Tiptoe Into Chaos
The tension ebbed as my inner lush came through
My eyes fixed on the sparkle in yours
My second bedpost notch was about to be you
As we entangled ourselves upon the living room floor
Clothes did not come off frantically
But rather slow and sensual
You undressed me to the soul gently
While my body shame raged, your face was impartial
Your eyes never left me, you drank me in
Telling me sweet lies about my beauty
Adoring every inch of skin
The skin I’d hated since before puberty
The moments were long but the night short
Hating myself every step of the way
But as dawn drew near you gave me support
And loved me until the light of day
We parted ways on a sweet note
Affection in your eyes
A lump began to fill my throat
As we said our only goodbyes
You taught me how to love myself
Good enough exactly as I am
My worth no longer on some shelf
I’m fat, and he didn’t give a damn
You saw me bare and broken with all of my scars
You saw what is inside as out
I could tell by your eyes full of stars
Thank you is all I muster as you kiss away my doubts
Our eyes drift apart, our hands let go and I slip away
With the gift of a fleeing moment of self love
Reflected to me off of you