#losthoughts

[mzhlz]

Mexico made me invisible.

Ive stood out, my whole life. Always somehow different... foreign.

I felt like i came home, somehow my face was lost in the crowd of faces and for the very first time in my life, i felt home.

Like that was where i belonged, like my soul came home.

Being in my actual home, i feel foreign, even in the place where i grew up. Like somehow i was in the wrong place and couldnt understand why i always wanted to leave.

[of-fae]

So I’m quiet active today, but I was totally just reminded of something.

I was recently added to a page that is meant to function as an LGBT pride and support group. Every member that as been added as started entering their information and it reminded me that (let’s say a friend) someone told me that my identity was not valid. Like are you fucking kidding me? I go to great lengths to defend yours but you cannot even respect me enough to think that I can actually be bi? Just because the person I am currently talking to is a male. Fuck you. I should remove you from my social life to be honest here. 

You are toxic for my mental health. Nothing but stress and another person how’s trying to overpower my voice in a group conversation. Fuck you. I’ll slowly cut you off and eventually I’ll only talk to everyone in our group but you. 

Because I’m not going to ruin myself for you. I love myself far more then I care for our friendship.