I just want to tell you, that I´m sorry for causing the trouble about my feelings.
I´m sorry for waisting our time.
The time went different between us.
For you I was just eight hours.
One of a thousand eight our night.
But for me, you where three years full of wasted love.
We both try to complain inter human relationships to law systems.
But ours isn´t structured
And it´s two faced at the same time.
For you I was just another frame you had to learn up.
But for me you where out of any law system,
Out of my experiences I made with love,
Out of the capacities my heart could work up.
Our feelings are worlds apart,
You keep me close to your heartbeat,
Your chest is so warm and intimate,
But we´re also strangers with miles between our feelings.
You said I´m a amazing person,
You never met someone like me,
You would do anything for me.
As much as my little broken heart can love.
It´s not that kind of love where I could imagine giving up my live for you.
I´t that kind of love, where I want to spend every possible second with you,
Or even standing beside you,
With the knowledge that those green eyes adore me as much,
Imagine the future with you, that I don´t want with someone else.
I was scared about loosing you or loosing the dream about us.
But this fear turned into obsession
And obsession into anger,
Because you caused that fear.
I lost you because you said you hadn´t enough capacities for me in your life.
But I would create capacities in my life as big as the universe for you.
But my universe wasn´t good enough for you.
I didn´t say, that you haven´t had feelings for me,
I think they existed and still exist somewhere inside you,
But your heart belongs to your law system and there´s no space between your paragraphs for me.
Someone will fit in your little space between the „love paragraph“,
I will always be that part inside you, that you kinda like, but never love with all your heart.
I will always be your soulmate and you´ll be mine.
You´ll always be my person, my man,
But I´ll only be that law girl from a unknown chancellery.