#legacydamned

[lionrith]

   “So what you’re telling me is New York has Seelies?  I was wondering where those guys flit off to.” 

- @legacydamned because??? yells

[masterofdeath]

harry is driven largely by his desire to do whatever good he can, and to help however he can. you've written before of his struggles with depression, with his feeling expendable, with his trauma – how does this influence his understanding of justice versus mercy, and the overlap of the two? in harry's pursuit of a greater good, does he cross lines he'd previously thought himself unwilling to cross or incapable of crossing, and if so, how does he make sense of and move forward with that?

i love this question, i love you, let’s do this. 

we could jump into harry’s key call to action is usually born out of his abhorrence of the bystander effect but we got bigger fish to fry! 

the trouble is, and i think the challenge post-war poses for harry, is that his belief that he is expendable is never really disproven. – he was chosen out of chance, and most of what followed was orchestrated by someone who could see a much bigger chunk of the board they were all playing on. not all together unintentionally he is shown the value of his parents sacrifice and the bravery in it from a very young age. for a child who was told every day that he was not only worthless but a burden, this strikes a chord. 

harry doesn’t value his own life, but harry values sacrifice. 

and i think he recognizes all that took place around him. i think he deduces the power of grindelwald and dumbledore’s relationship, he realizes that dumbledore removed himself from being human to becoming myth out of necessity. harry isn’t angry at dumbledore’s ‘betrayal’ because he understands that it was nothing his mentor wasn’t willing to do himself. he is asked to speak at funerals, which he does. because he understands the grief of families who are looking to make sense of the relentless nature of death, because he knows those people died in his name or at least as a result of a war he was forced into the center of. he feels unworthy that he lived ( moreover he got a third crack at life! ) while those with families and children and other loved ones didn’t. 

without coping mechanisms, without an ability to recognize the trauma he experienced, harry faces both the challenges of having a soul finally totally his own and depression sinking in the only thing he can do is try and emulate the man who orchestrated it all. ron and hermione and all others are ( rightfully ) busy with their own recovery so harry does what dumbledore did before him, he isolates himself. i think for someone like harry, whose greatest strength stems from his interpersonal relationships, this leads to some dangerous behavior. almost all of it is self-inflicted, because it’s only in seeing the effect he has on others and a major misstep that he could do some self-reflection. 

devaluing the importance of the people in his life that he loves is one way he crosses a line. hurting them for what he believes to be the greater good is another. in it, he forgets why he needs the support system he has. for the most part, harry’s not only unwilling to hurt someone for the sake of perpetuating his own hurt, he is shown to be incapable. this remains true. what he needs is someone to temper out his more rash decisions, particularly when he is as mentally fragile as he finds himself to be. he often needs help strategizing because typically his response to crisis is to throw himself in the middle of it and figure out a way to survive. 

i haven’t fleshed it out completely but i think this comes to a head in a mission he completely misreads. people die, and suddenly the illusion of the momentum he built up in thinking he was coping comes crashing down in a big way. because for harry, lessons are learned when the stakes are highest. the weight of the realization more people have died in faith of him is comparable to those who cost him and his loved ones so much is one stone too many on his back. 

the moment he un-learns he can’t place his entire worth on the value his death holds begins the process by which harry is able to heal from his lifetime of trauma.

[vvitchiisms-blog]

      the first time she came to new york, someone told her to be       wary of shadowhunters. she’d politely pointed out that there       are shadowhunters in wales, too, but her protests had been       ignored. she’s never had reason to fear them, but then, she’s       never had to worry about the circle, and a world on the brink       of war. she knows she should go back home, but she likes it       in new york, ad she refuses to be scared away. which is       exactly why her concern isn’t for her life, at the sight of a       shadowhunter, but her appearance. ❝ oh my god, your hair is       absolutely gorgeous. is it natural? ❞

@legacydamned ♡‘d for a starter

[enjolraaaa]

          ❝ I’m just...I’m so tired, Clary. & I feel like I don’t have the right to be. Like, if I’m tired – of all people – then how can I expect everyone else to keep going? I’d be a hypocrite. ❞

@legacydamned | ♡’d

[swcrdiisms-blog]

      ❝ you… you spoke to valentine before they dragged him away,       right…? ❞ it’s quite possibly the first time he’s spoken to clary       since she arrived here at the institute, but it’s the most       important question he’s ever asked. he’s risking everything by       asking her, doesn’t even know if he can trust her, but if there’s       the slightest chance she can tell him anything… ❝ did… did       he say anything about the circle? ❞

@legacydamned  ♥’d for a starter

[fairchildson-a-blog]

@legacydamned

Don’t mind Jon as he wraps his arms around Clary from behind, resting his chin on her head. “So we haven’t had any brother sister time in awhile and I feel we must remedy this. I’ll take you anywhere you wanna go only if I pick where we eat for lunch.”

[theblindangel]

New Faces || Closed RP

“I’m excited you get to meet Maggie, Clary,” chimed small Max Lightwood, hurrying in front of the newly recruited Shadowhunter with large eyes and a grin that spread from ear to ear. “She hasn’t been to the Institute for almost two years. You are going to love her,” insisted the small boy, grabbing a hold of Clary’s hand to hurry as fast as his smaller legs could carry him (and drag Clary in the process) towards the main hall of the Institute.

“She’s been training in the Himalayas the whole time to get stronger and I want to be as strong as her when I grow up to be a Shadowhunter. One time, she brought down an entire group of bad guys just raising one hand!” The small Lightwood immediately let go of Clary’s hand to reenact the scenario, his face scrunching up in the efforts to demonstrate the strength of the simple gesture.

@legacydamned

[dvtiful]

starter call [x] @legacydamned

       ❛ that’s by far the worst idea you’ve had. ❜ as much as he’d come to trust the redhead’s intuition a little more than their initial meeting, alec was not about to cover up his BLATANT thoughts on her inexperienced plan. yet, with an exhale, his arms loosely folded across his chest — his way of showing COMPLIANCE.        ❛ what do you need me to do? ❜