#lokean?

[spear-maiden]

... Okay, Silver Moonlight is making me go "gdi Loki"

Like...:

"And sleeping in your mind You feel it, ties you down Going down I'll go by"

"I think it's only what you have in mind Hold onto the best of you I hit the pavement Going down Don't know why"

"No, I'm patient But this colours (??) that I live All alone in this life I cannot see Dreams we hide are solid But we can't let her bleed Maybe what we make Can you see?"

[shining-wizord]

To make a long story short:

1. I was out of depression meds

2. I couldn't get more depression meds without a follow-up

3. Couldn't get appointment at old doctor for another two weeks, therefore I was denied a refill

4. Went to priority care center due to experiencing withdrawal symptoms

5. New doctor gave me more refills, plus had me do a blood test because she thinks I might have an enlarged thyroid

6. My mom had hyperthyroidism after I was born

7. An enlarged thyroid explains most of my recent health problems including my depression

The moral of the story is: sometimes something really shitty happens before something really, really good happens.

[spear-maiden]

But then I thought about my time as a JoSer, where i adapted some destructive traits and when I stopped being a JoSer, I lost some pieces of myself and grew more serious. I needed a little repairing but tried to fix myself. 

And before I wrote this post, I also remembered myself being silly, and trying to get people to laugh. I was pretty giggly as a kid, haha.

While I didn't particularly lose this part of me, I don't think I felt it much after my JoS time and while Dionysus started to bring it out, it never truly came back until Loki came around.

And now it's like I'm this weird mix of silly, giggly and serious. I guess the best way to describe it is the very train of thought that starts me on thinking about my personality: "I'm like some odd mix of Loki and Odin, welp."

now i hide.

[neverforevergone]

I know I ship it. but are there any fics of Loki and Dean?