summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
song: call my bluff by tate mcrae
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8. friends for now
a/n: we are so close to half way through and i'm deciding on which way i want to go with this. you are more than welcome to comment what you think will happen tho.
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
song: call my bluff by tate mcrae
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4. youtube history
a/n: next chapter will be mostly written and i PROMISE the silence will be broken between them.
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
song: call my bluff by tate mcrae
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3. congratulations
a/n: does anyone have any guesses as to what eunseok did ?
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
song: call my bluff by tate mcrae
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7. korean lessons (written part) - 1.8k
flashback
you don’t know how to describe you and eunseok’s relationship. you were those trainees. the ones that were inseparable. eunseok was the one who helped you get acclimated to korea. he was intrigued about the new trainees. he was especially intrigued when he heard there were trainees from the states and when he first laid eyes on you, his curiosity did not end there.
as you were getting introduced to the other new trainees, you tried to be sociable but didn’t know much korean. you bowed and waved as you did your rounds making sure to greet everyone since you’d be seeing them often. when it got to eunseok, he was determined to communicate with you - to let it be known that he wanted to know you. unfortunately for him, the most he could muster out was “hi’. you could tell he wanted to say more as he lifted his arm to scratch the back of his neck. you were patient with him and waited for him to get his words out. “I’m eunseok”
you smiled at his efforts and returned the greeting “ hi my name is y/n”
from that moment on, whenever the trainees had a chance to mingle, he was always finding you. you ate together, got each other's opinions on your dance training, sometimes you even sat in silence to just decompress together.
luckily for you, your korean was getting stronger because of your classes and eunseok was putting in the effort to learn new english phrases to impress you. you were good at picking up languages. you were achieving the basics of korean quickly and that soon turned into you speaking to eunseok in full sentences, which turn into many long conversations...
“you know the best way to learn a language, right ?” eunseok tilted his head back as he looked at the sky
you shook you head, still looking at the river.
“no, tell me”
“dating”
you slowly turned your head towards him and let out a small chuckle “well, when will I have time for that?”
“now” he smirked “you kinda have all the time in the world now”
“you seem like you’re speaking from experience.” you raised an eyebrow at him.
“it’s just something people say. I wouldn’t know myself” he shrugged, now relaxing into the bench you two were sitting on together.
“so would you date while doing all this? while we’re training?”
“ if i’m being honest, I never thought about it till now.” you were aware some of the trainees were dating in private. some were dating within the company, others had outside partners that were just normal people. you never thought about entertaining the idea because you didn’t think you had any options. but now you actually want to consider it. a fling even… just to get it out of your system before debut.
“if i were to engage in dating for the cultural exchange, do you have a male trainee you recommend going after? you know them better than I do.” you glance at him and his chuckles at your question before he begins thinking about what you’ve asked.
“I don’t know, what’s your type?”
his eyes are now trained on you awaiting your answer as you pause to think. you always pause when you’re figuring out how to phrase your words in korean, but that’s not why you were pausing this time and you're sure eunseok can’t tell the difference.
“what about anton?” you ask, simply just throwing out the name of the only other male trainee you know and the only other one who made an effort to speak to you besides eunseok. you assumed it’s because you spoke english and was also from the states. maybe he needed his english time.
“what about him?” eunseok asks nonchalantly, as lifts his arms to rest on the back of the bench. his hand lightly brush your shoulder.
“he speaks english and korean plus he’s from the states. we’d have a lot in common.”
“nah i think you could do better.”
you looked at him pointedly. “is he not my best option?”
“he’s boring and he’s just as good at korean as you are”
this was a lie and he knew that. hell even you knew that much.
“you need someone who grew up here. has only ever spoken korean. that would be a true cultural exchange”
“okay then give me a suggestion since you know best.” you turned your body towards him, crossing your legs. eunseok lifted his hand and gestured to himself with a slight smile on his face.
“you’re insane”
“no i’m serious.”
you just stared at him for a moment. searching his eyes trying to figure out if he was pranking you. somewhere deep inside you hope he wasn’t.
“you can’t tell me you haven’t thought about it once?” he shifts closer to you. It’s a small shift but you notice it. you notice everything.
he’s right, you have thought about it. quite often actually.
“are you saying you have?”
he nods slowly like he’s scared to admit it to you. “ since the day we met”
flashback ends
“earth to y/n!”
you open your eyes to yunjin standing over you. she smiles. “y/n dear, do you mind if we run the choreography one more time and then we can call it a day?”
“sure jen” you say with a yawn as you rise up from your 5 min nap. you and the girls do one more run through and then gather to go over notes for tomorrow’s rehearsal when you hear a knock at the door.
“oop” manon whispered. the girls make eyes at you and all you can do is squeeze your eyes and take a deep breath in. the moment you lowkey been dreading all day.
“come in!” yunjin yells and gives your hand a light squeeze. eunseok peeks his head around the corner.
“seriously, you can come in. we were just wrapping up.” yunjin says, walking towards her bag that was against the wall.
eunseok walks in the room holding a drink carrier with two cups in it. he does a slight blow to your member with a small smile on his face and slowly walks over to where you and the other girls stand in the center of the room. “i don’t bite by the way!” yunjin yells with a smile on her face. “taro hyung has said otherwise.” eunseok just smiles and nods.
“girls come on. y/n we’ll see you at home?” you give her a quick nod and bid the rest of your members a goodbye. once the door closes you turn to eunseok who’s holding a cup out to you. “i got you chamomile tea. i don’t know if you still drink this after you’re done with your schedules.” you give him a tiny nod and take the cup from him, fingers slightly brushing. “ i do. thanks”
“well. should we sit on the couch?” he’s looking down at you trying to get you to look at him but you just walk ahead of him to sit down.
you adjusted yourself as eunseok sat on the couch next to you, his knee brushing yours. you tried not to freeze at his touch, but it’s been so long.
“y/n” you finally look at him. you’re suddenly regretting agreeing to speak with him but you know you have to face your problems head on.
he was a problem that was never gonna go away.
“I know no apology will fix everything but I really want to say i’m sorry for …for everything.” you take another deep breath in, eyes falling back into your lap. his gaze stays trained on you.
“I’m not expecting you to forgive me but seeing you again -- it felt right trying to apologize.” you were now gripping the cup of tea, focusing on the way the warmth traveled to your hands.
“y/n please say something” the strain in his voice snaps you out of your daze.
“eunseok..i honestly don’t know what you want me to say. I don’t know how it felt for you but losing the person I saw everyday for almost two years really hurt me.” you felt tears welling in your eyes. you couldn’t let him see you cry.
“you ended things and ghosted me. it was so easy for you.”
he reaches for one of your hands on the cup with both of his. if he’s being honest with himself. he didn’t think this through. he just wanted a chance to talk to you again but he knew it wouldn’t be easy to get things back to were they were before. to regain your trust. he knew he didn’t deserve it.
“i thought it would be easier, when they told me we were gonna be on a show and i thought i was close to debuting. I figured it would be better if we left each to focus.”
“you never asked me what I thought eunseok.” he sighs and closes his eyes. you were both on edge and rethinking even having this conversation, but eunseok wanted to see it through and at the very least get back into good graces with you. he was determined.
“tell me what to do.” he gripped you hand even tighter and it brought you back to your senses.
“huh?”
“tell me what i need to do to get you to trust me again.”
“eunseok i don’t know..” you didn’t know. you never imagined you two working out simply because you thought eunseok didn’t want to. giving him a lesson plan on how to get back good with you was the last thing on your mind.
“can we be friends?” you scoffed. the idea of him asking to be friends again brought you out of your emotions because the audacity of this man was insane.
“we were friends before and look at how that turned out.”
“It won’t be like that again. i’m serious. I promise.” he held up his pinky for you to intertwine with his but you just stared at it.
“how can I trust you?”
“y/n i’m literally holding out my pinky.” you let out a tiny chuckle. “you can’t be serious.”
he held his pinky up, trying to meet your eyes. when you finally locked eyes with him, you gave in, interlocking your fingers together as he yanked you over to him engulfing you in a hug that made you tense up.
“okay okay calm down. this isn’t me saying yes to friends. you’re gonna have to prove yourself.” you say still trapped in his embrace. you let out a deep breath you had been holding ever since you started this conversation and relax into him just a little.
“I promise i’ll do anything y/n. I mean it.”
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a/n: ngl I was tense writing this and was trying to make it all make sense. I can not promise moving forward there will be less angst but we will have our ups and downs. (maybe in the form of a person??)
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
song: call my bluff by tate mcrae
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5. no contact
9:37pm
you flop down on your bed. this has been the earliest you and your members have gotten home after filming the last music show for this promo period. now you’re off to a week of filming variety shows. even though you’re excited you can’t help but feel nervous about being perceived after the incident with eunseok.. which is the cause of your newest night routine.
arrive at the dorm, scroll on your phone, check comments, monitor fancams, search your name on twitter all until your manager comes in and tells you that takeout has arrived. you were deep into the comments on your fancam until you received a dm.
seok sent a dm
you close your phone, sigh and stare at the ceiling. you’ve been no contact with eunseok ever since he broke it off. eventually he went off to debut and you could focus on preparing for yours. did you frequently worry about him? maybe occasionally. it was easy to brush it off though because you had to focus. now he’s everywhere and suddenly you realize your plans of avoiding him would only go so far.
“why won’t he leave me alone?” you sighed, rubbing your hands on your eyes. you were almost done with promotions and then you could focus on how you wanted to approach him.
If you even wanted to do that.
locking your phone, you throw it down on your bed and head to the bathroom to wash your hands. after, the m countdown segment, you did well at hiding your emotions all throughout promotions. not because you wanted to, but because you had to. you knew the fans over-analyzed everything but didn't realize how bad it was when it came to you. all eyes were literally on you.
the worst part of it all was how you never stopped running into him. he was everywhere. in the halls of the company, the cafeteria, when your managers had the bright idea of your group filming tiktoks together, he was there. of course when you were trainees you’ve always imagined debuting together, but you didn’t think you would ever be this distant from him.
leaning against the sink, you stop to stare at yourself in the mirror. your makeup was pretty today so you didn’t want to remove it until you got home, hoping you could snap some selfies before bedtime. You enjoyed that your fans got excited at seeing even the smallest glimpses of you so you made sure to provide them with a selfie every time you felt up to it. a small part of you was doing it to show eunseok you’re fine without him. enjoying your debut and thriving. but you’re not sure how much of it was believable. you’re not sure if you believe it either.
“y/n foods here!” you heard your manager shout for you from the living room. deciding now would be better, than after dinner you walked back to your room to snap a couple of photos and hit post. against your better judgement you decided to open eunsok’s dm.
a/n: i feel like you can already tell what eunseok did, i'm just letting it marinate a little more. we'll get in to the back story very soon.
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut.
summary: y/n is a member of sm’s first global girl group [bloom], after finally making her debut she is consistently running into an “old friend” from her trainee days who wants nothing more than to finish where they left off while all y/n wants to do is focus on her debut
genre: lovers(?) to enemies to lovers, smau, idol universe
features: manon from katseye, yunjin from lesserafim & gawon from meovv, y/n face claim is savannah smith
content warning: profanity, slight sexual content, minors DNI
