Eight's attitude towards humans is so interesting to meeee personally. Like he gets upset about Five's interpretation of him using his followers as shields, and really loves and cares about them, and says that he has worked to trust humanity again-
But. he never did tell them the truth, did he? I think part of that was not wanting to make their lives harder- but I think no matter how badly he wanted to trust, and knew intellectually that he could trust them, he could never quite bring himself to go all the way. Poor kid
I mean he obviously feels deeply bad about both what happens to his followers and lying to them, and I can't help but wonder if that extends into feeling angry with himself for not being able to trust enough, be good enough. I wonder if he felt like he was pretending among the other garde to be someone he wasn't. I wonder if part of the reason Five and his TakesTM freaked him out so bad is because he was worried they were more accurate than he let on.
I wonder if part of the reason he chose to die as fate foretold was so that he could be good enough, at least in death.
anyway i would killllll for Eight pov
this fandom yearns for devdan lore