It's crazy how Ayin becomes fully aware of Benjamin's feelings and instead of thinking it over or processing it, he gets his kid to turn him into a robot person so the two of them can be together until their final moments and turns the whole thing into a tragic spectacle of how he ruined everything for Hokma in the long run and now they're going to die together and it'll all be Ayin's fault. And even when Hokma confronts him on this, Ayin still goes through with everything and gives no hint to Hokma whatsoever on what his true feelings for him are. Actually what the hell.
A/N: I’m going off of memory here pls be nice to me, also ended up doing both him and Hokma I hope you don’t mind
₊✦Lobotomy Corporation | Benjamin/Hokma x Gn!Reader | Minor spoilers!✦₊
AS BENJAMIN, he’s quite cuddly and physical affectionate if you’ll allow him. His touch stays light and he likes to give you space to move around so you’re comfortable, but he’ll take every opportunity he can get to cuddle you be it just sleeping in the same bed as you and holding you then or hugging you from behind as you work on something.
He doesn’t have a preference for being a big or small spoon either. He likes burying his face in the crook of your neck as you hold him just as much as he likes pulling you onto his lap or making you lie on top of his chest. It really doesn’t matter to him so long as he gets to spend time with you.
AS HOKMA, even if he’s not as physically affectionate as before, he’s still a bit touchy. He’s somewhat insecure about his appearance due to him becoming a sephiroth was a different process from what the others went through, causing him to age while the rest did not.
However he won’t let that stop him from cuddling you if that’s what you want.
This time however, he prefers to be the big spoon because of the aforementioned insecurity. He’s aware that this makes no sense but he can’t help but feel a little weird being the small spoon even though there are definitely times where he’d appreciate it if you simply held him in his arms, especially recently.
If you decide to push past his insecurity and be the big spoon anyway, he’ll be extremely happy… if not a little embarrassed.
