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Ok so ... I'm trying to quit antipsychotics. I've been on some kind of antipsychotic for a long time, but the one I'm currently taking is called abilify, and it's been with me since 2017-18 or thereabouts.
We have a rocky relationship. Unlike my first prescription, abilify never gave me the Relief(tm), it just kept me at a certain baseline for the most part. I don't remember what it was like without anymore?
And i crave .. knowing.
So the past 1-2 weeks I've taken half the dose i usually do. I'm supposed to go further down soon
But I'm scared.
Scared that something will happen, scared that nothing will happen. Scared it's all me, all of it. That my personality is just lost to the years.
But also i fear ... The people who know me now... Will they still love me when I'm less "easy"? Will it wear them down?
Is it fair of me to ask them to love the person behind the chemical shell they fell in love with?
