In addition to the *I grew up without being anyones crush* I propose the feelings when *I grew up being no ones best friend ever* or *Friend group? never known them*
You feel unworthy of being treated like the priority. You expect them to drop you like so many have before. Do you let anyone close? Do you even know how to? Can I ever feel like sharing my emotions is normal and will be met with kindness? You are still left out of jokes and every so often you are reminded of the way the jokes were about you. You yearn for those summer adventures and side quests of fun. Yet, you feel closer to animals, hybrids or the monsters from your podcast than other human beings.
Maybe you overshare your past and stay weird so no one notices…? Notice what? Your whole self I suppose