I wish you would write a fic where Sebastian is so severely damaged that he has to exist as a blob of black goo venom style for a while and he's scared shirtless bc of being so vulnerable and useless
but ciel takes care of him showing him the depth of their mutual devotion to each other. instead of using this chance to kill Sebastian or break the contract ciel doubles down on staying with Sebastian even when be can't protect him and be of use 😋
finally, context for slime sebastian lol
Ciel had seen Sebastian be put through a lot, but he'd never wound up with the contents of his butler dumped into a bucket before.
Sebastian's demonic form was small, the black substance writhing and wispy in the bucket in Ciel's arms, clearly restless despite no longer having any humanoid features. Ciel had witnessed Sebastian use such energy before when he'd rudely shaken Ciel from his traumatic flashbacks in Germany, but he'd never simply become a mass of energy and nothing else.
"Is there nothing I can do to speed your recovery along?" Ciel didn't want to entertain the idea that recovery was impossible. He had to have Sebastian back. There wasn't another option.
Sebastian had not chosen to be swept up into a bucket. He'd been nearly killed by a particularly horrific fight involving another demon and had since barely managed to follow Ciel like a shadow the following day. Ciel had scooped him up when no one else was looking to attempt to help Sebastian hold himself together. Now, he was wandering the grounds, hoping to avoid everyone else.
Rather than speak aloud, Ciel could hear Sebastian's voice in his mind.
You wouldn't use this chance to be rid of me and your contract?
Ciel rolled his eyes. "Of course not." He held his container of Sebastian close to his chest. "You have no choice but to be temporarily excused from your duties, but that lapse will be temporary, understood?"
Sebastian was uncharacteristically anxious.
I hardly have a form, and it will take days or better to regain myself. As is, I cannot defend you or myself. To be honest with you, master, even you could-
"Enough." Ciel loudly tapped on the side of the metal pail with a scowl. "I don't care how long it takes. The other servants will protect me, as we know they're capable of, since they certainly can't do much else. Tell me how to help you."
Sebastian seemed hesitant to say anything. I need to rest.
"Nothing else?"
Being close to you helps.
Perhaps the power of the contract would obligate him to continue to regenerate himself. Ciel nodded, bringing Sebastian inside. "Very well. You can stay in my room and sleep as much as you need to."
The genuine issue Sebastian was having finally came out.
You would still bind your soul to me and trust that I will not fail you again, even after seeing me in such a state?
"You killed that demon, meaning you won. You didn't fail." Ciel shrugged. "Yes, I still want you here. How many times do I have to say it?"
Ciel hadn't prepared for a situation like this. He set Sebastian down on the floor by his bed, figuring that if someone wandered in, Sebastian could easily hide under the bed. "Sleep, then. No one knows you're in this shape, so you should be safe."
Sebastian swirled around in the container, tone still worried.
If I sleep, you'll truly be defenseless. If I at least keep watch-
"Sebastian, I can order you to sleep, or you can just do it." Ciel sighed. He curiously reached his hand in, patting around the top of the substance, feeling like he was touching some kind of shifting slime or wet sand. "It isn't like you to even consider ceasing to exist. I refuse to let you die on me, even if you're unable to defend me for awhile."
...thank you.
"Shut up and sleep, then." Ciel kept Sebastian hidden successfully, aware that he would literally have a monster under his bed for a few days, but that the monster was simply going through a rough time and needed a break.
-
Ciel woke up four days later to a new presence next to him on the bed.
Master, I've recovered enough to be solid, now. This form is easiest to be in. Don't be alarmed.
"Hm?" Ciel yawned and opened his eyes, recoiling at the sight of a black cat sitting next to him. "Hey!"
Sebastian mewed pathetically, ears flinching at Ciel's outburst. He'd given himself a collar with a pendant bearing their contract seal on it. He was still small and scrawny, not taking up much more space than he had as a liquid. He meowed again, tail swishing behind him.
I made sure you aren't allergic to me.
Ciel sighed and rubbed his face. It was true he wasn't sneezing or having any itchiness in his throat. "You're really testing how loyal I am, aren't you?" he muttered.
I'm sorry if it displeases you. Sebastian sounded sincerely upset in Ciel's mind. Cats sleep so much that it feels natural to rest in this form. I won't worry if someone else finds me.
At least Sebastian seemed to be making some progress. Ciel's own dislike of cats aside, he supposed it wasn't that bad when they didn't make him sneeze.
Ciel picked Sebastian up, holding Sebastian in his arms as Sebastian made a confused noise. "You said being close helped, right? I'm going back to sleep, so you should stay with me."
Sebastian gratefully snuggled close, purring against Ciel's chest. Thank you.
"You owe me for this." Ciel scratched behind Sebastian's ears as he laid back down, eyes sliding closed. It was rather nice having a cat curled up with him, but he would never tell Sebastian that. "You owe me big time. I'll come up with a list of demands."
I don't doubt it.
For the first time in Sebastian's existence, he let himself be protected by someone else.
I wish you would write a fic where ciel has trouble getting hard bc of his past and he's really ashamed of it bc he wants to seem attractive to Sebastian and not disappoint him
but Sebastian is very encouraging and gentle and he helps him with foreplay, compliments, encouraging words and sucks and kisses him until eventually he gets hard and Sebastian praises him
I'm kinda recycling my old posts I hope that's okay 😅 still love these concepts
So I went beyond the initial prompt to the point that this will be 2 chapters and chapter 1 doesn't even have smut but I wanted to do this justice and the more I thought about Ciel and having trauma related body issues the more I needed to get into it a little more for a full picture.
Ciel references his past abuse but it isn't detailed, and he has quite a lot of internalized homophobia, victim blaming, sex negativity, and general body shame he's working through:
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
idk why but i felt like I miss you even tho now i realise you've been active here recently
how are you overall? anything going on in your life? what are your highlights or maybe things untelated to kuro you're happy/proud abt?
have a good one 🩷
Awwwww I love you and miss you too tbh we should chat more!
Part of me being more quiet is me having summer classes, and I also got a part time job on my campus which is a huge win! I've been adjusting for a couple weeks, getting used to being a morning person again and such. So it's all good things but I miss writing and such and being around more. I think I can be writing/posting more often soon bc I do think abt sebaciel literally every day
Also the Fate/ event in hsr has me soooo excited I have about a hundred rolls saved for Rin I need her. Hsr is keeping me from redownloading fgo LMAO its crucial
