#lebdiesekunde

[maptoourescape]

I tend to have many dreams during the course of the night. Just recently I remember very faintly one with you in it. It was like a collection of memories with TH lyrics randomly spread throughout the pictures. In one of them you were running for what seemed like your life, and the words "Tom run run run" were coming from it. Creepy yet? Bill was the one saying them.

Seems like something nightmares aremade of, rather than dreams right? *grins* I can’t say that I’ve everexperienced dreaming about our own lyrics – surprisingly, seeing that I’mhearing them almost every night when it’s tour time (and don’t forget all therecordings I go through, too). Actually, I don’t think I ever really dreamt of anylyrics at all! Though Bill is basically always involved in all my dreams, thatmuch we have in common. Curious night fantasies you’re having, in any case!Hope I won’t be running for my life for real anytime soon though!

[maptoourescape]

Why do you consider yourself socially awkward??? Don't say you don't coz I have proof from that (AWESOME) Superior Magazine interview.

Haha, well, it’s not that hard to starta conversation with someone for me, or introduce myself, really. I’m kind of anextrovert in that regard. I like being around people and feed off of goodenergy. But I’m usually just really bad at certain small talk with people thatI barely know. And I know it’s weird – if you’re talking to someone who’sbasically almost a complete stranger to you, small talk should come naturally,since you don’t know shit about the person you’re interacting with. But it’sjust way easier for me to jump right into a conversation about one of myinterests (or theirs for that matter). I feel like talking about stuff you’revery comfortable with brakes the ice way easier than awkwardly dance around thequestions of oh, so what is it that you’redrinking? or just stupid commentary on the weather and such. It all justdepends on what people I am around with though,really. I think it must be the samefor everyone. You can be this massive extrovert, even, and still struggle withthis social awkwardness for the sheer fact that the people around you are notwilling to cooperate in a certain debate.

[deathbykaulitz-blog]

Do you think Gustav will drop out of the band sometime after having the baby? Or do you think that even if all of you had children you would all still be together? You guys have been a band for a long time! I wouldn't think it's easy to break up or even think about it.

lebdiesekunde

✤ —- No, no!  I mean, of course nobody can predict the future, but I think you can rest assured on that one! If he thinks it necessary, we’ll extend the break for a little longer till things are stable again, like Tom and me did after moving to LA – but the band will never split up because of any of us getting married or having kids, I promise. Just as you said, we have been together since forever and we aren’t just a band only, anymore. We’re real family, like real brothers. And we want to keep sharing this adventure till we’re all 90 years old and get on stage with canes and wheel chairs. *snickers* Maybe our kids will even be in a band, also, and we’ll all collab at some point!

[deathbykaulitz-blog]

It seems like my sudden emotional pressure has made me sick and I can barely sing, much less how I want to. To make things worse, I am scheduled to sing on Wednesday, something I have been looking forward to for weeks, and I haven't practiced enough! What do you do when you're sick or not feeling it and you have to perform?

lebdiesekunde

✤ —- Well… Most of all, I literally tell myself to suck it up and to do it anyway, no matter how sick or unmotivated I am, because that’s what I live for. *chuckles* Like, of course it sucks if you have to sing when you have a headache, or tummy ache, or if your nose is blocked… but it’s sacrifices I gotta do, for the job I love. I only cancel concerts or gigs as a very, very last resort, especially after all that happened in 2008… So, I’m not sure if my opinion on this one is gonna be of much use to you, Bec? However, I can teach you little tricks to try and feel better faster, if you want!

[maptoourescape]

I dreamed that you had won the Guitarist of the Year award. It was a small silver object. You had won it after playing a song on stage. Bill was up there with you in an instant. He hugged and congratulated you. You still had your blond dreadlocks and oversized shirt on. Bill had short hair and a green button up. You were smaller than the people around. Bill was so excited that he started jumping around on stage. You kept saying "Tom. Only Tom." While Bill teased you. I think he was jealous haha

Hahahah that’s so cool! And legit! I bet I’d get all the Guitarist of the Year awards, every year, if there was such a thing. Or does it actually exist? I don’t know, maybe I even have one already... With all these awards we’ve won by now, one starts to lose track ya know. ;)

[maptoourescape]

Have you ever thought of the consequences of your sexual activities? What if you unexpectedly got a girl pregnant (condoms don't always work). What would you do?

I always take care, like, super extra care when it comes to that. Always did, for ever since I can remember, really. If it was to happen though, I’d like to think I’d leave it to the girl to decide whether she wants to keep the child or not. I’m far from ready to be having any children myself, and I’d explain that to her too, along with the fact that my lifestyle might not be something she’d want the child to deal with. I most certainly wouldn’t. So basically, I'm not big with all this unplanned and unwanted parenthood. Would I tell her to get an abortion? Yes. Would I force her into it? I’d like to think not. I hope, at least. Though probably being in that said situation would mean a whole lot of stress, so I’m not denying the possiblity of it. I’m not proud of it, but hey, it’s the truth.

[maptoourescape]

Your brother has said that he doesn't care about gender when it comes to love, are you the same way?

It’s not that I exclusively don’t care about gender and/or the sex of the person I’m with. I am, for the most part, attracted by women. But I don’t exclude the possibility of maybe falling for a guy someday. I mean, you never know - people you meet along the journey of your life aren’t really defined by what they have in their pants, or how they identify. At least in my eyes, the impact they make on my life and how they are as a person is just so much more important. Sure I have a certain type of women I like, whilst with men, I rarely ever feel sexual attraction to them, but that doesn’t mean that I’ll disregard the prospect, however small it may be, of someone not stereotypically and quite practically female having the ability to steal my heart. And I assume my brother completely agrees with this explanation, too. We’re pretty much on the same grounds in regards to this topic.

[maptoourescape]

Is it hard to have a gf? I mean, there are so many women to choose from. Is it hard to stay focused/ loyal? Do you date girls for the fun or do you actually think dating as a preparation for marriage? Do you think you could deal with all the commitment? Anyway, I hope Ria makes you happy!

Well, it’s rather conventional at myage, I assume. I don’t think it’s a matter of choosing though, and has more todo with… well, if you and that other person just simply click,you know? And I mean, of course - after you’ve been in a steady relationshipfor a longer period of time, something outside of that partnership tends to be…more attractive, in a way. From this certain kind of “forbidden fruit” perspective,rather than being anything more than that, do you know what I mean? Thatcertain craving you get forsomething you don’t have, the sole reason behind it being that you’re not allowed toreach after it (though that also depends on certain agreements you might makewith your partner - not all people are exclusive).Also, I’ve neverseen dating as “preparation for marriage”. I think dating is somethingthat happens spontaneously, once you figure out you’re in the same wavelengthwith a specific person,  But neither is it exclusively “for fun” either.Of course - having a partner whom you can have fun with is super important, butthat’s also just a part of it. You have to find someone you can trust, andsomeone who trusts you back; someone whom you can talk to about shit when lifegets too much, but would listen to them vent about their own when and if thetime was to come. And these “serious” kind of aspects in a romanticrelationship probably do reek of a whole lot of commitment, but I simply just seeit as something that’s crucial, even in platonic relationships, in order forthem to properly function.To summon up: it’snot always easy to be in a relationship, not in the slightest. But havingsomeone there for you - knowing you have a responsibility to someone, and thatthat someone has the sense of liability when it comes to you, too - especiallyif you’ve been with them for a long while, and they already hold your strugglesin the palm of their hand, is usually… just worth it all. Worth all the shit peoplemust sometimes go through to upkeep with the steadiness, because in the end ofthe day, it doesn’t really matter if you’re “married”. As much as I find theidea of it okay, marriage is still but a social construct, and would never meanmuch to me personally. One can be committed and or loyal without marriage, ornot be committed and/or loyal whilst being married. All in all. It’s a matterof connection.I’ll stopblabbering now, it’s just hard to explain, I guess, hahah…But thanks for your nice wishes!