Mothers Day for Mum’s who have lost a child or for those that have lost a Mum.
Well I never thought I would be writing a blog entry about this and I certainly would not have imagined being in both camps. Tomorrow for those of us in New Zealand, Australia, United States and Canada its Mothers Day. A date in the calendar that has been commercially turned into a special day for spoiling Mums.
It's been a tough week for me this week, as soon as I realised it was Mothers Day on Sunday I had that sinking feeling. Ideally I would spend all day in the temple but Ella’s so excited. I've shed a fair amount of tears this week which I'm grateful to say is unusal for me but the thought of ‘Mothers Day’ has been harder for me to deal with than even Marley's Birthday or Christmas. I suppose it's because since loosing my Mum at the age of 13 it's always been a very difficult day and being a Mum is all I ever wanted to be. As soon as I was pregnant with Ella it became one of the best days of the year, but this ones going to be tough again.
Tomorrow, for those Countries that celebrate it, there will be many people that wont feel like celebrating. No matter what age you are when you loose your Mum, Mothers Day will never be the same again. If you have lost a child either through miscarriage or at any age it will always be difficult, very, very difficult. Although our Mums and our children are not physically here with us tomorrow we still have Mums and we are still Mums. They are not here to physically hold but it doesn't mean the relationship has ended, they will always be there. So tomorrow if you need to cry, cry but if you can, try and do something nice to celebrate the day in a small way. They will be with us, like always and they really don't like it when we are sad. So be thankful for the time you had and remember your not alone.
Love and light to all of you special people, I'll be thinking of you xxxxxx