#lis fictokin

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Nathan Prescott. Took me 12 hours after redoing this

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Every now and then I realise how sensitive I am, like I’m not insecure or anything but I always assume over the smallest things that someone is upset with me and is going to abandon me, or worse that I’ve hurt them somehow I never assume I’m hated because hating would mean they care like a stupid amount and that’s just stupid to assume like I am not that important to someone who is going to leave you know, not to be sorry for myself or anything that’s hella cringe and this isn’t necessarily even a sad post but I’m just super sensitive and I always assume someone is going to abandon me or something. I wouldn’t hurt someone purposely I can always understand even when I’m irrational how doing something erratic would be stupid and hurtful, that has only really happened when I lash out at family because I’m comfortable with them and they don’t take it personally because I don’t mean anything I say and that I can’t help it necessarily but even if I know not too it doesn’t stop me from wanting to abandon someone who I’m scared will abandon me just so I’m not the one who ends up rejected, I also just want to distance myself from people when i worry I’ve showed too much of myself and they act as if I’m too much for them or worse that I’m not really worth it idk it’s harder with people who can really leave, it’s not like family who stick it out.

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Shot in the dark but If any Lis fictokin or fictives are on here PLEASE interact I need source mates, especially Nathan weirdly enough.

-Also if you are fictokin of any character interact too if you want!

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idk if you like rock music but i think big empty by stone temple pilots is very youcore 🧐👍🏻 do with this information as you will :3

Awh thank you this is really cute,I will definitely give it a listen when I can I listen to every genre mostly so I’ll probably like it :3

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I wanna use again #I hate withdrawals

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In a fucking awful mood after finding out from my friend that my ex who sexually abused me is again reposting about sexual assault and practically larping as a victim, I understand having a cnc kink, a paraphilia or something but fetishising sexual abuse and role playing as one when you have coerced someone into sex before is utterly unacceptable and makes her a disgusting inhuman freak, she’s tcc, awful and has genuinely left me with trauma I have to battle every day, to the point it changed my view on relationships and I now am still recovering after developing a mindset of thinking I should prostitute myself to reclaim what I feel was taken from me, I hope that guilt is eating at her, it genuinely makes me feel so nauseous thinking that she can just victimise herself even though she is the abuser and so many people know that about her. Busy telling me her ex bf was a freak and how it makes it okay to abuse me, oh my fucking god jasmine I hope you know how much pain you have left me in, I HOPE you get better so you don’t keep hurting others with your behaviour time and time again, god I actually hope you’re mother finds out what you did to me I really really really do, but I wouldn’t be surprised if she were to cover it up or condone it because she certainly let it happen in her house.

And the thing that makes me even more mad is she’s not even faking it from what I can see just fetishising it by reposting poems about incestual abuse, sexual assault relatable videos and whatnot she’s literally larping as a victim when her victim is still after almost 3 years and then having the manipulation part happen again last year and feb of this year trying to deal with the trauma.

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On another note I’m now 8 days clean!

Side note, im going to TRY to sleep now wish me luck

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Me right now actually