#letterforsomeone

[sophiatheflightlessbird]

Today was the day for a lot of oversights and having gone to church didn’t cut for it. She didn’t feel blessed even with the best behavior but held plastered of counterfeits on her soul. To lie. To be mad. To feel apathetic and lethargic. The list just goes on. Until life hits her back a thousand needles straight through the sinistral center, did she notice these mistakes and it comes out in surprise. “Oblivious.” Always had some kind of hostility for the word and the situation just gave her a reason to. She didn’t need the clarification but he told her anyway. A blameworthy is what she named herself for acting not older than a hormonal teen and that thought was another shot now at the gut. It killed all belief on the truthfulness of endearments and flowery words. An undeserving femella-

She never had a cloud nine euphoria but was sure of the water works dripping on her face at 9 in the evening. It was one of the firsts he gave to learn about. It was the only thing she wished to never know about.

[sophiatheflightlessbird]

When you thought that you lost him, someone beside along sidewalks and fast tracks, from the long run making it hard to pick up the paces where you started- You backtracked and recollected in trimmed pictures, a view with something’s amiss. You say, nothing is working and everything is just crashing. Realized that there is a part of you not whole enough and quickly jumped to these short connections way back to him. Still, not quite the fix. He can’t ever fix you, redeem the girl he met days, months and years ago. Reclaim the scraps he tore and left behind, when it’s not likely the case where he came rushing back for seconds to pick it up and tape those memories together. He was far too late. They go forth flying through the endless space. 

And it will be okay-

Somehow, some bits would stick like paints in another canvass. They will relate, may or may not be, and understand yours to pair with all the other colors. It would fill you to brim or just enough to make it all fair and light.  

[wthitsysa]

Limot

Inisip ko pa ng matagal kung ipopost ko ba ito. Here’s a part of it. :)

Sana isang araw magising ka din ng masaya. Sana isang araw magising ka at maisip mo, “Oo nga, naka isang taon na pala, pero promise. Okay na ako. Masaya na ako, napatawad at naiintindihan na kita.” Sana isang araw magising ka’t katulad ko masabi mo din sa mga tao, “Nakalimot na ako.”

Random Thought Blog: Here

[misguidedocean-blog]

Sa totoo lang, hindi talaga ako masyadong palakaibigan pagdating sa mundo ng tumblr. Meron akong mga nagiging kaibigan, pero hindi ganun tumatagal. Hindi ganun nagsstay. Minsan, gawa ng layo ng bahay. Minsan, nagpapalit sila o ako ng url. Minsan, ganito ganyan. Kaya hindi ko nararanasan yung mga kakaibang friendship na nararanasan ng ibang tao. 

Pero para sa lahat ng taong nakilala ko dito, gusto kong magpasalamat sa inyo. Gusto ko man kayong hanapin isa isa, hindi ko rin alam kung paano. Hindi ko alam kung nasaan na rin kayo. Pero palagi akong tumitingin ng diretso na makikita ko kayo ulit tsaka makakausap.

Kung kilala niyo man ako, o kasi nakausap niyo ako, sana wag kayong mahihiyang lumapit. Hindi naman ako snob. Akala niyo nakalimutan ko na kayo? Hindi ano. Kayo yung dahilan kung bakit nilalagay ko 'tong post na 'to. Para 'to sa inyo.

Para sa mga makikilala ko pa, sana tumagal kayo sa akin. Sana maging masaya tayo. Ny3h3h3. :*

[loooofiiiieeee-blog-blog]

a letter to someone

I don't know how to start this letter. I know you read my stupid blogs on my wordpress site. So I posted this letter here. Wala ako lakas ng loob. Pero nasabi ko na yun iba sayo kanina. Sana  nagets mo yun point ko.

I don't want to hurt you because I know how it feels na umasa na love karin ng taong gusto mo. Ayoko maramdaman mo yun. Kasi i've felt it so many times in my life. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na nagpapasalamat ako dahil andyan ka at pinapasaya mo ako in your own little ways. I won't forget the time I called you ng mga 1 am just to cry, patulog ka na nun eh. Thank you at nakinig ka tapos pinatawa mo ko ng pinatawa hanggang napagalitan na ako ni mama kasi ang ingay ko daw. Yes, we were both stupid at that time. While I was telling you how I feel and here you are telling me stupid stuffs to make me laugh. Thank you for not letting me stop crying because you know that only would make me feel better if I would cry it all out. :) Thank you for that flower picture to make me feel happy. Yes, I wish you were here para nakita ko personally. HAHA! Thank you for our late night conversations. Thank you for our pet name. Ang kulit lang talaga nung tawagan natin. Ano kaya iisipin ng mga tao pag narinig nila yun? :)) Thank you for understanding me and my impulsive thoughts and actions. Thank you for being makulit. Thank you sa pulit-ulit na mga tanong at sa hindi pag tanggap ng mga bahala na, okay lang at kahit ano answers ko. Salamat at pinaramdamam mo sa akin na ayaw mo ko ipamigay sa ibang tao. 

I just hope that you would understand na ayaw kita gawin panakip butas. Hindi ko gawain yun. Alam mo naman eh kung ano pinagdadaanan ko. Sorry takot ako. takot na talaga ako. Pramis. Alam mo naman eh. Di ko na kailangan sabihin. Di ba? :| Just please don't go away. Wag ka magbabago. Kaibigan lang muna yun lang yun kaya ko ibigay ngayon. 

Let me tell you this in our language. 

Nga.a ako? Kadamo da nga iban nga babae na mas deserving pa sa gina hatag mo sa akon. Nga.a ako gid? Nahadlok ko basi pila ka adlaw basi maliwat lang tanan nga gaka tabo sa akon subong. Hindi ko na kabalo kung ano himuon ko kung maliwat pa ni. Hindi ko kabalo kung pano ko pupulutin isa isa ulit yun sarili ko at babangon. Tani mainchindihan mo man. Wala pa man ta dugay nagkakilalahanay tani hindi madula ang closeness ta kag ang friendship ta. Ari man ko japon sa imo. Siling mo gani ara lang ta duwa sa likod sang globe. Kay kasuhan ta ang blackberry kay kadugay magsend ila bbm. HAHA lab yu! hug tight >:D< 

I don't want to lose that friendship that we are starting to build. I hope we can still talk with each other just like before this all happen. :) Looking forward to talk to you again from time to time :) Take care always! :)