REAL TALK - had the worst anxiety attack in a while yesterday. I just felt so anxious and it all had to do with that one thing; my dead pancreas, a.k.a. diabetes. Lately my bgs have been a rollercoaster and I am working hard to get them in control again, but college takes a lot of my energy as well so it’s not likely that this problem will go away in a day. My sensors stopped working (I have to wait a week for replacements) and I have a limited supply of testrips. It is not healthy to think about your bg 24/7, but with my sensor I felt so safe knowing what my bg was 24/7. It’s not, because it definitely made me over-inject insuline sometimes or over-eating because I thought I was going too low and then I ended up with a high bg. So thinking about all this, the anxiety began.
This morning I woke up with new energy. I wanted to order new testrips and other medical stuff when my pharmacy ended up being a ***. They said I couldn’t order because I ordered too much last month which is quite fair because that is the truth but still - I needed some. Argument went down but after calling my hospital all was well (well sort of, I atleast could order one box ). I do know one thing - going to that pharmacy was a mistake, so I immediately called my old diabetec pharmacy and went back to them. Their customer service is just so much better and they understand my situation. I am proud of myself for staying calm, but I do have a lot of work to do.
Conclusion - diabetes and anxiety is the worst combination but - I will not let this disease control my life. (And yes, I need to check my bloodsugar less. Which is very scary for me, but checking your bg 10-12 times a day isn’t good for your mind either. (5-8 times is normal))
LET’S KICK ASS THIS WEEK GUYS!! WE GOT THIS!!
