life has been very difficult these last few months. i’m being unfairly targeted at work and may not get renewed. all of my friends have bailed on everything we’ve planned in the last few months.
i’m not sure what i’ve done to deserve this. i’ve worked hard, i give my all to my job, my students love me, i’m there for my friends, i prioritize my friends...and yet all of this happening.
i don’t like being pitied. i don’t want people’s pity. i don’t want to be seen as a victim. so how do you move forward when both your personal and professional lives suck?
-i need to try to go on a trip this year, even if it’s by myself, because i love traveling
-i need to find a new job...fresh start, where i won’t be in such a toxic work environment
-i need to stop putting energy into relationships for now...i’m going to be alone for now. just focus on myself, my hobbies, and my personal growth.
i may look back on life and know that this was a bad time, but it’s temporary. a new decade is starting and there are beautiful days to come.
