#lettinggoisnteasy

[gingerbeauty94]

When you can put somebody else’s happiness over your own no matter how much you’re hurting because of it. Thats when you know you’ve become the bigger person. How you know that you’ve matured enough to say I know that this is gonna hurt but I’m so glad that you are happy. That you are gonna be there for them no matter what because you don’t just give up on somebody you love. You don’t just say hey I see you over there happy and shit and I’m done with you. No, you stand back and let them do their thing and be with who they want to be with and if something goes wrong you’re there to be a shoulder for them to cry on. So even though this may be the beginning of an end I’ll always be there whenever you need me. Through thick and thin I’m here to fight your demons beside you.

[gingerbeauty94]

The truth is that sometimes you think you’ve let go of somebody and things come up and you realize you haven’t even in the slightest. Sure you don’t cry about the memories anymore, you smile because they happened. You get pissed because you could’ve been something great but they chose to walk away and be with another. Was it because they were afraid of committing or just didn’t wanna hurt your feelings? Was it because maybe there was something more there than they wanted to admit so they decided to move on with somebody else instead of ruining your friendship? Maybe though honestly you were too much for them and they wanted somebody that wouldn’t care so much. Either way whatever it was you’ve got to move and let them go. It’s not worth the heartache and the pain you’re putting yourself through to love them.

[gingerbeauty94]

I would’ve driven across the country for you, taken a boat and crossed the seas. But that doesn’t matter in the end because I wasn’t what you wanted 😔

[gingerbeauty94]

I’m learning to stand up for myself and part of doing that means that I have to let go of people and things that are causing me more harm than good. Unfortunately that means letting you go. I don’t want to say goodbye to you, I don’t want to lose you but I have to because you not wanting to make things serious is hurting me. Knowing that you don’t love me anymore at least not in the same way that I love you really upsets me. I meant when I said forever & always, I wanted to be your princess, your baby girl. The one that you got to come home to after work and know that the only thing you’d ever have to worry about with me was if I was gonna run out of gas or if I’d eaten that day or not. Truthfully that’s all you’d ever have to wonder with me and maybe if somebody hurt my feelings because I’m a little sensitive at times as I’m sure you’re already aware.

I just wanted you and your time. Not your money, nor gifts of any sort, I didn’t need dates that cost anything either, I would’ve been just fine sitting under the sky looking at the clouds or at the stars. I’m really just that simple. As long as I’m with you that’s all that matters to me. I miss the hell out of you lately and I’m not sure how things are gonna play out now but know that I’m still always going to be here for you if you need me but I’m done playing games with you. I’m done pretending that I can just be friends with you because we both know I can’t.

[gingerbeauty94]

I don’t understand how somebody can tell you they love you and then turn around and prove just the opposite with their actions. I get long distance is hard, that it will take literally everything you have in you to not give up but sometimes you have to. I don’t believe in words anymore, words that I’ve been told so many times before for them to just be empty words in the end. It hurts when the one you love the most doesn’t love you the same but that’s how it is sometimes. Sometimes no matter how much you want it or how much you care some people aren’t meant to stay in your life for a long time. They show you what you need, they love you in their lives because of what you offer them and then when you’re no longer an asset they toss you away and end up teaching you a lesson instead. It is what it is.

[gingerbeauty94]

What nobody tells you is that the pain you feel after finally letting go of the person you wanted your whole life but couldn’t have, it’s not as bad as the pain you’ll feel when you’ve finally let somebody else in only to discover they were the same. Words don’t mean anything unless there’s action behind them so trust your gut instinct when it comes to making a decision. The heart just wants to love but your gut and your brain will be right every damn.

[gingerbeauty94]

Why was I never the one that was good enough?! Years spent together meant nothing to you but it did to me. I fell hard and fast but I meant everything I said and all the feelings I showed you. Why was she the one you decided was worth the effort? Why was she the one that you settled for in the end? I’m not sure if you were worried about losing me or what it was but I’m afraid of losing me because I’m still so lost in you. I’m glad we had the time to talk when we did because I needed it. I needed to know you truly were happy with the way it all turned out.

[gingerbeauty94]

Never let the past back in. It’s only going to haunt you every waking moment and sometimes in your dreams until you let it go again.