i never listen to you. i never obeyed your word. sometimes i hate you. but you keep on forgiving me. you are always there in my happiest, memorable days. you are there when i am comfortable, safe and contented. yet you are with me also in my darkest, worst days. you know every thing i did, doing and will be doing. you know my weaknesses, strengths and temptations. yet you never love me less. i am not perfact and i will never be. i am stubborn and hardheaded. i always make my own way and never learn when i get into trouble. but you are so gracious to always forgive me. i keep on compromising my faith, i keep on holding grudges and bitterness. but you are so faithful and merciful to me. i am selfish and unforgiving. i am rude and envious. i am always angry and short tempered. yet you still hold me and never let me go. sometimes i never talk to you. i am sulking and putting all the blame on you. i have hatred and self pity. but you never given up on me. you said that you are constant and never changing God. you said theres nothing i can do that make you love me less. you said that nothing can separate me from your love. and Jesus died for all of my sins. i do not deserve you Lord. but you are so gracious to accept me as your own. in my perspective i am never lovable, i can never be the most beautiful. i will never be seen so perfect. and i will always be the annoying girl who happens to exists. yet you see me otherwise. you see me as molded by your own image, you see me fearfully and worderfully made. i am perfect in your eyes and you love me unconditionally. there are times when I doubted you. whether your patience run out, or you wont forgive me anymore becuase i have done it a million times. but you said you are the same yesterday today and forever. do not give up on me God. i do have a lot of shortcomings, i usually stumble, i am easily tempted. i am hard in forgiving. hold me tight and never let me go. change me the way you want to. i do not like myself but you love me. i do not deserve any of your goodness, and i am forever thankful for choosing me inspite of my imperfections. i love you, change me.