Feeling You
Alpha!Lee Minho x Omega!female!reader
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Sinopsis: For twenty one years, Yn lived a lie. Systematically poisoned by her mother to suppress her true nature, she was a dying Omega who believed she was nothing. Now, after a year of exhausting recovery under her father’s care, she finally feels stable.
Until one day at a Stray Kids event at her university brings her to her knees. Her Omega is finally waking up, and it has found its mate.
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CW: abusive parent, a lot of health issues, depressive thoughts, trauma, emotional abuse. Yn goes to therapy and spends a lot of time in hospitals.
If I skipped any warnings pls let me know!!
< Prologue
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Chapter 1: Yn
It's unnerving how fast life can change in a second.
One second you are walking home after hanging out with your friends, the next you are packing your bags because your mother proclaims she found your father cheating on her.
You remember clearly arriving to your house, a smile on your face and lots of funny stories to tell to you mother, that you forgot the instant you saw her face.
Eyes red, tears streaming down her cheeks, hands moving frantically as she packed some clothes in a suitcase.
She looked broken.
And that alone made you believed everything she told you about your father.
After all, she was the one who took care of you every day of the week when he only was there on the weekends.
So you ran away with her, not knowing that things would only go down hill after that.
It's been years since that happened.
But it hunts you to this day.
The regret, the hurt, the sadness, the anger.
Sometime you remember things that your brain had made you forget.
Thing like the nights your body ache so much that sleep never reached you. How you felt tingle all over your face, like insects where walking there, never stopping no matter what you did.
You remember the look in her eyes, as if she really didn't knew what was happening to you. As if she wasn't the one causing all of it.
You wish you could forget it all againg.
It's been a year since the last time you saw her. Your mother.
The women who was supposed to protect you, but ended up being the only one hurting you.
One second you were opening your eyes to find yourself in a hospital bed, the next one you were living with your father and his mate, trying to fix all what was left broken inside of you.
Today waking up was hard. Your mind tired and screaming that there was no point in even trying.
Your therapist told you some days would be like this. Like you went ten step behind on the progress. She told you it was normal.
It didn't felt normal. It felt like there was something new wrong with you. Something that would never allow you to move on.
You stay there, in bed. Comfortable and warm covered under your blankets, but feeling cold and unsettled inside.
One though telling you to go back to sleep and forget everything. Another begging you to get up and try to do something with you life.
A second more starting at nothing and you reach for your cellphone.
It shows 8:00 am in the screen. The alarm you set at 7:00 starts to sound again, remembering you how you fail to wake up at the right time and now you are late for class.
Perfect.
Stay in bed or be responsible.
Hard decision to make.
Gladly you don't have to make it because someone is knocks at your door. Not hard and angry, actually calm and soft. But still is enough to make your heart raise and your body to move.
In an instant you are at your feet, walking to the door and opening it.
Your father is behind it. Soft features and eyes fill with love and worry. Stills feels weird to be look at like that, but it keeps warming up your heart every time.
You relax, smiling yourself at the men who spend six years of his life looking for you. Always loving you even when he didn't knew you anymore.
"hey princess" he still calls you the nickname he gave you when you were little.
"Hi dad" you said greatful for his presence.
Somewhere along this year of living with him, you had found out his presence calms you. It gives you a feeling of protection that you didn't knew existed.
"it's late. I can drive you if you are ready in about... 30 minutes"
"Please and thank you Dad" you open the door completely and side hug him when stepping out of your room "You are my saviour. I'll shower quickly then"
He nods and walks away, probably to help his wife with their five years old daughter, a.k.a, your sister that you had no idea existed until a year ago.
You shower as fast as humanly possible, mumbling songs that your friends had recommended you and you have come to love.
You don't even bother to do make up or dry your hair, looking at the time constantly just to make sure you weren't making your dad late.
While you are dressing up, your cellphone's screan lights up with a new notification.
Is from your friends group chat.
They are taking about one of the kpop groups they love; Stray Kids.
When you started collage in this new town, you met three girls who would ended up becoming your best friends:
Yujin, Kazuha and Bahiyyih.
It was like fate brought you guys together, and none of you tried to go against it.
It was instinct, they had told you once they knew about you past. Instincts told them it was right and it probably told you too.
Since then, there hasn't been a day of silence in the group chat.
If they weren't talking about college, they wera talking about idols.
It was fun and normal.
It make you feel... good.
As you read your friends excitement about Stray Kids preforming at school today, you start to feel the excitement too.
It would be the first time you see someone preform. And it was non other then one of the biggest kpop groups in the world.
You like their music, at least the one you knew, and they were stunning performers. It was definitely going to be amazing and suddenly the thoughts you had this morning didn't bother you anymore.
Your friends wanted to wear matching outfits, but looking at the time you send a quick text saying that it was late for you to change, so Yujin offer to take some clothes with her so you can wear.
With your mood completely change from how it was when you had just wake up, you go out of your room to say goodby to your stepmom and sister so yor father can ride you to school.
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Time seems free to go slower when you want it to go faster, you realise as you walk down the corridor through a wave of students, looking at the time every minute just to realize the numbers one the screen hadn't change.
"Yn!!"
You hear your name being call and smile instantly as you recognise the voice. Is Hiyyih, the youngest of your group and a fellow Omega. Or something like that, since you are not sure if you can call yourself an Omega, at least not a complete one.
Yor three friend are there, waiting in front of a restroom door and already wearing matching white and pink outfits.
"Hiii!" you say excitedly once you are close, and can finally get a glimpse of their smell.
You hug them, and they return the hug.
Your doctor told you skin ship is really important to activate your omega gland againg. Something about pheromones and getting your brain use to the instincts that come with say pheromones.
That's why you take your time with each hug.
Hiyyih smells like vanilla, Yujin as dominant alpha has a stronger smell and you can only associate it with trees. Lastly, the only way you can explain Zuha's smell is clean. She is also an Alpha, but different from Yujin, she is a recessive one.
"I have your outfit" Yujin says once you had great them all.
She shakes her bag with a grin in her face that makes a dimple show, and you can't help the warm feeling that wraps around you like a blanket.
Yeah, this is what being young feels like.
"I hope it fits" you say entering the bathroom.
"oh don't worry Mimi, I'm sure it will fit"
For some reason, Yujin started calling you mimi after taking a French course.
You never questioned it.
"are you excited?" Zuha asks while Yujin starts to pull out clothes and hand it to you.
A white skirt and shirt, with a baby pink light crop vest. Cute.
"I'm so excited" you answer getting in one cubicle to change.
"Me too. This is basically a free concert!"
Hiyyih is definitely the most excited, you can tell by her voice and how she looks about to combust.
Zuha is the calmest, but you know deep down, behind that cool mask she likes to wear, she is jumping like the fangirl she is.
"I hope fans behave"
All of you hum in agreement with what Zuha just say.
Not even a week before you became friends, the girls had teach you all there is to know about kpop and how crazy fans could be. To the point of stalking the idols.
You were shock, after all they were people just doing their job, and even tho you had always like kpop, you never digg for more information than the members of the groups and maybe their birthdays.
You learned that artist were forced to take suppressant for their safety and they never revealed they subgender.
Most of them used smell bloquers and basically erased what they were when in public.
When you hear that, you felt a mix of emotions.
Sad for them because it was unfair that they had to do all those things to live their dreems. But you also felt understood. Less alone.
Maybe idols experience isn't even close to what you had to live, but they do understand what suppressing one's nature feels like.
While you dress, conversation keeps going and the girls make sure everything is perfect with their scent blockers.
Once all of you are ready, you exit the restroom giggling and talking like teenagers walking by their crush.
It felt like a movie in your opinion.
The weather was perfect. The sun shining in the clear sky, it's heat being appease by a cold breeze that run through the trees, making their leaves sound and some fruit flowers fall from them.
The turmoil in you head has settled for the moment, allowing you to fully enjoy this time with your friends and put your gurd down.
You were so relax that it was easy to brush of the tingling sensation you started to feel on your skin as the sound of music got louder.
From the distance you could see the members on the stage. It looked like they were interacting with the fans as the staff fixed something on the side.
Weird, you thought as you touch your neck at the sudden feeling of coldness in there.
You realize then, that you are not listening to your friends anymore. It feels like your ears have turn into parabolic mic's with their own will.
Every sound seems to have increased but when you try to register it and focouse just in one thing, the sound changes. As if looking for a specific sound in the crowd. It makes you dizzy.
Suddenly you are being push by people trying to get closer to the stage and is then when you notice that somehow you have walk to the crowd of people watching stray kids.
It starts to scare you how lost you feel. How out of control everything is, so you look for your friends.
They are beside you, at each side, but their eyes are on the stage.
It appears that Hyunjin is talking, or at least that's the voice you hear before your ears decide to hear random girl scream their love for the group.
It's starting to get blurry and the coldness you felt in your neck has spread through your torso and a stabbing pain appears in different places of your body that you can't even identify properly.
You are shivering and as you try to touch Yujins arms you become awer of the trembling in your body.
Breathing becomes a hard task and you don't know if it's because you are having a panic attack, or because your body feels heavier than normal.
Your hand lands heavy in Zuhas shoulder.
The smile and excitement in her eyes fade as she turns to look at you. In exchange a worried, almost panicked look land's on your face.
She says something, maybe your name, but you can't hear it through the shuffle of voices going on.
Your knees buckle and Zuha catches you before you hit the ground.
You haven't fainted but it sure feels like you will.
The last thing you hear is a man voice tinted with concern and something achin to fear.
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Note: hiii hope you are all okey.
Just wanted to say sorry for the waiting a lot has happened and time was not in my side.
Also I'm not really proud of this chapter cause I really like to explore characters and their personalitys but at the same time I know most people don't care about those. So this is a mix of me enjoying writing about the characters and their dinamics and me trying to get the fastest way possible to the Minho x yn moments.
Anyway, hope you like it, if not then it's okey, ill try better.
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