#lostandstilllost

[mr-leach]

April 2 has always been "Leach Day" in my head. I'm sorry for all the birthday presents that I started and never finished over the years! But I love you and hope you have the most amazing day celebrating your wonderful life!! You are a light.

Holy shit omg///// DON’T EVEN I’m still hoping to give you something nice in return for that adorable Tokunaga hat you made me holy moly sjdfskdfbskjb I LOVE YOU OKAY BLESS YOU :’)

[gemrys]

Illustrating another person's characters is no different than singing a song that they've written. You connect with it, it's stuck in your head, and you're allowed to express your affinity openly! Be free to do so!! Fanart is awesome and I love seeing your work. And I've seen original artists almost brought to tears by fan art 'cause it's so uplifting for them to know someone connected to their work that much! Every "known artists" was once an "original artist" so let them be uplifted!! xx

^ u^

[mr-leach]

Shhhhushh you guyyyss///////

[livsnjutaree]

Sweet Adam tagged me in a thing:

rule 1: always post the rules 
rule 2: answer the tagger’s questions, and write 6 of your own rule 3: tag 6 ppl and link them to the post

1. What is your favorite memory? This is going to sound really weird and melodramatic but last Christmas Eve I had a panic attack and my sister came in my room and sat with me until I calmed down and then she brought me back into her room and got me tea and then we had a sleepover and she cuddled me and told me fun Christmas stories until I fell asleep and I just felt so loved in that moment. 

2. Do you sort your laundry or just throw it all in at once? I've been doing my laundry since I was about 14 so it's changed every year or so. 

3. Do you like puzzles? NO only for the reason that I'm so bad at them. 

4. What was your childhood dream/goal? If I didn't say to have my own TV show, I would be lying to you.

5. How has that dream changed/what caused it to change/in what ways are you fulfilling that dream directly or indirectly? It's kind of evolved over the years. Since I realized that my dream was pretty unattainable at an early age, I still had the urge to pursue performing in a variety of mediums, and its now culminating in my vocal performance degree (which I'm still probably not going to do anything with LOL)

6. What is something with which you feel a strong, personal connection that goes beyond how you think others view it/feel towards it (literally anything)? Why (if there is a reason)? ((lmao does this question even make sense)) If this question is asking what I think it's asking, I would say that I have an extra special connection to cowboy boots. Every time I see them I get a happy warm feeling and I think of my dad because he LOVES his gosh diddly darn cowboy boots. 

I have to run to a coaching now so I'm not gonna follow rules 2b or 3 

BUT THANK YOU SWEET ADAM :* :* :*

[mr-leach]

I homeschooled for a good portion of my school career due to bullying and poor health. I also graduated from college the same time some of my peers were graduating from high school. Heh. Homeschooling is rad! Part of me worries about my future children because, like, yikes! Don't go to school! But also how am I going to have the time to homeschool them if I'm working all the time?? I guess it's not something I should be worrying about since it's so far in the future but I can't help it! Haha.

I was really glad to see how that worked out for you, by the way! When you first told me you were going to be home schooled I think I worried because at the time I still believed all the stigma surrounding homeschooling;;

Now that I know better though, and I look back at all the things that, as a kid, I was convinced were totally normal?? It kinda scares the shit out of me. Like, as in, it really scares the shit out of me. But yeah, I dunno what I'd do if I had a full time job and no partner to rely on, what would I do about it, I wonder.

For me it's potentially not that far haha;;; If you think about it. I mean maybe it'll be a while before I'm financially ready to take on a kid, or even emotionally ready, but then again, who's to say that can't also be, like, next year.

Lol well maybe not next year LOL but like if you think of it in terms of like "maybe before I'm 30" well that's...within 5 1/2 years, for me. WEIRD;;

[mr-leach]

lostandstilllost replied to your post:I realize I never spoke about how my doctor’s...

Have you thought about Celiac’s Disease? I had all the symptoms of fibro and it turned out to be Celiac’s. It was causing joint and muscle pain similar to what you described, anxiety, depression, and fatigue. It’d often flare up without explanation.

I'm sure he's already screened me for it without telling me, because NEVER tells me what he's looking for in the blood tests he orders 9_9

And if I did bring it up to him and he hadn't yet considered it, he would likely give me some half-assed excuse to not actually check for it regardless. That doesn't mean I won't try, though, of course.

[mr-leach]

lostandstilllost replied to your post:WHY CAN’T I LIKE A POST MORE THAN ONCE

leach this is passive aggressive

Of course it is but that's because I aggressively love you so much

[mr-leach]

lostandstilllost replied to your post:prllnce replied to your post:How I still manage to...

this is my life

Sometimes your dash tricks u and you see a bunch of stuff reblogged from u so you think you're close but really it was just a bunch of your international mutuals rebloggin stuff like 6 hours after you originally posted....