Jul 13, 2020
I
Am
Going
To
Fucking
Scream
#ro talks about dumb shit#I'm really fucking restless rn#like REALLY restless#i need SOMETHING to happen#i don't know what#i feel like an old god who's seen many things and cares for the world and wants nothing more than to sit and live#i feel like a child who doesn't know better than to be happy and enjoy the world for what it gives you#i feel like me- a teenager who doesn't have the time for life and so much more to live for- but so washed out and tired#i and understimulated and i am overstimulated#i want to run and scream and shout and do everything in the world all at once#i want to do nothing. nothing at all but sit in the sun and sleep peacefully on my own#i want this to be over#i want to restart#i want nothing and everything but i need it now or never#I'm restless#I'm always restless#when will i be satisfied with myself?#when will i finally rest?#when will my mind calm down enough that i can finally be at peace?#when am i going to live?#when will i finally start breathing again- enough that i can finally feel the sun on my face and the grass around my body#where am i#am i alive?#are you here too?#or am i alone in my restlessness?