“Chaos #9”- a drawing by me. I had a panic attack so bad today, that my nose started bleeding. And nothing was calming my racing heart down, nothing was distracting me from the desire to self-harm. But, I’m learning how to manage these emotions, learning how to cope. So, I opened my “Calm” app, listened to the “Nature Sounds” music, and put pen to paper, drawing loops and circles, not lifting my pen up until I no longer wanted to die. This is how I cope sometimes: literally putting the chaos in my head on paper. #PTSD #mentalillness #learningtocope