July 1, 2024
In twenty three minutes
I will be lost in a sea of uncertainty
As the tides of life shift into their sunsets
Will I be able to sleep tonight?
Last few weeks have been a heavy load
All pieces of a puzzle that my heart can’t let go
Anxious and it’s curtailing my spirits that are drowning
What happens when you have no choice but to curb those big emotions;
Pretend they won’t consume every inch of my body, trap me in a darkened room with my greatest fears?
I hate it here
My mother got the call a few short hours ago
The news wasn’t good, we gotta go
Hit the road running, bags in tow
Enough thoughts running through me to make my head explode
Other stressors sending me into a tailspin
Another short straw was pulled and I didn’t win
Other less important issues clouding my mind
But right now I don’t have the time to unwind
The last patriarch of my family is fading
We must get home, I think heaven is waiting
I fear no god because I’m commiserating
Preparing for what is to come
I take shallow breaths in fear
Because I hate it here
In three minutes I will see my family
But it won’t be as it was
It’s under different, less than ideal circumstances.
So for now I’ll retreat to the corners of my mind
Hold my breath as I get in line
Holding out for the end that’s near
I hate it here
