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[salazarslytherin]

happy birthday, NEVILLE FRANK LONGBOTTOM, born July 30th, 1980

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behind the curtains

Remus and Sirius don’t know what’s developing between them. It takes sharing a bed to set them down the path of understanding what their feelings really are.

AO3 // pt 1.

CHAPTER TWO

i.

It started after his birthday and Remus’ forgiveness. Their short estrangement seemed to haunt everything they did during the day. Peter would tell a story about something that happened without Sirius when Remus wasn’t speaking to him and then, when Sirius didn’t get it, Peter would slowly say, “You had to be there.”

While sitting with James, going over notes for new projects, the two of them were completely out of synch because James had been having brainstorming sessions separately with them. It took days to pull together and finally connect their ideas.

Then, almost a week after his birthday, there was another full moon. Sirius hadn’t joined them last time. Remus had sent James to him the day of and told him that he wasn’t welcome. He had understood but still the rejection had hurt him more than anything. This time he almost expected the same message. Surely Remus couldn’t trust him fully already?

But he did. So Sirius went with them.

The next night, Remus climbed into his bed. Sirius could tell that the man’s movements were stiff and slow. He lay still and let Remus settle himself, hoping that he wouldn’t move suddenly and hurt his friend.

“Pomfrey shouldn’t have let you go so early,” he said after Remus finally got comfortable.

“I asked her to release me tonight.” Remus’ voice was hoarser than usual. Thoughts of that hoarseness whispering things in his ear as Remus’ body hovered over his entered Sirius’ mind before he could stop them and he tensed. He hated himself for selfishly thinking of pleasure when Remus was clearly in pain.

“I didn’t want to be alone tonight,” Remus added.

“I’ll come stay with you next time then.”

ii.

At first, they only slept together once or twice a week so it was easy enough to find excuses.

“I can’t sleep, I need to tell someone this idea.”

“James’ snoring is too loud near my bed.”

“I just remembered this thing that happened in class today.”

“I’m cold and you have more blankets than I do.”

“Do you think owls ever gossip about our mail?”

“Peter won’t stop talking in his sleep I need to be as far away as possible.”

It wasn’t long before they ran out of easy excuses. And for reasons Remus refused to acknowledge, he and Sirius began visiting each other’s beds more often. By December he found himself sleeping with Sirius almost every night. Sometimes they didn’t even say anything when they slipped into the other’s bed. Maybe it was because they pretended the old excuses still applied and could therefore go unspoken. Maybe it was because they were too afraid to speak the new ones.

“The sound of your breathing soothes me.”

“Seeing your face every morning makes me excited for a brand-new day.”

“The bed is too empty without you.”

“I can’t sleep without you anymore.”

“I want to be close to you.”

“I want you.”

Remus didn’t know what to think about it. He especially didn’t know what Sirius thought about it. Normally so open with his thoughts and feelings it seemed to be the one thing his friend was quiet about. He wondered what that silence meant but he didn’t bring it up. They were friends after all. Talking about what they were doing might make Sirius realize it wasn’t right to spend every night in bed with a friend. Remus wasn’t ready for that yet.

iii.

Sirius woke up the morning they were to go home for Christmas in Remus’ bed. He stared sleepily at his friend and the space between them. They had been sharing a bed almost every night for the past month now. Yet, they were still cautious with each other.

The careful way Remus angled his body away from him confused Sirius. Why did he stay away? Was it because, even though they could barely sleep alone any more, Remus still thought of them as nothing more than friends? It didn’t make sense to him. They had slept closer than this as friends, Sirius was sure of it. Nerves twisted in his belly as he wondered if maybe Remus was holding back because he too was afraid to push their friendship to where it seemed to want to be.

If that was the case, perhaps, if Sirius could just reach out and touch him, the whole charade would end and they could get on with it. As he slowly reached his hand across the duvet and towards Remus’ forearm, however, a voice startled them both.

“Oi! Sirius, you awake yet? If we miss the train mum will have us out for it you know,” came James’ loud voice from beyond the curtains.

Sirius stared wide eyes at Remus who had been startled awake and was trying to blink the sleep away so he could process what was happening. Fear gripped Sirius. They had been so careful about their sleeping arrangements. Each morning one of them went back to their own bed early before the others woke and mussed the covers to look like they had actually spent the night where they belonged. Of course, if they were being honest with themselves, where they belonged was with each other. But they weren’t quite ready to say that yet. Sirius did wish they could end the whole charade, but this hadn’t been the reveal he’d been hoping for.

The distinct sound of curtains being drawn and James saying, “Hey Peter, Sirius isn’t in his bed,” made Sirius flinch and Remus rolled his eyes at him. Before he knew what was happening, Remus had wrapped an arm around him and pulled him close. Remus tucked his head on top of Sirius’ and murmured, “It’ll be okay.”

A moment later, James pulled back Remus’ curtain. “Moony, have you seen- oh.“

“Bugger off James, we’ll get up soon.”

The curtains were yanked shut again and Remus snickered as he drew away and smiled at Sirius. He looked at Remus’ beaming face and pulled him back into his arms before he lost his nerve.

“Don’t go yet,” Sirius said.

iv.

By the time Remus got to the Potter Estate on New Year’s Eve, he was a jittery mess. Peter would certainly scold him for how much coffee he had been drinking at home but he couldn’t help it. He could barely sleep without Sirius in bed with him. On one hand, the withdrawal made him realize how much he had gotten used to his friend being in bed with him. Too used to it. Perhaps they should cut back so they could actually handle a night apart.

But Sirius’ words echoed in his head. Don’t go yet. So Remus wouldn’t. He didn’t really want to anyway.

He arrived at the Potters’ right on time and they spent the evening having a lovely dinner with James’ parents. Remus watched the way Euphemia and Fleamont treated Sirius and felt a flutter of happiness in his chest. The Potters were gentle and kind and didn’t push Sirius further than he could go. When Euphemia hugged all the boys before retiring for the night, she held back and waited for Sirius to come to her. Remus was pleased that they were letting Sirius enter their family at his own pace. It was what Sirius needed if he was ever going to realize how much he deserved their love.

The rest of the evening was filled with games, drinking, and mischief making. Remus tried not to think about the twinkle in Sirius’ eye when he laughed or how handsome he looked when he flicked his hair out of his face to concentrate during a game of cards. Sometimes he was successful. Other times, James had to say his name twice to even get his attention. He tried not to blush too much at his obvious distraction but it was no use, by the time they went to bed he was a brilliant shade of pink.

“Where’m I sleeping,” he mumbled as the four men trudged up the stairs a while after midnight. They had all had so much to drink at this point that their words were slurred and walking needed extra concentration.

“Figured you’d wanna sleep with Pads,” James said. He tried to turn and wink at Remus but tripped on the last step and landed face first in the hall.

“I got’im,” Peter said before propping James up and stumbling off toward his room.

“You don’t have to,” Sirius said when the others were out of earshot.

“I haven’t been able to bloody sleep without you,” Remus said in response. Before he could lose his nerve, he took Sirius’ hand and led him to bed.

Almost as soon as they shut the door behind them, they collapsed into bed together. Remus was vaguely aware that his head was resting on Sirius’ chest and that his friend’s arms were wrapped tightly around him. His heart pounded in his chest and his face reheated all over again. They had never slept this closely before, a tangled mess of awkward limbs. Remus realized he didn’t want to sleep any other way.

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