2019-08-11
I promise
All I did was to give my whole heart. My whole mind My whole soul.
I gave them to hands I thought would protect them. Instead the same ones I thought would be my security became the very reason for my feet to shake of instability.
I made myself more vulnerable than I’ve ever been with anyone and thought “this is it, this is the reason why I had to go through all of which I did” In the end it was just another lesson, another cruel lesson to bring me down to my knees and humble me for what I had forgotten.
It was there while being on the ground, with nobody but myself that I truly got awokened. Love is not equal to pain, love is to make you feel soft and tender and peaceful. Not give you anxiety cause you depression and make you second guess every action and intention from the other person.
Love can be found, if you first find the love to be there for yourself first before anyone else. Love is not through getting validation and attention. Love is something you give yourself. I’m learning this everyday, and inshallah with Allahs help I will be guided to a better place emotionally than the one I’m at right now. But the biggest lesson I learnt is that without Allahs blessing and guidance and will, nothing, no matter how much you want it, will be. Often for reasons beyond our comprehension, often for reasons to protect us from further pain and heartache. Alhamdulilah ya rab for everything.