I will make myself into the biggest secret I have ever kept from you.
letters to pluto #37 - a. CLAW

seen from Brazil
seen from Japan

seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Yemen
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from Mali
seen from China
seen from India
seen from United States
seen from South Africa
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from United States
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seen from Italy
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seen from Germany
seen from United States
I will make myself into the biggest secret I have ever kept from you.
letters to pluto #37 - a. CLAW
and maybe it was the cruelest kind of irony devised by some kind of god: you told me you'd come back when my flowers were in bloom and right after you left they withered in my room.
letters to pluto #34 - a. CLAW
I want to spin a story about the ring on my left hand; that it's an heirloom from a duchess who was widowed four times or that I found it in an attic held up by only cobwebs - or that I'm married. that you and I eloped like you always said we would and this is my proof.
letters to pluto #36 - a. CLAW
he had the ability to completely unwind me, all the tension I'd accumulated. holding him was like being safe, unwatched and alone – yet knowing I was understood.
letters to pluto #35 - a. CLAW
I wish I could dive into you: you're the only ocean I know. and all these other people here are only solid stone.
letters to pluto #33 - a. CLAW
I feel as though - now that he’s touched me - I am no longer my own as if with every caress and kiss he’s claimed my body as his.
letters to pluto #32 - a. CLAW
I don’t like the way I can’t look at myself without thinking of you.
this is what you left me - letters to pluto #31 - a. CLAW
Maybe I am glad that you don't love me. Each time you return, for reasons you won't tell me, I am filled with such euphoria it threatens to take over my soul. I think, if you loved me, it would obliterate me.