You like buckys tags...okay you love them, the way they hung around buckys neck, the soft clashing of metal when they'd hit each other, the way they looked around buckys neck, he'd often catch you looking at them. It would make him smile, youd often catch yourself messing with them, you'd be laying on the couch or the bed, laying in his embrace, you would often reach up to fidget with them, it calmed you.
When you and bucky went out, or had to present to Valentina, you'd always subconsciously reach for buckys tags to mess with them. A motion that caught everyone's attention, but nobody minded, well Valentina would give the occasional eye roll, John would give a 'ugh' look at times but that was about it*
*youd often grab his tags and gently pull him towards you, into a kiss. which he of course enjoyed*
You just couldn't keep your hands off of his tags and he never once minded that.
I'm a feminist, obviously, But I wouldn't really mind him savin' me, And I know that I'm fine without a man, But I think I would like his protection, I'm just bein' honest, can't change what I likeI'll never forget it, he told me one night "If anybody hurts you, haI'm goin' to prison for life"
I'm no damsel in distress, noBut I like assertiveness, so Wrap your arm around me, babe and tell me that you'll keep me safe, I know it's bad to fantasize About robbers and bad guys But if he were there to save the day, ha Think I'd let that man marry me.
Lyrics from Olivia rodrigo (unreleased song) 'going to prison for life'
I'm a feminist, obviously, But I wouldn't really mind him savin' me, And I know that I'm fine without a man, But I think I would like his protection, I'm just bein' honest, can't change what I likeI'll never forget it, he told me one night"If anybody hurts you, haI'm goin' to prison for life"
I'm no damsel in distress, no But I like assertiveness, so wrap your arm around me, babe And tell me that you'll keep me safe, I know it's bad to fantasize About robbers and bad guys. But if he were there to save the day, haThink I'd let that man marry me
Lyrics from Olivia rodrigo (unreleased song) 'going to prison for life'
I didnt mean to fall for you, but im glad i did. Pt1
Minors DNI. 18+ violence. Cursing. Y/N x Winter Soldier. Y/N x Bucky Barnes.
(I didn't proof read, so I'm really sorry if its bad, but please enjoy if you can, support by liking and reblogging <3 )
you were 24 years old, you were smart, fast, and strong, you had skills, you were made to use them more often than not, you were apart of an organization, not hydra, thank god for that, but you were apart of an organization that had it's similarities, you know how the government is, always trying to make another weapon better than the last, well you were one of them.you were born in 1993, you had a decent little childhood, a decently bright future, that's what you'd always been told anyways, well you guessed they weren't too wrong, your future was something alright, you grew up a somewhat happy child, you had your friends, and family, you had a good little life, but something always felt off, different, you never understood what it was, what that feeling deep inside meant, All you could understand was you weren't like everyone else, you were faster than all the other kids, you were somewhat smarter than the other kids, you moved differently, the older you got the more those feelings increased, as did your abilities, when you were older, preteen, you'd find yourself in fights with other kids, you'd never lose, you always managed to kick the shit out of whoever tried to attack you, you were just skilled, that's what you told yourself, that's what you were told, it wasn't until years later you learnt the truth. the truth being you were in fact born different.
you were 2 years old when your biological mother died, you were 2 years old when you were placed with a nice loving family who took you in and loved you deeply, you were 17 when you learnt that your biological mother had been impregnated by a 'super soldier' you were 17 when you learnt that your mother was hunted down and killed, you were 17 when you learnt that hydra had figured out one of their own super soldiers had created a child who bared the abilities of a super soldier without the need of serum, you were 17 years old when shield found out about you and brought you in, they said it was for your own safety, you were told that hydra knew about you, that they have been hunting you down for years, you would be a gold mine for them, a child born with super soldier abilities without the need of serum?, if they could get their hands on you, that could be the beginning, of another world war, if hydra had been successful in creating another 'super soldier child' then they wouldn't be trying so hard to get you, something about you would be deeply beneficial to them, and the government wasn't about to let that happen* *you were told that you could be a 'hero' could help save the world, you were told that with your 'natural' abilities you could use them for something besides yourself, something told you that you didn't have much of a choice, but you also knew you'd be safer if you did what was 'asked' of you, and hell you could make a difference, so you agreed* *you were 17 when you joined shield, a decision that changed your life forever. you were 17 when you learned how to properly 'kill' a man. you were 18 when you took a life for the first time. you were 19 when you met the avengers, shield wanted you to learn something or two from an actual super soldier, and learn you did, captain Steve Rogers had taught you more ways to defend yourself than ways to kill, you liked it better that way, you learned to get used to this life, and sparing with someone who didn't want you to kill every target you came face to face with, was relieving, you'd met them all, you liked them, you had already known Natasha since shield first took you in, so you two were already well acquainted. you didn't fully trust banner, but you liked him, Tony annoyed you deeply, but you leaned to like him, honestly you preferred his AI system 'jarvis' over him* *you were 20 when you first met 'Him' the winter soldier, deadliest assassin known to man, the year was 2014, just a few years after shield had taken you in, you thought maybe you'd be safe from whatever hydra threat was out there, no, you were just wrong, the soldier wasn't specifically sent after just you.
you'd caught his attention though, you'd caught all of hydras attention, and hell you didn't even mean to, you'd got caught up in some heavy shit, one moment things were fine, you were working under Nick fury, actually enjoying your life, doing small missions. the next thing you know, fury is 'dead' Shield is corrupted by Hydra, and you're just caught in the crossfire, hydra intended infiltrate shield, and finding out you were apart of shield that was just icing on the cake, they knew your location, your address, everything about you, they knew, and suddenly you were on the run, when Natasha and Steve had caught on to the fact that shield was corrupt, they went for you, told you it was time to get the hell out of here, and without question you followed. that's how you met Sam Wilson, that's also how you fully found out that hydra had been slithering their way into Shield for a while, and that it was no longer safe to be with shield. it broke your heart finding out that fury was 'dead' the man was an asshole sometimes, but he had his good days, he was nice to you, you'd get along pretty well, you and Maria were good friends too, you could only imagine how this was all affecting her, she was closer to fury than you were* *you were in a car, speeding down the highway, Sam was driving, Steve was in the passenger seat, bickering with the low level hydra trash, jasper Sitwell, Natasha and you were in the back seat, crammed together with the hydra agent, everything seemed fine, until you heard a loud Thud from on top of the car, your head snapped upwards, confused* "What was tha-OH SHIT!" *A large metal hand shot through the back window, grabbing and ripping the hydra agent from the backseat through the window, flinging the man into oncoming traffic into the next lane, like it was nothing, Natasha wasted no time, she shoved you down onto the floorboard* "stay down!" *she yelled, ordering you to do so, she climbed into the front seat, as bullets rang through the air, she took Steve's shield, throwing it into the back seat, over you, blocking on-coming bullets, you felt a hard bump from the back of the car as bullets fired all around.
You lifted your head a little, looking around you couldn't just do nothing, Natasha's gun had fallen out of her reach, you shifted yourself, pulling a gun from your holster, you took the safety off, pointing it to the top of the car before you pulled the trigger shooting at whatever the hell was up there, Sam slammed on breaks, throwing the person off, sending them flying several feet across the highway, the sound of metal scraping pavement could be heard, you shot up, looking ahead of you, towards the highway, a man, a large man, with a metal arm, a mask and goggles hiding his face, kneeled in the road, slowly he stood up, messy brown hair covering most of his face, making him more that intimidating, you looked the others, the look on Natasha's face was that of fear, something you didn't see on her much, she knew this man, anter vehicle hit the back of the car, sending Sam speeding forward, inching closer and closer to the masked man, just as the car was about to make contact with masked assassin, the jumped forward, doing some sort of in human side flip, onto the top of the car, a metal hand shot through the windshield, ripping the steering wheel from its place, you screamed in shock and fear, as Natasha finally grabbed her gun, aiming and shooting at the roof of the car* "Oh my God what the hell are we going to fucking do?!" *you screamed, as the car swayed from side to side, you knew this would be how you fucking died* *you looked behind you, in the now broken rear windshield, to see the metal armed man on the hood of a huge military looking jeep, hydra was on your asses* "Im going to die, this is how I die" *the car was hit from the rear once more, sending it to the side* "No were not!" *Steve yelled through the chaos, Steve reached into the backseat, grabbing his shield, as he tried to work the door open* "Y/N move up here now!" *he yelled* "All of you hold on!" *thank god this man was a super soldier, he somehow managed to get all three of you, safely enough out of the car, the three of you were skidding across the highway on the broken car door, Sam and you had went rolling a few feet across the highway, a few scratches but that was it, you were both lucky considering the situation* .*you stood up, looking around, your eyes wide, the masked strides forward, being handed a goddamn grenade launcher?.* "Shit shit shit" *Steve wasted no time in pushing both you and Natasha out of the way, she grabbed your wrist, jerking you along with her, the two of you barley missing the explosion as it hit Steve's shield, sending him flying*
*you and Natasha made a run for it, but oh his eyes were on you both as the two of you ducked behind a car, you pulled your gun, as did Natasha, shooting at the other hydra agents, the soilder aimed his weapon, shooting another explosive in your direction. you turned and jumped over the lane barrier, sliding out of the way, just in time as an oncoming car passed you* "we're fucked" *You said to Natasha, you tucked and rolled beside of a car as bullets shot through the air, you two made another run for it, as the soldier sent another explosive in your direction, she grabbed you by the waist as she shoots a grappling hook into the the cement bridge, sadly lowering you both down, once your feet hit the ground she ran, and so did you. you looked ahead, you could see the shoulders shadow from where he stood above you, you pulled out your gun, holding it between both hands, the soldier looked around, trying to locate the two of you, you aimed upwards, and took your shot, you got him, in what wou;I've been the eye if he wasn't wearing protective face gear, you turned on your heel running* "I got him but I don't know if he's dead" *you called out to her, as you two made a run for it, to a nearby safe spot*.*the soldier stood up, in his hand held a large gun, he took his aim and began firing multiple rounds at you both, Natasha shot back, you went around the vehicle where he wouldn't see you, and took your shot, you missed but it got his attention enough to aim bis shots at you, you took your chance, running, giving Natasha time to get away*"What the hell are you doing are you insane?!" *she yelled after you* "I got this nat! go find Steve! I can handle myself for a few minutes, just find Steve!" *you yelled back to the redheaded assassin, she hesitated for a second, but she did as you asked, she went in the other direction, while you distracted the soldier**the soldier jumped down from the bridge, landing on a car beneath, you turned to look behind you, and there he was, striding forward, holding his weapon, his eyes trained on you, watching you like his life depended on it, you turned to your left, hauling ass down a side street and beside of an abandoned car, crouching down, you took a few deep quiet breaths, you could handle this of course you could, you had to, if you didn't want to fucking die right now* *people screamed and ran throughout the streets, you knew he was close, oh so close to you, that thought sent fear through your veins, you reached down, into your pocket, pulling out your phone* "Come on come on" *you mumbled, tuning on a recording, Natasha was right, this would come in handy one day, you propped it against the wheel of the car, and quietly moved to another car, watching silently and quietly as the soldier stalked forward, stopping in his tracks in front of the car you'd just been behind, moments ago, he slowly kneeled down, reaching behind him, grabbing something, and slowly rolling it underneath the car, you watched silently as he stood up, aiming his weapon, waiting as another explosion went off*
*you stood up while his attention was on the explosion, where he thought you were, you hopped up onto a car that was behind him, and lunged forward, you kicked dhis gun right from his hand as you landed on him, legs wrapped around him straddling his shoulders, you pulled out a retractable wire device, throwing it over his head, you attempted to choke him out, pulling it tightly, but his hand came up faster than you could move, preventing you from your little attempt, he shifted backwards, slamming you backwards into the car behind, he reached up grabbing your arm and thigh, lifting and throwing you forward into the nearest car, your body hit the car with a loud 'thud' a groan fell from your lips as you lifted yourself up,just as he went for his gun again, you stood up, shifting fast, you threw a high kick, kicking that gun right out of his hands again, it slide across the pavement hitting the curb, you looked at him, as he reaches beside him probably to take out another fucking gun, you reached into your pocket, pulling out a small round metal device, you didn't hesitate to throw it forward, it landed on his arm, temporarily immobilizing him, you raised a brow, before stepping back, the soldier shifted his arm, lifting it and rotating it forward, it made a sound, you stepped back, those big visible brown eyes held hatred as he made eye contact, he reached back, pulling out a knife* "you just don't give up do you?"
*you took a deep breath before you ran forward at him, he threw a punch at you, which you ducked, he swung his knife ar you, missing your chest by an inch, you dropped to the ground, kicking your leg outwards, sweeping his legs out from underneath him, he hit the ground hard, instantly sitting up, you shifted fast, kicking him straight into he face, before you rolled to the side, you stood up as he leaned back, kicking his legs forward, landing in a standing position, gripping his knife, you'd only managed to piss him off more* "Not much of a talker huh?" *You said, as he strides forward, slamming you into a van behind you, he made a move, bringing the knife down, but you grabbed his metal wrist, preventing it, you weren't as strong as him, by no means were you, but you were strong, which gave you an advantage, you managed to keep him from stabbing you, he looked at you, with shock? on his face, you breathed hard, looking him in the eyes, breathing deeply, you were shocked with how beautiful his eyes looked to you, you were both so close to each other, faces just inches away from the other, crazy assassin or not, there was just something about him that just drew you in, he seemed to loosen his grip, momentairly, he shook his head, blinking, before he shoved it forward again, you shifted his arm, causing him to stab the van, slashing through the metal, you duck as his other fist comes forward, you duck underneath his arms, turning fast, you kicked him in the back of the knee, taking his knife from where it was stabbed into the van, you held it before bringing it down, stabbing it into his shoulder, you couldn't win against him, but you could run,
so you turned, on your heel, making a run for it, you were fast, but he was faster, as you turned, you didn't see it coming, the knife you had just used to stab him with, came flying towards you, hitting you right in the chest, thankfully it hit more to the side and up, closer to the shoulder, just as it did, Steve and Natasha entered the scene, Steve went forward to handle the soldier, and Natasha tended to you.you learnt something during that fight, as you were bleeding out watching Steve and the metal armed hunter fight, you learned that you could not win a fight against the soldier, and that his name was Bucky. your eyes closed, as the world went dark*
Honestly, I hate to be on some "nobody understands me" bullshit but recovering from this eating disorder and gaining weight from my thyroid has me so fucked up. I still have all of the dysmorphia, ED habits, and pain from being uw but now I actually look like what I once feared I would.
