“Can you describe them?” You closed your eyes. “Pink.. No.. Red? I.. don’t know,” you whispered. “Like petals. And… sunlight. Someone laughing.” Your brow furrowed. “I don’t know who. I can’t see faces.” The nurse nodded, scribbling something down. “That’s consistent with post-traumatic amnesia,” she explained. “Your brain is still healing. It’s normal to have fragmented recall—sensory impressions without context.” She looked at you kindly. “Right now, your memories are like a puzzle that’s been shaken up. Some pieces are there. They just don’t fit together yet.”
Your chest tightened. “Will they come back?” She didn’t answer right away. “We don’t know,” she said honestly. “Some patients regain most of their memories. Some only regain parts. Others form new memories moving forward, and the past stays… incomplete.”Incomplete. You swallowed. “You took a nasty fall,” she continued gently. “Hit your head pretty badly. When you were found, you were completely unconscious.” “Found by who?” you asked, the question slipping out before you could stop it.
The nurse glanced toward the door, then back to you. “Your husband,” she said. The word sent a ripple through you. “Husband?” She smiled, as if this part was meant to be comforting. “Yes. He found you and called emergency services immediately. He’s been here every day since.” Your heart stuttered. “I… I’m married?” you asked. “Yes,” she said. “For a few years now.” The room felt suddenly too small.
“You don’t remember him?” the nurse asked gently, though she already knew the answer. You shook your head. “That can be overwhelming,” she said softly. “But it’s okay. He understands. We’ve talked extensively.” Something about that made your stomach twist.
The nurse stood, tucking the clipboard under her arm again. “Try not to push yourself too hard,” she said. “Your brain needs rest. Confusion is expected at this stage.” Her voice faded slightly, like it was moving further away even though she was still standing there.
“I’ll let him know you’re awake,” she added. “Take your time.” The door opened again. Light spilled in. And then.. Everything blurred. Voices became muffled. Shapes softened at the edges. The ceiling above you seemed to stretch and tilt, like it was drifting away. The beeping slowed, warped, echoing strangely in your ears. The last thing you registered before slipping back into the fog was a single thought, heavy and uncertain: You had a husband. And you didn’t remember loving him at all.
You tried to sit up. The effort alone sent a dull wave of pressure through your skull, not sharp enough to scream, but heavy—like your thoughts were moving through water. The blinds were drawn tight, thin strips of light leaking through the edges but never quite touching you, as if the room itself was trying to keep you cocooned. Your eyes adjusted slowly.
White walls. A chair tucked neatly into the corner. A mirror mounted across from the bed, angled just enough that you hadn’t noticed it before. You lifted your hand to rub your eyes—and froze. Your fingers brushed against fabric instead of skin. A soft cloth. Gauze. Carefully wrapped and secured above your head. Oh.
This is where it happened. The realization didn’t come with pain. It came with emptiness. A hollow understanding that something had gone wrong here—something bad enough that strangers had wrapped you up and monitored you while you slept through weeks of your own life. Your hand drifted down instinctively, following the length of your arm, grounding yourself in the familiar weight of your own body. When you reached your left hand, your breath caught.
A faint pale band circled your finger. Not jewelry—absence. The skin there was lighter than the rest, smooth where something had clearly rested for a long time. A ring. You stared at it, heart pounding. Someone had taken it off. Probably to admit you. To keep it safe. That made sense. It had to make sense. Still, the sight made your chest ache in a way you couldn’t explain. Married.
The word echoed without meaning, without memory, without emotion—yet your body reacted anyway. A strange grief stirred, detached from any face or feeling, like mourning a stranger you were told you once loved. You swallowed hard. The mirror across the room caught your attention again. Slowly, carefully, you swung your legs over the side of the bed. The floor felt colder than you expected.
You stood, unsteady, and took a step closer to the mirror. The woman staring back at you felt… wrong. She was thinner than you thought you should be. Shoulders sloped inward, posture exhausted. Dark circles bruised the skin beneath her eyes, her complexion pale and drawn like she hadn’t seen sunlight in too long. Bandages crowned the top of her head, stark white against tangled hair. Scratches traced her arms and collarbone—thin, healing lines, some pink, some already fading. Evidence of something violent. Something you couldn’t remember surviving. You reached out, touching the glass like it might answer you.
“Is that me?” you whispered. The reflection didn’t respond. Your legs trembled. You tried to step back—And the room tilted. The floor rushed up far too fast, your balance slipping completely as panic flared sharp and sudden in your chest. You gasped, arms flailing uselessly as your knees buckled. Before you hit the ground—Strong arms wrapped around you.
You barely had time to register it before you were lifted, weightless, the world shifting abruptly as you were scooped up against a solid chest. The scent of him hit you first—clean, faintly metallic, something grounding and overwhelming all at once. You let out a startled sound, fingers clutching instinctively at the fabric of his shirt. “Hey—hey, I’ve got you,” a voice murmured close to your ear. Too close.
Your heart slammed violently against your ribs as you realized you were being held—carried—bridal style, cradled like something fragile. His grip was firm but careful, arms locked securely beneath your knees and behind your back, like he’d done this before. Your head spun.
“I shouldn’t—” you breathed, words tangling as dizziness swelled. “I didn’t mean to—” “It’s okay,” he said softly. “You stood up too fast.” You looked at him then. Up close, his face was overwhelming. Familiar in a way that made your skin prickle. Dark eyes fixed entirely on you, wide with concern, searching your face like he was afraid you’d vanish if he blinked.
This was him. Your husband. Your mind screamed questions your mouth couldn’t form. Who are you? Why do you feel like this? Why does my body react before my thoughts do? He adjusted his hold slightly, pulling you closer without asking, as if your weight belonged there. You could feel the steady thrum of his heartbeat through his chest—strong, unwavering—so different from the chaos spiraling inside your own. “You scared me,” he admitted quietly. The words hit you harder than they should have. “I’m sorry,” you whispered automatically, though you didn’t know what you were apologizing for.
He carried you back toward the bed, movements smooth and practiced, and lowered you carefully onto the mattress like you were made of glass. His hands lingered a moment too long—one steadying your shoulder, the other brushing your arm as if to reassure himself you were still real. You stared up at him, breath uneven, mind unraveling. Everything felt like too much.
The room.
The mirror.
The bandages.
The missing ring.
The man who held you like he already knew every inch of you.
Your chest tightened, tears burning unexpectedly behind your eyes. “I don’t… I don’t remember anything,” you whispered. His expression softened instantly. “That’s okay,” he said. “You don’t have to. Not yet.” But the way he said it—so certain, so calm—made your stomach twist. Because while you didn’t remember him at all… He remembered everything about you. The nurse returned not long after, pushing a small rolling tray into the room. The scent of warm food drifted in with her, soft and grounding—broth, bread, something mild meant for healing bodies. “Alright,” she said brightly, adjusting the tray near your bed. “We’re going to start slow. Small portions, easy chewing. You’ll probably feel weak for a while, so don’t push yourself.” You nodded, though even that made your neck ache faintly. When you reached for the bed rail to sit up, your arm shook. The movement felt wrong—like your muscles weren’t quite listening yet, delayed and unreliable. A wave of dizziness followed, light enough not to send you spiraling, but enough to remind you how fragile you still were.
“I can help her,” a low voice said calmly. You looked up. Choso had stepped closer, his presence filling the space beside the bed. He offered the nurse a polite smile—soft, practiced—already reaching for the tray. “I brought something she likes,” he added. “If that’s alright.” The nurse blinked, then laughed lightly. “Of course. That’s… very thoughtful.” She glanced at him again, slower this time. Her cheeks warmed just slightly before she caught herself and nodded. “I’ll leave you two to it, then. Just make sure she eats slowly.” “I will,” Choso said. The nurse gave you an encouraging smile, then slipped out, closing the door gently behind her. The room felt quieter after that. Too quiet. It was only then—really then—that you noticed him. Standing there in the muted hospital light, Choso looked… unreal.
Tall—far taller than you’d realized before. He had to be at least six-foot-four, his broad frame impossible to ignore even when he stood still. His hair fell loose around his shoulders, dark and unkempt, like he hadn’t bothered to tame it in days. Strands brushed his jaw, his neck. Your gaze drifted lower before you could stop it.
A thick tattoo curved up the side of his neck, disappearing beneath the collar of his tight black compression shirt. Ink spilled down over his chest and along his left arm, dark and deliberate, peeking from beneath the short sleeve that strained slightly around his bicep. Your throat went dry. He was wearing gray sweatpants, worn and casual, sitting low on his hips. The kind of outfit that looked harmless on most men—but on him, it only emphasized how solid he was. How dangerous. If you didn’t know better—if you didn’t know he was yours—you might’ve thought he was something else entirely. A mafioso. A hitman. Someone you shouldn’t trust.
And yet— He turned back to the tray, focused, methodical as he unpacked the containers. Gentle hands. Careful movements. He laid everything out neatly, like this was something he’d done many times before. You realized you were staring. Your cheeks warmed, and you quickly looked away, embarrassed by how openly you’d been gawking. Your heart beat strangely fast—not from fear, not entirely. From something else. You shifted, trying again to sit up on your own. The effort made your arms tremble, breath catching as your body resisted you like it didn’t quite belong to you yet.
Immediately, Choso noticed. “Easy,” he said softly, stepping closer. “Let me.” He slid an arm behind your back, firm and warm, helping you upright without lifting you this time. His touch was steady, grounding. You leaned into it before you realized you were doing it.“I’ve got you,” he murmured. You nodded, suddenly shy. Timid in a way you didn’t recognize but couldn’t stop. Your guard—what little of it you had—lowered without permission.
He adjusted your pillows, then picked up the tray, settling it gently in front of you. “I brought your favorite,” he said quietly. You looked down. Something warm. Familiar. Comforting. Your chest tightened, emotion rising too fast for you to name. “I don’t… remember,” you admitted softly. “But it smells nice.” “That’s okay,” he replied immediately. “You don’t have to remember yet.” He pulled the chair closer and sat, his knees almost brushing the side of the bed. Up close, he was overwhelming—too much presence, too much intensity wrapped in gentleness. “I’m Choso,” he said then, voice low and careful, like he was choosing each word with intention. “I’m your husband.” The word still made your stomach flutter uncomfortably—but this time, not entirely from fear. “We’ve been married for a while,” he continued. “You don’t need to feel pressured to believe anything I say. Just… take things at your pace.”
His eyes searched your face, not demanding—waiting. “I’ll help you,” he added. “With whatever you need. Eating. Walking. Remembering. Or not remembering.” You swallowed, fingers curling lightly around the edge of the tray. “Okay,” you whispered. The word surprised you as much as it seemed to please him. Choso’s shoulders relaxed just slightly, a breath easing from his chest. “That’s all I ask,” he said. “For now.” And as you lifted the spoon with shaky fingers, feeling his eyes never leave you—not possessive yet, not overtly—you couldn’t ignore the strange truth settling deep in your chest: You didn’t remember loving this man. But something in you didn’t feel afraid of him either. And that, somehow, felt even more dangerous.
You didn’t say much after that. Neither did he. The silence that settled between you wasn’t awkward—it was almost… peaceful. The kind that didn’t demand anything. The kind that let your thoughts drift without pressure. You focused on eating slowly, the spoon feeling heavier than it should have in your trembling hand.
Across from you, Choso watched quietly. Not staring. Just present. You found yourself looking at him again anyway. His face, this time—really looking. Strong jaw. Dark lashes casting shadows beneath tired eyes. There was a faint cut near his cheekbone, already healing, and when your gaze drifted lower you noticed more—scratches along his forearm, a fading bruise near his wrist, yellowed at the edges like it wasn’t fresh.
Your brows knit slightly. He caught you staring. A small huff of amusement left him. “I box.” The words startled you. “Box?” you repeated. He nodded once, rolling his shoulder casually. “Been doing it for years. Comes with the territory.”
You swallowed. “I get roughed up sometimes,” he added, almost dismissive. “It’s nothing.” You nodded slowly, eyes dropping back to the tray. A boxer. Of all things.
The thought felt strange—unexpected—yet it slipped into place too easily, like it belonged there. Who knew you’d end up married to someone like that? Someone with bruised knuckles and inked skin and a presence that felt too big for a hospital room.
Something tugged at the back of your mind then. A pressure. A flicker. His hands wrapped in tape.The sound of leather hitting flesh. Blood—not yours. Your breath hitched. You squeezed your eyes shut, trying to hold onto it—but the memory dissolved before it could form into anything solid. Just like the others. Just fragments, slipping through your grasp the moment you noticed them.
You exhaled shakily. Choso noticed immediately. “You okay?” he asked softly. “I—yeah,” you said, though it didn’t feel entirely true. “I thought I remembered something. But… it’s gone.”
His expression didn’t change, but his eyes softened. “That’s normal,” he said. “Don’t push it. You nodded again, resigned. You tried to lift the spoon once more. Your arm shook halfway up, muscles protesting sharply this time. The effort drained you faster than you expected, your grip loosening. Before you could get frustrated, Choso leaned forward.
“Here,” he said gently. He took the spoon from your hand without a word, dipping it back into the food. You tensed instantly, shoulders pulling in slightly as he brought it toward you. Not fear. Just instinct. He noticed.
“I’ll go slow,” he murmured. “Only if that’s okay.” You hesitated, then nodded. The spoon touched your lips. You opened them, letting him feed you carefully, his hand steady where yours had trembled. It felt… intimate. Too intimate. Your face warmed, heart beating faster for reasons you didn’t understand.
After a few bites, your body relaxed despite yourself. It was easier this way. You hated how comforting that realization felt. As he lowered the spoon again, his free hand reached out and closed gently around yours. Your breath caught.
Your muscles went taut for a split second, instinct screaming at the unfamiliar contact—but it faded almost immediately. Something about his touch felt… known. Familiar in a way that bypassed your thoughts entirely. Warm. Grounding. Your fingers didn’t pull away.
You looked down at where his hand held yours—firm but gentle, thumb resting lightly against your knuckles like it belonged there. “I’ve got you,” he said quietly, almost to himself. You didn’t know why the words made your chest ache. You didn’t remember him. You didn’t remember loving him. But your body—traitorous, confusing—didn’t feel like this was wrong. And that scared you more than anything else so far.
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