#literally rambling

[starsifter]

guys you don't get raritwi raritwi is when purple unicorns sad and book horse x fashion horse kiss cuddle but also princess now? and wings and wings = wing cuddles but they also mean they are different and now she is royalty so it is princess horse x fashion horse and will they ever feel good enough for one another? find out in the next episode but also they are so soft, soft horses and they cuddle and kiss and read and do makeovers and brush each others manes PLEASE

[blessedshortcake]

I am taking "write from your experiences" thing too seriously

I just made the foulest cup of coffee after pulling an all nighter so I can proceed into day 2 of staying up and writing down character sheets

(Ramble incoming feel free to skip to TLDR or ignore lmao)

I use these little coffee packet powders that are basically 1 shot of espresso + sugar you can mix with hot water or milk or whatever and it's a cup of coffee ready. It's a little sweet for my taste but it's my only choice right now so we ball

Now. If you are new here let me introduce myself. Hi, I'm Cupcake, I have a tendency to try stupid shit so I can gain life experience. I also have some kinda undiagnosed heart/blood problem which is a good start up I know.

Well. I got an entire new box of these packets. Like we are talking 100+ of these things. My sleep deprived ass is trying to figure out how much I should use to wake up properly to write. I usually put 2-3 with milk to numb the sweetness.

I grabbed 6 of these bitches. Tore them all up, added the smallest bit of boiling water.

Now, if I tell you that thing turned into a syrup will you believe me?

It turned into a syrup consistency. Looked a lot like half finished cake batter. I mixed it up, added a little more water then filled her up with milk.

Took a sip and by god it wad FOUL. It wasn't even bittersweet like I expected it to be it was just so overwhelmingly sweet I had to drink one third of it and add more milk.

I am waiting for the 6 shots of espresso to hit as I am typing so check back soon maybe? Idk it probably will just make me slightly more functional than normal.

TLDR; I put 6 instant coffee packets in half inch of water and it turned into syrup. Drink tasted way too sweet even with a bunch of milk added.

[snowy-weather]

BTW, the poll thing... please don’t see that as me being all ‘my original story is the best and everyone should love it’. I know it’s basically a fandom of one lol. But I’d like it to be something more one day. And well, if I don’t try... it’ll never get anywhere. 

So I’ll try. I’ll try to get people to see Ace of Swords. I’ll make a comic, I’ll make art, I’ll write... whatever. Maybe even make merch, who knows. This story is my baby and I want to share it with the world. It’s so important to me.

 I get discouraged a lot and sometimes I just wanna give up entirely. But I know in the end I’ll keep trying. ^^ Even if it never gets anywhere. I’ll keep trying. 

[wanderingcas]

it’s almost the end of the year. end of the decade. I feel younger and more naive than I’ve ever been, yet more hardened and cynical than before. I’m waking to the world around me, discovering how much it’s changed; hashtags and rumored apocalypses and influencers and idiots for presidents and wars. 17 and hopeful when I saw the ball drop ushering in a new decade; 27 as I write this, unemployed with two masters degrees and drinking wine far too late in the night. what I thought: cellist, feminist, living in a tiny apartment in new york city, independent. what I am: married, a cat owner, tired, deeply considering never having children because my heart is already tugged in too many directions. I rediscovered writing. I rediscovered scars in my past. I rediscovered myself; and at the same time I’ve never been such a stranger to me. time feels more cyclical than it did when I was young, less of a blur and more of an achievement; holidays are a reminder that I got through another year. I wonder where I’ll be writing about the next decade thats passed; whether I’ll remember to at all, or if my life will be all I’ve hoped for by then, and there won’t be a need to reflect. or is simply moving forward achievement enough; that the older I get, the more I need to see where I’ve come from, in case I lose the path behind me.

[pointless-letters]

‪“Funnily enough, once we realised we had gotten away with breaking the rules, Meg and I embarked on a life of crime that’s honestly breathtaking in its scope. I’m telling you, you can’t move a jar of strawberry jam these days without my firm getting its cut.”‬

[v4mpiv0re]

one day I'll write an essay on how the obsession in fandoms for the coquette "I'm just a girl" aesthetic coupled with "im into older men", and the need to be/feel infantilized is a form of internalised misogyny and just another pretty package for normalisation of p3d0 standards for women. and it's EVERYWHERE in fandoms. like it comes to a point where most xreaders or oc fic involving older men (joel miller or arthur morgans for ex) always have this weird lolita thing going on. big age gaps, heavy D/s, "daddy" stuff. those kinks are not bad per se and I know that fiction ≠ reality but it gets to a point where it's everywhere and SO normalised.

as a former "I love older men❤️" its really weird. to me it's the same reason why extreme dark romance is so popular; it's a way for women to escape patriarchy by re-appropriating themselves patriarchal/misogynistic/abusive narratives to have some sort of catharsis where they feel safe within the cage of male oppression and authority. I hate when m*n try to make it sound like those books or preferences are just porn and "look feminists are hypocritical!" when in reality it's the psychological consequences of patriarchy. when it's too hard to escape the cage you start to make a shelter out of it

[withdevovotion]

constantly on n off with the idea of actually getting fucking glasses,,, do i need them? absolutely,,,,are they cool on other people?? absolutely,,,,,do i look okay in them?? i guess?? idk im worried theyd make me more dysphoric

[shutupspyboy]

side blogs are so annoying like I don't even use my main why can't I like posts and boop people with this blog instead please