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Ulan

Pasikat ang araw, anong oras na. ‘Di ko namalayang umaga na pala. Sa sobrang bilis ng oras kailangan magdaha-dahan. Ang gulo ng isipan.

Laging naghahanap na sana’y may makasamang katulad mo sa buhay ko.

Dumating ka ng hindi ko inaasahan.

Sinagip mo ako, sa gitna ng ulan.

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Some Day

Never would I have thought that this day would arrive Never had I imagined you'd one day cross my life I guess life is full of twists and turns Ambivalent emotions that easily burns Your once a person that I just passed by Sometimes we talk but it's weak & dry Ignored you more than a hundred times Seen you like a dozen ordinary dimes You saved me in the midst of misfortune You sang my song, in a wonderful tune I don't wanna make this any more a drama But indeed you are my unique, sole karma Catching up with the time we've lost A little too late, this dilemma is our sheer cost Don’t worry, and don't think too much my dear Somehow someday, we'll see a sky that's clear Lest one of us may let go, thinking this could be wrong With or without a duet, I'll keep singing our song Though how vague tomorrow seems to be Keep on hoping, keep on dreaming For who knows? Someday, it could be just you & me.

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Panaginip

Sawa na akong gabi gabing tumitingin sa larawan mo... Ayoko ng nakikita ka lang sa pagtulog ko. 'Di ko na kayang mabuhay kung magpapatuloy ang ganito. Sana ang panaginip kong ito ay, magkatotoo.

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You know what's nice about having a hang-over? It's when your head aches much more than your heart does.

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Real

Pain and sorrow go hand in hand with true love, for love is never ideal but real. So don't even wonder what heartaches are for.

Remember the  movie, "City of Angels"?

When it hurts...it's real.

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When does it start?

So when does friendship end and romance begin? When do you start having more than friendly feelings for a friend? When it begins, does it hit you like a jackhammer, pounding on all your sensibilities and jarring you out of your comfort zone? Or does it creep ever so slowly, almost unnoticeable, until one day you’re looking at someone you’ve looked at your whole life as if it’s the first time you’re seeing her?

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Happy birthday!

Happy birthday Les! May you be filled with so much joy today and always. Know that I value you.

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I really never told anyone about this. December 31, 2017 was I thought would be a happy year-end, but it was not. It was the moat painful last day of the year for me. I faced 2018 crying inside the bathroom, wishing and praying that I could turn back time, that everything was just a bad dream. But I was in reality that time. I faced January 1, 2018 confronting my fear of losing the one I love most. It was the saddest new year I have ever had. Sad New Year to me, welcome 2018.

Nine months passed and I'm still here, wishing that he will come to his senses, drop his pride and ego, apologize and come back to me. But I guess that will remain a wish till I forget about him. Dreams do come true but not all wishes. Nine months and I'm still hurting, still loving, still hoping. How hard is it to get love? How hard is it to be loved?

Sometimes I daydream that one day we'll see each other again, that one day we'll just pretend nothing happened, that we'll be happy and will be together. I often make stories in my head of what scene we will be in. I make up conversations will talk about and make scripts that we'll say. Sometimes I thought, I can be a script writer/film director/producer.

But I need to let go. I have to let go. I need to move on and make a life without him. I need to live.