I've been having a lot of symptoms like, feeling nothing is real and everything is pointless, getting strange fits of anxiety and bizzare fantasies, borderline hallucinating noises and sounds when nothing's there, footsteps, feeling like somebody is behind me, always seeing something move, shadows like animals running around when there's no animal around. I thought this was my ptsd getting worse again and got worried, but other day I read something describing those symptoms and explaining this can happen due to prolonged isolation, it's kind of a relief to know I didn't get worse but lack of other people got to me. I do get all these symptoms every summer when I spend months alone.
To help it, they said you need a daily routine, moving from one place to different room, getting fresh air as much as possible, letting a lot of sunlight in your space, writing things down, which does seem like it would make it marginally better but if you're having a low energy day it's hard to fulfill that stuff. I mean maybe it would work for some people. I'm writing this down for the sake of anyone else who feels like they're going crazy due to lockdown, apparently isolation just does that. It's not permanent damage.
On the other hand, I'm starting to really understand how ghosts feel, I too only feel resentment and desire to wallow in sorrow and haunt places injustice has been done to me until someone figures it out. Scaring abusers when they can't touch me would be so much fun, and making them feel insane until they break down and feel the guilt of their actions and beg for frogiveness would be pure and satisfying and just. Honestly someone should do it and I am the ideal person. I... legit typed frogiveness there. Yes... Perfect. I will haunt them until they beg to be turned into frogs. It's only reasonable course of action. Then they will be frogusers. (frog + abusers).
If this made sense for you, you probably need help and also, I feel you.
