#learningmomma

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This song is playing in the background while I drown in a cloud of black emotion. Dealing with the mental illness of those you love can be harder than being mentally ill yourself... I'm tired. But on I'll press.

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Boob sleeping

Trying to watch an entire movie. But babyj fell asleep while eating and is hugging the breast. I've decided on leaving it exposed throughout the movie rather than risk waking him up... thoughts?

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Love is... saving the last crab Rangoon for your wife

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Dinner dates have slightly changed.... "yes I'll have a large iced water and a large hot water to warm my 4 oz of breast milk to go" 🙌🏼

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There is something eerie about an empty car seat in the back of my car. Left BabyJ with his aunt while I'm at the dentist and realized if they have an emergency they have no car seat.... nothing like a panic attack before the dentist. 😩 ....so much to learn

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This morning I walked into our guest room to check on it's status as we have guests next weekend. I wanted to be mad that Poodle didn't make the bed with the sheets that I clearly asked him to "throw on the guest bed" when I pulled them from the dryer". But then it hit me.... how proud he must have been when asked to "throw" them on the bed when instead he folded them and placed them on the bed. He FOLDED a fitted sheet.... perhaps I should be more specific. #learningdaddy

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I know it’s late because the star nightlight still lights up our ceiling. I never wake up alone— Poodle does every diaper change in the middle of the night before feedings. It’s his way of contributing to the cause, of saying “i am a present father”, and while it pails to the hour and a half that I’m awake to feed from one breast, pump from the other and clean up the trail that causes… it makes me feel like he moves mountains for me. I love this man.