Silent “I love You”s
Ticci Toby x fem!reader
Hi cloudz! This is my first ever tumblr fic. So forgive me if it’s not the best (ᵕ—ᴗ—) credits to @strangergraphics for the divider <3
Toby hates late missions. Hates coming home at 4 am to see his girl asleep without him. Not that he’d ever ask you to stay up and wait for him! He knows better than to ever deprive his baby of her sleep. But he does love it when she pulls him in close.
Opening the back door, trying with his whole body and soul to be as silent as possible. But.. it’s Toby. His little clicks seem too loud, his whistles suddenly sound ear piercing, even the crack of his neck or fingers sound like tornado sirens in the empty house. He flinches at every noise he makes, worried that you’d somehow wake up.
Slowly he peels off his boots and hatchets leaving them by the door, trying to avoid getting blood on anything. He once got blood on your couch and he nearly burst into tears trying to tell you. Though, if it meant you holding his head to your chest to comfort him every time, he might have to do it more often.
But right now it seems the house groans every time he breathes and every floorboard creaks under his feet. Always testing his patience he thinks to himself as he tiptoes upstairs to the bathroom. The click of the lock causes him to pause. Waiting for a sign that you’d woken up. It felt like the shower hitting the tiled floor had an echo. Toby’s ears ring as he rids himself of the sins he’s committed that night. Knowing it’d be the same tomorrow and the day after, and the day after that.
Letting out a sigh that weighed more than he cared explain, he walked back to your shared bedroom. Towel low on his waist as he dresses himself, then and only then does he look over at your sleeping figure. And all seems normal.
Until it doesn’t.
Looking at you he notices two eyes glittering like the stars are staring back at him. ‘Those eyes hold the entire universe’ he thinks as he walks over to the bed and sits down by your feet. “Sorry to wake you gorgeous, go b-back to sleep” he smiles apologetically, rubbing your leg through the blanket.
Reaching for his hand you pull him down, the weight of his body reminding you that he is, in fact, safe now. Toby melts into your touch immediately practically purring as he looks up at you. The stress from life, work, even the little argument with Masky he had earlier all seem to fizzle out and disappear totally. His muscles relax and he pulls you closer.
“Missed you so fuh-fucking much ‘ya know” he nuzzles into the crook of your neck. Leaving velvet soft kisses on your collarbone up to the edge of your jaw. “Mm you did?” You let out a soft giggle, wrapping your arms around his neck you reach up and kiss the tip of his nose.
Toby’s bottom lip tuts thinking you were going to kiss him, kiss him. “Oh now you’re just teasin’ me s-sugar” he pouts, leaning forward to finally kiss your lips. The two of you melt into each other, not knowing where you end and Toby begins. His grip firms around your cheek, pulling you impossibly closer.
Slow, deep, and careful. That’s how Toby kissed you after these types of missions. Like you’d disappear if he’s not close enough to you. He kisses the words he’s too scared to say right into your mouth, into your skin. Burning you with his love.
Every little kiss, turn, or touch seeming to say “I love you” “I missed you” “Never leaving” everything he wouldn’t dare say out loud. Pulling away for air, you pull Toby to your side and curl into his chest. Right now this is exactly where you belong.
Wrapping his arms around your waist and tucking your head under his chin he feels like he can finally breathe. Feeling your breaths turn shallow and your body relax, he feels his own eyes begin to droop shut. Adrenaline from his day finally wearing off. Holding you close, Toby himself finally drifts off to sleep.