Living on borrowed time AU: About Bill
Most Bills tends to be pretty chatty and talkative, and for the most part this Bill is.
However, when dealing with this Stanley, its like a switch is flicked, and his mind is flooded with rage. It didn't used to be as bad as its gotten, his temper has always been pretty bad, but at this point its reached beyond critical levels. And this incomprehensible fury brings with it a side effect, of sorts
You ever seen someone get so mad they can't talk? Can't scream? Well that is now something Bill is unfortunately regularly afflicted with when dealing with this Stanley. He positively hates it. He hates how worked up this tiny little insignificant speck causes him to get, hates how it tunnels his vision, how it blinds him.
He gets so consumed in his own fury that sometimes he can't even remember what happens, a Blackout Rage. He finds compared to getting blackout drunk, it is not an experience he enjoys nearly as much.
He also finds he does not like how sloppy it makes him (he will not admit that when dealing with this human he cannot afford to be sloppy).
How it controls affects him(how he reacts to the mere thought of this human in a near Pavlov response of uncontrollable wrath)
He can't even let off some steam via murder, maiming, and mayhem anymore! It's not satisfying, doesn't scratch that itch anymore (they're not the ones he needs wants to hurt, to kill. It doesn't mean anything).
It's. Driving. Him. Mad.
Madder, that is. He was already insane, but you knew that already
Unfortunately for Stanley this lead to Bill having a bit of a self-awareness in that he realized, as mentioned in the first post, that he might accidentally-on-purpose immediately kill him once he has him. Resulting in a quick and (relatively)painless death. A merciful end. That is not on the table, Bill absolutely refuses that as an option. He wants to take his time, it will be a slow and merciless death or none at all.
So Bill has taken measures(or will take measures, depending on where/when we're at) to keep himself in check. This was(potentially) before he committed to putting in wasting the effort of altering Stan to insure he wouldn't critically break him . Yet.
Of course Bills pride won't let him have Stanley, of all things, influence his ability to think and speak (He will not show He does not have any weakness caused by this pathetic excuse of a lifeform), so he trys to get his temper under control.
Eventually he'll get some results, mixed results, but results nonetheless. No longer immediately going for the kill at least
(Debating on the idea of having him put himself on a leash, and tying/tangling himself in his own mental strings, to forcefully keep him from doing certain rash things when furious, or to force himself to speak when his wrath has rendered him mute)
(Possibly something like a freeze response? Like he'll lunge for the kill and he's forcibly stopped, hand shaking as it tries to reach him, only a foot away from being able to rip him apart. Possibly can speak but it's like trying to speak through a clenched jaw, like pulling teeth (which he'd usually enjoy), to get so much as an individual word, let alone a single sentence, out)
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Sorry if this is a bit incoherent, Its early morning and i have to get up in about 2 hours and I haven't gone to sleep yet oops
Also please let me know what you think! Comments are appreciated!
