#letstalklove

[decemberundertones]

my Icarus, go become the Sun

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[decemberundertones]

do people actually have the strength to listen to adele's music after going through an actual breakup i mean????

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[decemberundertones]

i relish the agony

forgetting you isn’t hard. taking you out of my skin is

i relish the agony i live in, being away from you

i relish it so much it feels as if i will never go back to you even if i had the chance to

every memory i have of you is part of me, like a child of me

but i have been enjoying this pain too much to ever let go of you

i can not ever imagine looking at you and not feeling that you’re mine and that i’m yours

and that’s exactly why i relish the agony of being alone

would it be so exciting, a few years down the line

to only watch you from a distance when i want you and i need you, if i had you? no

am i saying that all i’m craving is a feeling so electrifying that it burns my heart and soul, instead of you? maybe, so

it would be a lot more exciting to only watch you from a distance

than be by your side for the rest of your life

it’s a risk i’m not willing to take, to ever lose those butterflies i feel in my stomach when i catch your gaze

and in that moment we know what we had, we know what we lost, and know what was waiting for us.

and it will have been worth it.

maybe i want a little more than ordinary love. maybe what i crave is craving only further more

a little more excitement and intoxication, of savoring your absence in every nerve

from a distance

maybe i want a little more than unremarkable emotions. maybe what i crave is only the fucking longing

to see you, to feel you, to touch you

so i relish in the agony, of being away from you

[decemberundertones]

you were my favorite jacket in cold december nights, favorite song to sing when it rained, and the brightest sun of all my summers

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[decemberundertones]

yup, just one of those days when i think about you if wind blows through my hair

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[decemberundertones]

sometimes it is just so hard to resist posting a taylor swift lyrics you're relating the most to

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[decemberundertones]

i can delete your pictures from my phone but how can i delete the songs from mind that remind me of you

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[decemberundertones]

you thought you saw me but you never really did. you never understood where i came from. but you thought you did and decided i wasn't enough

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