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[lightning0709]

it's that time of the year again! i am quite busy as the moment, so please have this mspaint and drawn with a mouse papyrus :)

[insanelyadd]

This year for Let Papyrus Say Fuck Day (YEAR 6!!!) I have decided to make a digital painting of Papyrus being Cool As Fuck, as he so rightly deserves. Later today a speedpaint of this picture will premiere on my youtube with a voice over by me where I read out a Papyrus analysis I wrote. I will post that video when it is time. HAPPY LET PAPYRUS SAY FUCK DAY!

[thetempestechoes]

can the government stop making shit decisions for like five fucking minutes

[theravenflies]

Sorry this is kind of a rant.

I was diagnosed AuDHD very very late because I was too smart, a year young for my academic level, just a bit immature… (the list goes on. eventually my parents realized they couldn’t keep making those excuses.)

I’m living alone now because I’m at university and I am struggling a lot more than I expected. I think it’s been environmental (I hate the dorms and I can’t sleep), as well as being unprepared. One class for my degree track didn’t give us homework (there were many practice problems, but doing them didn’t count as part of the grade and there was no penalty for doing them late), so I completely ended up forgetting I should’ve been doing those problems and had to basically play catch up for most of the course. Because it was too easy to miss. This made my actual important quizzes generally go poorly, and I was only able to think up a “plan” to keep myself from procrastinating as an urgent response to realizing everything was going to hell. Because it was in the middle of stress, I also couldn’t be consistent with it. It’s been harder to take care of myself as well because I’m exhausted from thinking about my academic issues. I think I will do better next year with a less awful living situation but I’ve been really upset with myself. I’ve never gotten results that were this bad across the board. I also have only made like 3 friends and one was my roommate. They’ve also basically told me in varying degrees that I shouldn’t try to talk to them about the problems I face or that I need to just “stop worrying about it”. I don’t know what to do other than maybe try to get accommodations for late assignments if I need to because after a period of stress it feels impossible to do ANYTHING and I just stop being productive for a week. Unfortunately I can’t afford to have that happen, so it kills my grades and then I get thrown back into a week of panic again. I have been forced into the centrifuge and cannot get out.

I don’t know if you would have any advice for me so if you don’t I am sorry for wasting your time. I am just tired and need to yell at the void.

Okay, as someone deeply unqualified to give you advice because what you just described sounds exactly like my final semester of college before said college got shut down by the Federal Bureau of Investigation (my favourite lore to drop,) here's my advice;

You know your weak spots, right? You know where you struggled? And you know where you struggled but didn't completely fail versus where you struggled and thus failed? Reinforce those weak spots. I used to put post-it notes on my computer so I'd have a tangible reminder to do something, and I wouldn't let myself take the note off until that thing was done. I don't swipe notifications away until I've taken the appropriate action (like responding to a text.) Don't look at things like you've got eighty-nine tasks ahead of you, pick out one task and finish it to the best of your ability. And as you do that, keep a notebook next to you so that if you think of something that's relevent but not to the task at hand, you can write it down there and come back to it later rather than forgetting it or switching tasks and losing focus. The Job Accomodation Network has a lot of very great tips for accessibility measures you can implement yourself or ask your school to implement. See where you struggle, see where you fail, and build reinforcements around those areas.

And remember, you do the best you can with the information that you have, and you do the best you can with the resources that you have. You did what you could with the information and resources you had, and those information and resources couldn't stretch far enough to produce success. That's not a failing on your fault, you simply did not have the tools you needed in order to succeed. Take what you learned and move forward, apply it to the next thing and maybe it'll be enough, or maybe you'll still find it not enough and you'll learn even more to take forward again. You can't succeed when you have no way of succeeding.

(And also, I absolutely despise when I have a problem and people just say "don't worry about it." Like thank you, I was drowning and you told me to just breathe air, now I'm no longer drowning (sarcasm.) "Don't worry about it" is some of the most useless advice one can give when not added onto with a reason why it shouldn't be worried about. And also, you can't just stop worrying about something unless you are given a reason to not worry about it. I hate it when people tell me not to worry about it. It's the worst.)

And all in all, what works for me when I fail like this? "Breathe in, breathe out, bitch about it, and just keep stumbling vaguely forward." That's the best you can do, anon. Just keep stumbling vaguely forward. Because even if you fall, you've gotten farther along than you would have if you'd stayed in place until you knew you could walk without issue. Just keep stumbling forward, it's the best you can do. Take a deep breath, complain about it to the void, and keep going. That's all you can do. Maybe you don't got this, but you can still push forward. Failure is still a way of moving forward, it's still progress. One minute, one hour, one day- just put one foot in front of the other. I believe in you. I believe that you can keep stumbling vaguely forward.

To fail is simply the nature of the human condition. Learn from your failures and just keep moving.

If anyone has any advice for anon, feel free to add on.

[theravenflies]

Hey guys?

Who the fuck is "alt medicine" and why would they pay me for doctors refusing to diagnose me with autism? Is it some kind of financial "you may be entitled to compensation" thing? Because if so sign me up, I'm broke.

Because this had better not mean alternative medicine. Not on my science-loving account.

(I would ask them but I think they blocked me immediately after commenting. But hey, auxe4, if you want to clarify, feel free)

[thetempestechoes]

For the website that likes claiming to champion nuance, a lot of you are the actual fucking opposite of nuanced

[prokopetz]

It's fine to disagree with the IAU about the definition of "planet"; however, if your definition includes Pluto but not Ceres, Orcus, Haumea, Quaoar, Makemake, Gonggong, Eris or Sedna, you don't actually care what a planet is – you just want the exact list of nine planets you learned in primary school back. Your cute little Pluto-including orbital distance mnemonic ought to be at least seventeen words long, and good fucking luck with the Q!