#life actually

[missinvisibleandco]

"Life, Actually"

Just trying to find something new in the everyday grind.....😬(3.3.20)

[someillplanetreigns]

Incantation-Fetter’s Arms update! (Don’t know how many followers follow me for that, but hi!) I am SO sorry it’s taken me so long to update - since graduating a few weeks ago (!!!) I am finally focusing back on it! The next chapter is in the final edit stage, but my dream is to give you a double bill of chapters because it’s been so long (and because that would move us into one of the chapters I have been imagining in my head for SO LONG), so we’ll see how that goes! All the love, and thank you for reading (and waiting!) <3

[pixelated-alien]

I’m currently a wreck and I can’t breathe. My head hurts, I’ve been crying all day and now i feel nauseous. I can’t focus on anything and my heart seriously just hurts. I don’t wanna do this anymore, honestly.

[mollyrolls]

someone told me i had a warm presence today and i literally cried

[tagitables]

The flavours of life but in terms of quarks. Tempt me !!

[anarwen]

Today I accompanied my nephew to his basketball class, and it was fine but...what kind of practice session it is if didn't use "I'll make a man out of you" as background music?

[life---actually]

Words cannot express the gratitude I feel today as I leave one place to another, met on both sides by such love and friendship. Thank you to each and one of you who have encouraged me and supported me in this adventure, which began some time ago and nonetheless continues.

As some of you know who have been reading, I’ve been blogging and IGing for a while now at #lifeactually, which in some way ran parallel to @vishmili as an encapsulation of the moments of the past year and a half or so. Over the last couple of months, something happened though: I no longer could quite distinguish to which profile my musings belonged. It’s as though the two sides of me melded somehow and became one perspective; no longer some new me adventuring vs some old me connecting nostalgically; perhaps because I had decided it was time to transition into something else? Or, perhaps, because the newbie perspective is no more. In either case, today, with this post, I retire one half - though in no way cut it away completely. It’ll still be here, and though I didn’t anticipate it then, this blog helped me get a little (or a lot) closer to understanding what (ironically) life actually is about. For future musings, find them at http://idefiningi.blogspot.com (yes, it’s old).

I’ve learned a lot in the last four - and especially two - years, when my life took new (good) turbulent turns. It opened my eyes to what is possible when we venture out of our comfort zones. When relationships transform, when home is redefined, the relationship we have with ourselves and how we perceive ourselves relative to our world changes. It opens up the world - as if in a lucid dream - empty, in a way, but also so full of capacity if we hone in on the juices of the present and embrace transience in all its forms.

So, as I get ready to board a plane this afternoon and make a new alteration to this dreamworld of mine, I feel light. Inquisitive and excited to live outside new comfort zones. Today, I’m not leaving home nor am I going home. I’ve found home here - part within myself, part in awakening to what is around me always. And I thank everyone - then, now and later - for playing such an integral part in this experience and my learning.

[London, Hampstead, 10:22am]