Had an assessment call yesterday and although she’s agreed to a face to face meeting I’m not feeling very positive.
She was pushing the “they’re just personalities you put on because you like the way they help you cope”
Then told me my homework is to write down what each of them do for me when they’re at their strongest, like what is their purpose?
Some of these guys ain’t got no purpose! They’re just there!
Is Ryan’s purpose to be an emo teen boy who plays games? Is that supposed to be “I like being Ryan because he helps me relax”? Ryan’s games are not relaxing! I don’t like Ryan’s games, Ryan doesn’t like the body. This is not a helpful personality to choose to be.
I don’t know if we just fucked up in trying to explain to her, or if she just doesn’t believe me, or maybe this is just the place she starts at and will hopefully branch out her thinking when we have more conversations. But I just feel so disoriented, depressed, and unheard.
I want trauma therapy, I don’t want to have to yet again go through “why aren’t you hearing me” about another problem! 😪
